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You don't know what youv'e got til' it's gone... Life is one mysterious journey in this universe. It's like what Tom Hanks said in Forest Gump: "Life is like a box of chocolates. You'll never know what you will get." I love my life. It's not a perfect one, no siree. But I've never had any regrets in anything that has happened in nineteen years of breathing. Well, at least the most of it that I can remember. I've been hurt so many times in the past. The last one was REALLY the worst so far. Partly because it was my fault, I never did hold on it tightly enough. I wouldn't want to reminisce the bad times (I'm not the type who delves into the past), but it was something that I could have avoided if I had been listening to my dear friends. Anyhow, it's all behind me now. Now I love my friends even more. And I have promised myself to listen to then in case I'll be needing their counsel again in the future. I've met someone lately, although not physically yet. I guess I'm being more apprehensive about getting into another relationship. Cuiusvis hominis est errare; nullius nisi insipientis in errore perseverare. After all, I'm only human. But I can't and I won't allow myself to fall victim to the same trap once more. I was having this conversation (through yahoo) with a newly-found friend. He said that we grow wiser each day. True. But it's also not a sin to commit mistakes, albeit the same one. Does that mean then that we're fools if we do so? Commit the same mistake I mean? Certainly not. Jason (my newly-found friend) said people do crazy things when in love. I couldn't agree more. The next time I jump into another relationship though, I would have to take a step backward. Just to allow myself not to lose sight of reality. I don't want to go crazy again. In love, that is. People may call it it having reservations. I call it being careful this time. I've met someone. I'm just afraid of making any moves. I'm not afraid of rejection. Nor am I afraid of failure. I just don't know if I can be as trusting as I was before. I'm afraid of not being able to be a good partner, what with the failed two-and-a-half-year relationship before. I have grown. True. But did I grow to become a better person? I hope so. I don't want to become indifferent to a person that I cared for. Anyway, no point in jumping to conclusions. It's still a mile's stretch yet.  
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