Jealousy...
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Posted:Feb 17, 2008 4:14 pm
Last Updated:Mar 13, 2008 8:27 pm 125547 Views
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"Jealousy, that dragon which slays love under the pretence of keeping it alive."
~Havelock Ellis~
Jealousy as defined by Webster`s New World Dictionary, means "to be very watchful or careful in guarding or keeping; resentfully suspicious of a rival or a rival`s influence." This is a simple definition for a complex word. Everyone experiences jealousy differently. What may cause one person to become jealous may not affect the next. Jealousy is often used synonymously with envy. Envy, however, is the desire to acquire something possessed by another, and jealousy is the fear of losing something already possessed. People are jealous when they seek to maintain control over human beings who are important to them.
And why Am I writing this blog about jealousy? I always get into trouble for being rhetorically very outspoken. I speak my heart out, and more often than not, I am always misunderstood. I lost very good friends because of jealousy which stemmed from a very unfounded and ridiculous, vicious suspicion. I have been part of what is now a towering height and also a part of what is next to it. I've done what I thought was more than dedication and friendship. And yet, I wasn't spared from jealousy or maybe envy. Power struggle is never meant to take over what was thought and considered as love, and compassion beyond the square screen. On the verge of death, I "helped" resuscitate what seemed to be in near death flock of birds, and together, we flew high and rose above the skies. However, there will always be "thankful and thankless" elements along the way....History has the tendency to repeat itself...I REST MY CASE, IN RECLUSE.
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The Inside A Man
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Posted:Feb 17, 2008 8:24 am
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2008 6:47 pm 82833 Views
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...And you think he is tough
...You think he knows enough
...He speaks with eloquence
...His looks every girl would scream
...He has the tenacity everyone would dream
...He gets mixed up with his heart and his brain
...He'll tell you, "Lo, and behold"
...In this arena "I am the King, I am the Lord"
...AND YET,
...You think he's got air in his head
...No, he's got bubbles instead
...Bubbles that would burst and pop
...Just like his love, it will disappear in a snap
...You see this person every now and then,
...He's charming, he'll have your heart broken
...But no one knows, just what's on his mind
...He needs attention, more than you and I combined
...AND YOU THINK HE IS A MAN..
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JUST HANG IN THERE!...
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Posted:Feb 9, 2008 7:59 am
Last Updated:Nov 8, 2010 8:12 pm 83921 Views
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So often it seems that life is only made up of things to worry about. Life has many disappointments for all of us ... death, illnesses, betrayals, tragedies, and feelings of worthlessness and despair. Sometimes life can seem so very grim, and so many times we tend to wallow in pools of self-pity.
I would just like to say again ... I believe that our time here on earth gives us the opportunity to grow spiritually. We can experience much personal growth because of all the suffering, worries, and difficulties we have to go through during our mortal lives. It is God's way of fine-tuning us so we become more compassionate, more caring, more loving, and more aware of others' pain. After all, how could we ever dry the tears of others if we had never cried ourselves?
We all find ourselves in the valley of despair sometimes. It may sometimes seem that we are forever worrying, learning lessons, suffering pain, and facing challenges. But we must try to remember that the fertilizer that helps us "grow" is in those valleys, not on the mountain tops.
During the times that we feel scared and confused, we will always end up wiser and we will grow more from the experiences. We will understand more about people and life, become more sensitive, and we'll be able to enjoy life more after we go through the hard times.
We have to experience sadness so that we may better measure joy. Life has a way of balancing the sorrow with the joy, the disappointments with the hope, and the emptiness with the meaning.
SO, JUST HANG IN THERE!
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AMBIVALENCE...
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Posted:Feb 3, 2008 2:09 pm
Last Updated:Feb 27, 2008 6:12 pm 82473 Views
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Sometimes, it is so difficult to make a decision when you have no choice but one, or when you are faced with too many options, but what appeals to you is none.
Lucky are those who only have a few clothes to wear, for they won't have the hard time deciding which one to don for the day, compared to someone who has a closet of wardrobes and yet cannot pick which one is best.
Blessed are those who need to repeat the same meal 3 times a day, for their appetite shows the gratefulness for the food on top of their tables, than those whose abundance yields to waste.
Happy are the hearts who only beat for one, than those who fickle and cannot contain the complexities of loves intertwined.
Why must we be ambivalent in this life? Why can't we be satisfied by the simplicity that love presents itself? Why does fear of the unknown hold us back?...WHY?
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Your Will Be Done....
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Posted:Jan 31, 2008 7:05 pm
Last Updated:Feb 9, 2008 7:46 am 82316 Views
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I had my dreams, I had my plans, I thought my life was at my command.
I wasn't right, not that I didn't fight,
For my wishes to come true, My God I truly need You.
Who am I to question, Your power and perfection?
My way of life is not according to your direction.
So, here I am, submitting myself to You,
In complete surrender, now and forever.
THY WILL BE DONE...
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REBOUND REJECTION...
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Posted:Jan 27, 2008 5:41 am
Last Updated:Feb 22, 2008 3:02 pm 102688 Views
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...happens when one's heart is badly bruised by someone else's inability to reciprocate true love.
...is subconsciously warding off any opportunity to find love and happiness due to past hurt.
...is the negative trajectory motion to return the love offering at a speed of a jet.
...is a displacement of one's anger and ill feelings to someone who is innocent of the pain others may have caused the rejector.
...is basically saying "NO" without even trying to see if there is an opportunity to find love in return.
...is a REJECTION unresolved.
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The Life Of A Recluse...
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Posted:Jan 22, 2008 5:41 am
Last Updated:Jan 28, 2008 2:59 am 81762 Views
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...is a form of an escape to this seemingly stressful and complicated life. It doesn't mean that if you live in a big city, one doesn't feel lonely and empty.
...is a time to reflect on how your life have been over the years, the changes that you've made, the decisions that made you or destroyed you, the lessons that you've learned and the mistakes that you've repeatedly done. How did life treat you? and how much did you treat life back?
...is the time to put "love" on hold, to temporarily shut your doors to the world, to guard your heart from pains, to put your mind, body and soul to rest...
And the world stood still, for a moment.
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The Beautiful Mind.....
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Posted:Jan 19, 2008 12:26 pm
Last Updated:Feb 17, 2008 4:22 pm 82808 Views
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It's not just mental pictures and movies we see in our mind's eye--or with our actual eyes. There's an inner dialog going on constantly about our thoughts, opinions and ideas about those images we see. We constantly talk to ourselves about the physical and emotional feelings we get, too.
So if things are not going your way in one or more areas of life, to point fingers anywhere but to yourself is to be guaranteed to keep getting more of the same.
That's a lock.
The way you see life now is the same way you've looked at it for years. Because that self talk that's been in your head for years has been shaping your view of your world all that time. So if you want some circumstances or some emotional patterns to change, the only way it will happen is to examine your beliefs and attitudes surrounding the underlying issues, and you must change your self-talk. Otherwise...
Where you are failing, take responsibility. Change your inner affirmations (your beliefs) Then and only then can you take control.
So, when are you going to talk seriously to yourself?
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When One Is Too Much and Many Is Not Enough.....
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Posted:Jan 15, 2008 7:07 pm
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2008 5:20 am 109540 Views
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And you think I am kidding? No!...Yes, it happens to everyone. Sometimes, we have that one and only love of our life and yet, we feel suffocated, we feel chained, we feel choked with everything that goes with a romantic relationship. On the contrary, sometimes, we have a lot, meaning, too many prospective "aspirants", and yet, we find none of them to really fit into our world of romance. Why is that? I mean, come to think of it. I am not begging for anyone to come into my life, but those who come just seem to be not the ones I really choose to be with. And the ones I think I'd like to give a chance for love to grow are either pre-occupied with something or someone, or really not into serious relationships. Isn't it weird? People cannot believe that I don't have anyone "official" for the longest time. And I keep telling myself: "No, there is nothing wrong with you."...Sometimes, we just have to meet a lot of wrong people in order for us to meet the right (not the perfect) one. Sometimes, I blame all those who "spoiled" me, because, since then, I find it so hard to develop a new relationship without having to think that I should get even 50% of what they've done to me. Is my heart simply calloused? is too critical? or is it too afraid?...I envy those who can be with someone and yet love somebody else. There's no way I can force myself doing such. No offense meant. To each his/her own. This is just me. I guess, I deserve to be alone...and just be content to be JOYFULLY SINGLE...but sometimes, lonely.
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Long Distance Friendship
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Posted:Jan 13, 2008 5:30 pm
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2008 5:23 am 109056 Views
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"Long Distance Friendship"
I think of you so often and remember happily
The many times we met on the net, you and me.
Never have I ever known before you came along
That a long distance friendship could be so very strong.
You've given me so many things in many different ways;
You're good and sweet and kind with a smile that always says...
You'd open up your heart to anyone you see
And this is why, my friend,
You mean the world to me.
(Author-J
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