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More than what you know...

whichever way you go... I go the opposite..

Ayala Avenue
Posted:Apr 26, 2005 3:02 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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Ayala Avenue (Because I couldn't think of a more catchy title.)

After dragging my feet up and down along Ayala this aftrenoon (with some friends), I realized that:

1. I hate tall, posh, snobbish buildings. They make me feel like I'm a low-life, an insect.

2. Guards are not as reliable as we think. Many simply don't know what's inside the buildings their guarding.

3. Talking to receptionists requires infinite patience. Some of them don't know what simple courtesy means.

4. Estimating the distance between two points is not only stupid, but also tiring.

5. Relying on one's own estimation of the distance between two points is stupider. (Distance is relative: The nearer you think you are to a place, the farther it actually is.)

6. Getting lost is fun, especially when with friends.

7. Guys are luckier than girls. They don't HAVE TO wear high heels.

8 It's advisable to use sunscreen everyday. Especially when one is going at Ayala. The sun glows more brightly in Ayala than anywhere else. Believe me.

9. Peole at Ayala look happier than ordinary people. Thay walk with such smug faces it makes you wonder what about Ayala that makes them like that.

10. In real world, presentation is everything. Substance comes after form. It's what people see that counts.

That's my whole day!
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21 Thoughts To Get You Through Almost Any Crisis
Posted:Apr 25, 2005 3:36 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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21 Thoughts To Get You Through Almost Any Crisis
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1.) Indecision is the key to flexibility.

2.) There is absolutely no substitute for a genuine lack of preparation.

3.) Happiness is merely the remission of pain.

4.) Nostalgia isn't what it used to be.

5.) The facts, although interesting, are irrelevant.

6.) The careful application of terror is also a form of communication.

7.) Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the real world.

8.) Things are more like they are today than they have ever been before.

9.) Anything worth fighting for is worth fighting dirty for.

10.) Everything should be made as simple as possible but no simpler.

11.) Friends may come and go, but enemies accumulate.

12.) I have seen the truth and it makes no sense.

13.) Suicide is the most sincere form of self-criticism.

14.) If you think that there is good in everybody, you haven't met everybody.

15.) All things being equal, fat people use more soap.

16.) If you can smile when things go wrong, you have someone in mind to blame.

17.) One-seventh of your life is spent on Mondays.

18.) By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.

19.) Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.

20.) There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.

21.) Never wrestle with a pig. You both get dirty and the pig likes it.

drunken_angel
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Success 101
Posted:Apr 24, 2005 5:04 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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The standard of success for me is being able to feel that sense of fulfillment. It's the totality of achieving emotional, financial and spiritual stability. A lot of people would say that it's a matter of giving your best in everything you do, but for me, success is measured by whatever the results of your actions are, may it be intended or unintended. It’s not enough to have the drive and the will to weave your way to the top; it’s more of how you put your visions into reality.

I always keep this quote in mind everytime I’m tempted to accept that I am successful only because I feel that I have suffered enough and persevered enough,

" You cannot judge someone by mere effort, you can only judge him through whatever tangible thing he has produced."

When I talk about emotional stability, I picture not only myself improving every single day but it includes being able to touch other people's lives and hopefully making life a li'l better for them. Emotional stability is an essential standard because success can deliver loneliness, greed and even overwhelming emptiness. It makes you doubt, it makes you feel the uncertainty lurking and enveloping you. When is it time to laugh? To cry? To be serious? To be a mere observer? To participate? Emotional stability will ensure success, which gives emphasis on contentment without losing that drive to reach new horizons. .

It's too hypocritical to say that a person doesn't dream of financial stability and that it isn’t a part of someone's standards of success. I do accept the fact that the preference over emotional, financial and spiritual stability may vary but it's still included in the list. Being fairly compensated for the things that you do is an incentive and an inspiration to do more and to contribute more. Whether we would like to admit it or not, it is an acknowledgment of the company's appreciation of an employee's contributions and effort. Everything's two-way, you give and you receive, although the magnitude of the things you receive may differ from what you give, it's still ideal to have it two-way. Success is also measured by looking at a person's lifestyle. Who wouldn’t want to have enough money to buy the things that he needs / wants? It's not about merely getting rich, but it's about knowing your worth in a more concrete kind of way.

Spiritual stability isn’t really something that relies mainly on one's religion. I don’t think it should be an issue of whether you are a catholic or not, it's more of an issue of having the capability to accept and tolerate what other people believe in. It’s being able to adjust to the diversity of faith that you encounter. It's having a more personal relationship with your God without imposing on other people. I don’t see anything wrong with same sex marriage anymore. I don’t see anything wrong with divorce anymore especially now that I’m aware of how many marriages are just not working. I’m not against premarital sex anymore because I know a lot of wonderful people who are doing it and are in no way living shitty lives. I don’t take it against people that they’re atheists anymore because just like me, they just chose to take the path that they think would be more appropriate for them. In fact, I admire them for surviving a life that isn’t dependent on miracles. That is spiritual stability, being comfortable with what others think without sacrificing what you yourself believe.

Success is measured by your life and how you live it while acknowledging the fact that your life's intertwined to that of everyone's life. It’s breaking free and moving in emotional nudity.-May
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Posted:Apr 24, 2005 4:08 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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i pour out my heart today, for this might be the last time i do this for you.
God knows i've tried. i've tried really hard to be that woman for you, and it seems like you're never satisfied with me. i am tired. there is nothing in me anymore, i have given you my all.
i will always remember you, i will always love you.

i guess i wasn't enough.
may God teach me to stop caring for you already.
moreover, may He remind me of how to love myself again.
i loved you so much... still wondering why it wasn't enough...
why i wasn't enough...
why you could not be satisfied with what you have...
i am tired. i am finished.
there is nothing left anymore.
still, i love you.
even if i wasn't the strongest, best, most stable choice you ever had.
i will miss you. just the thought kills me.

God help me stay alive.
God help me see this through...
and may God protect you from harm.
may He protect you from those who aim to abuse you.
may He protect you from yourself.-drunken_angel
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Men's Rules...
Posted:Apr 23, 2005 2:46 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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Please note...these are all
numbered "1"ON PURPOSE!

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a
big girl. If it's up, put
it down. We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining
about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon
or the changing of the
tides.

Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we
are never going to think of it
that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear
on this one:

Subtle hints do not work!

Strong hints do not work!

Obvious hints do not work!

Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable
answers to almost every

question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you
want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your
girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is
a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is
inadmissible in an argument. In
fact, all comments become null and void
after 7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's
Secret girls, don't expect
us

to act like soap opera guys.

1. If something we said can be
interpreted two ways and one of the
ways makes you sad or angry, we meant
the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something
or tell us how you want it

done. Not both. If you already know best
how to do it, just do it
yourself.

1. Whenever possible, please say
whatever you have to say during

commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did not need
directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like
Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color.
Pumpkin is also a fruit. We
have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do
that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you
say "nothing," we will act like

nothing's wrong. We know you are lying,
but it is just not worth the

hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want
an answer to, expect an answer
you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere,
absolutely anything you wear is

fine...Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about
unless you are prepared to
discuss such topics as baseball, the
shotgun formation, or monster
trucks.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I
know, I have to sleep on the

couch tonight; but did you know men
really don't mind that? It's like

camping.
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Choices
Posted:Apr 22, 2005 6:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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Is there a good or a bad choice? What if your choice made a lot of people happy and left you miserable,is that a good or a bad choice? - Mama Ivee

I think there are bad choices, im just not sure how we can accurately pinpoint 'em. Think of how connected and complicated the web of events is, there are indeed intended and unintended consequences. For me, the only thing we can do is to minimize the damage and not feel bad about things over which we have no control. A lot of people think that if their intentions are noble, things'll end up ok for everyone. But life's a stubborn bitch, it doesnt nod and allow you to go on and on and on in peace. Life will never be fair[Seventh Heaven]. If you choose or decide on something, stand by it, dont blame other people, be ready to be responsible for your actions. it's a classic move to end everything in style, End it with composure, whatever the problem is.

The idea of taking into consideration other people in making decisions is not that bad, it's an obvious act of selflessness. But just like everything else, it must have its limitations. we cant forever sacrifice our happiness just to please the people around us. At times, we have to choose that path that might hurt 'em in the process but will prove to be the right path in the long run. Life is ours to live, every choice we make leads us to our next step. Everything in moderation.

In my opinion, what's more important is how we handle our lives in a more "macro" kind of way. Being able to count your blessings has proven to be very therapeutic for me. I made a lot of wrong choices, wrong decisions in the past, at times i feel bad about 'em. But when the smoke of depression disappears, i make it a point to face life head on. Choices.. if destiny exists, choices are what happen after 'em. Destiny is a prelude to a decision, a choice..

Drunken_angel
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an email from Mama Ivee
Posted:Apr 22, 2005 6:24 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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I was checking out my email and I got this email from Mama Ivee. Here's the email :

baby girl,

i just want to ask you something...why do people sometimes want to give up but they can't??? I know there are reasons behind it and we have a choice (do we?)..I guess so, you know you're right about your article that sometimes we're not aware that we are making choices. Sometimes we just find it out in the end if the choices we made was right or wrong. We just thought of it after we experience the consequences of the choices we made..Does choices really has a right or wrong..good or bad?? What if the choice we made was for the good of others but your hurting yourself..is that right/good?

I answered her email but wasn't sure if I really thought of it so well, but it wasn't the whole thing yet as I am not yet done explaining it so yet but here's what has came out of my mind when I answered right away.

Mama Ivee,

It came out as the most difficult questions that I have to answer this time. Wasn't in a good mood though but I find it really challenging and interesting, but let me see, how well my brain/mind will work. The honest answer I can give so far.

To your first question : "why do people sometimes want to give up but they can't??? " You know how well I can relate to this one right? absolutely you're aware of how many times I had to tell you "I can't bear it anymore, I want to give up, I am hurting" but then again.. for how many times I decided to give up, I just can't... why do we want to give up anyway? why do I want to give up? simply because I am hurting, I am thinking that I am worthless, I am senseless, I am not special. Reasons behind giving up. But then I'll go ahead and fight and never let go....

I just can't let go of someone who I always try to hate but I am loving more, I just can't let go of the only reason why I smile every single day, I just can't let go of that someone I know will make my life more interesting, challenging, complete, colorfull, and meaningful, I just can't let go of someone I know who is not perfect but I am absolutely treating as a perfect guy, I just can't let go of the someone I know I'd love/Id be happy to offer my life for/to, I just can't let go of someone I never thought I could love more than I love myself..... I just can't.

Meaning, we can't let go because we have reasons, reasons that we can not easily analyze by just thinking of/about it or rationalizing it through minds but through our feelings, with how we feel, how we felt, how much emotions we exert on it. The fact the we are loving, we have the feelings, the intensity of what we call "so much love" is stopping me from giving up instead it gave me the courage, the faith, the beliefs of "Things will work" otherwise, we know that we are hurting, but then again we always hope and that is because we have the choices, ... on of the choices is opening our minds to the possibility of working things out, of maybe things will work... why not?, I should try?, maybe? ... I know I have not chosen a wrong guy to give out my heart for, but will things work?

Do we really need to give up? Do I really need to give up? There are lots of answer I can give you but somehow, I am set for only one goal this time and I won't let just go and let my mind be diverted to some stuff which I am not pretty interested at. Every kind of situation has to come up with that question, for example, When a guy is looking for a job and all the he tried applying at, didn't accept him, will he need to give up? I'd say it is so certain of him if he says he will give up but then again he'll think do I really have to when he badly need it, when he badly wants it?

Can I ask you, what is it that you think you want to give up? What are your'e reasons for giving up? for not giving up? Do you really "have" to give up? You have your own reasons, but in General our reasons was merely focus on one single thought. "We know how well we love"

Should I tell you that in everything we do, there must be "no" reasons? Why? I'd like to tell you that, when we want something we should not focus on "because"... but instead "inspite of", "even if", "no matter what" ... anyhow, I won't give up "because... " I'd tell you again and again I must never give up "inspite of" the hurtful feelings it is causing me, I must never give "even if" I know it is too way impossible to keep him inlove with me. I must never give up "no matter what" he'll do that will hurt me nor how many times he'll ignore me...

"Does choices really has a right or wrong..good or bad?? "

a choice is a choice .... once you make it ... you accept the consequenses of that decision,
choices and decisions are relative to the person making them. that's a self-negating question. That's up to the person making the decision ... as pertaining to his/her frame of mind and choices/decisions.

I know it's quite short for an answer but think of it well and it's all that above answer.

'What if the choice we made was for the good of others but your hurting yourself..is that right/good?"

- "bad for you ... good for them....' self-answering question." At the same time, I'd give a round of applause for choosing to do the right thing. For me what I always say " i'd rather get myself hurt for loving you"...

-To be continued-
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Habemus Kamo?
Posted:Apr 21, 2005 4:33 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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I know, I know... this entry may pass off as a work of a real 'cornstar' not that I'm vying for the title or anything, but the recent papal appointment by the Roman Catholic Cardinals of Pope Benedict XVI has unleashed an unprecedented amount of media coverage, as well as humorous gestures among the masses. With the resounding "HABEMUS PAPAM" pronouncement, somehow, people would be remembering those words as well as other words that "sounds like" them. So here are a few Habemuses that I've encountered over the past couple of days. You'd be surprised at how ingenius we Filipinos are with words.

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habemus papa - without the 'm'. This is the official pronouncement or simply what you say when either you or your matrona auntie or mother has a new boylet.
habemus fafa - similar to habemus papa, however this one is more obvious that the fafa fits the category of fafakainin, fafalamunin, and other fafa terms.
habemus datung - this is probably the one of the best habemuses that we are all waiting for. It could either imply winning in a casino, lottery, getting a significant inheritance. As long as it pertains to a significant monetary influx, this term can also be used. This could also be used for the "nouveau riche". But like Imelda Marcos' embroidered pillow would read, "it's better to be nouveau riche than no riche at all!!!"
habemus pupu - have you ever changed diapers? If you have, then you know exactly what this means.
habemus tatoo - this one is self explanatory. This is also one thing I haven't ventured into yet.
habemus apo - this is the significant event that sent your grandparents when your parents had you, or your parents when you had your to a state of joy and fulfillment.
habemus lactum - what else? none other than fresh milk!!
habemus kako? - ito ang sinasabi ng isang tao na di nakikinig.

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Well, this is just some useless nonsense. But however, I hope this knowledge has enriched you and made your last 5 minutes reading this worthwhile nevertheless.
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Tuliro
Posted:Apr 21, 2005 4:31 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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here's the thing that really confuses me. or what's causing me so much anguish: i can't understand you.

are you just trying to be nice to me? or do you really mean what you say in your messages like the one i got from you last monday?

even if i try to build my walls so high, somehow you still manage to catch me off guard. and it's driving me insane. i know you made it clear to me that you're not about to bring this friendship to a new level, and i've been trying so hard to accept that. and i am having a hard time with the little messages you send every now and then. ano ba talaga gusto mo mangyari?

i don't know what to make of this right now. i just don't know.

song of the moment: rivermaya's you'll be safe here.

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here
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Be inspired!
Posted:Apr 21, 2005 5:32 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm
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A forwarded message from a good friend Ivee. I was touched with the story and hopefully all of you at the same time.

Here's how it goes :
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Message: A great note for all to read. It will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by
the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those
one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and
color of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while sailed
their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine
view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in
exquisite detail, the man on the other side of
the room would close his eyes and imagine
the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days and weeks passed. One morning, the day
nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the
window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man
asked if he could be moved next to the window.
The nurse was happy to make the switch, and
after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could
have compelled his deceased roommate who had
described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said,

"Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."

Epilogue: There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness
when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the
things you have that money can't buy.

"Today is a gift,

that's why it is called the

present."
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