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Zombie - Maynila V. Molina 04-13-05/7am My mind has started to become a complete blank. no. not my mind. my entirely is being drowned into the void. 2am. opened my eyes and stared at the stars. the glow-in-the-dark ones plastered on my ceiling. hmm.. slept early at 9pm. five hours of sleep. didn't even get the chance to eat dinner. that's a good thing. not eating i mean. unlike other people who gobble up food like there's no tomorrow, I lose my appetite when depressed. translation: weight loss. eyebags. no ceiling cracks to scrutenize. the glow-in-the-dark stars have lost their lustre. now what? I get up not bothering wether its still dark outside. i walk over to find my cellphone and see if I've got some messages I wasn't able to read during the time I was asleep..There ya go... 4 messages recieved. One from Alexis and the rest of it .. from lil_joey... read.. read... he's experiencing rollercoaster again?? caused by whom? Me? he said ... it's me. (Im in a rollercoaster too) I've come to realized one thing. Lil_joey loves me so much, but I don't love him back. I love someone else, but I don't think that someone else does loves me back (something painful creeps in. doesn't matter. nothing matters anymore.. it's just soo painful now) . Fairly enough for the three of us. Guess, that's just how it is... lil_joey->Me->someone else->?-> .... Why life is so unfair? is it really is? nah... I don't know anymore. I can still feel the blankness of ME from the reality. What's in the reality anyway? I guess I don't wanna find out anymore, it will just take me into no stopping flow of tears... just as how painful my tooth was is just twice the pain is sets within the deepest part of my burdened heart.  -End- 
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