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The Passionate Blogger

My mind longs to convey the messages my heart cannot contain. Void of eloquence, my lips are sealed to even whisper what my pen can easily glide to express the deepest feelings I keep deep inside me. I have this ardent desire to culminate what both my mind and heart cannot hold in overflowing. Hence, let me be the blogger that I am, for readers like you to wait and see.

My appreciation.

My Favorite Blogpost: A Re-post
Posted:Nov 18, 2014 5:12 am
Last Updated:Dec 15, 2014 6:00 am
If You Were In My Place, What will you do <<< <<< please click

Posted:Sep 28, 2013 2:51 pm
Last Updated:Feb 10, 2015 8:16 pm

For real, it's been more than 30 years that I danced to a sweet music. I grew up in the big city of Manila, but when I was a , I attended quite a few of the benefit dances in our barrio (hometown in Camiguin, Northern Mindanao). There, I learned sweet dancing. It made me so nervous because I was advised NOT to decline anyone who'd take my hand to offer dance because those men paid the "ribbon" for charity. When I felt that it was getting "tight", I often pushed the guy, with both my hands on his shoulder, showing my discomfort. But when I like them (specially if they smell good...sheesh! I just love it when guys wear nicely scented cologne), then,close contact was okay, but there had to be about 3 inches of body distance, at least ..If it was my BF, then, it's OKAY...hahahaha! I've been to clubs outside of McAllen, TX, and yet, really, no chance to slow dance...Either we're all women on the dance floor, or there's no one dancing to the sweet music anymore....Hayz! ..Oh well, but what do I care?...I've got no special someone to dance with anyway.....I'm just wondering if YOU too, miss the sweet music..

"Have you ever watched on a merry-go-round,
or listened to rain slapping the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight,
or gazed at the sun fading into the night?

You better slow down, don't dance so fast,
time is short, the music won't last.

Do you run through each day on the fly,
when you ask "How are you?", do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed,
with the next hundred chores running through your head?

You better slow down, don't dance so fast,
time is short, the music won't last.

Ever told your , we'll do it tomorrow,
and in your haste, not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch, let a friendship die,
'cause you never had time to call and say hi?

You better slow down, don't dance so fast,
time is short, the music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere,
you miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
it's like an unopened gift thrown away.

Life isn't a race, so take it slower,
hear the music before your song is over."

By— David L. Weatherford
If You Were In My Place, ---What will you do?
Posted:Aug 27, 2013 6:57 am
Last Updated:Nov 18, 2014 5:03 am

I guess, I have to have a report card of what had just happened during my northeast trip..I'm sure, you are all waiting. I am very sorry, I may disappoint you..But there is nothing "spectacular", romance-wise to report. It was a great 6 days bonding time, alright, but it fell short of what each and everyone of you might be expecting. And so, therefore, to make things precise but in detail, I will enumerate some things with the hope that you'll be able to help me out...

1. He is very intelligent, goodlooking, very gentle person, but
he is very sensitive (easy to get hurt)
2. During our brief one-on-one conversations (Golly! he was
always guarded by his 15 and 8 years old daughters)
he would emphasize that I am "lovable", and it ends there.
3. He always mentioned about wishing I were just nearby..
4. He asked my opinion about "marriage", and I told him
upfront, that over the years, my perception of marriage
had changed, and at this point, it's something that I
no longer which he obviously frowned
ephasizing that he is a Catholic, and no matter how many
times he'd been broken, he will re-marry..then the SILENCE..

I've been thinking, (and I really tried to avoid it) Does he
want more security believing that he'd keep the next person
forever when in fact, he had been broken twice already? There is no guarantee, I said..and therefore, it came to my mind,
that maybe he'll feel more financially secured if the union
is official...But I just kept the thought to myself..he is sensitive after all..Throughout the duration of my stay, I
noticed how doting of a father he is. He also cooked for me,
made sure I was comfortable. He drove me to places. He took
time off from work, to make sure he was with me all those
days...I caught him many times staring at me, but it was just
that...nothing more...There were goodnight pecks on my cheeks and tight hugs (3 times) and I was nervous. Thank God! he was
a true gentleman. I didn't want the to feel threatened.
They adore their father, and I don't want to stand in their way.
At this point, I just feel that HE IS NOT READY..
Why I Can't ? Because it Matters to Me....
Posted:Aug 14, 2013 3:16 pm
Last Updated:Aug 27, 2013 6:27 am

Some of you who are my common friends at FB may wonder why I do not mention or blog about whatever is going on with my "lovelife" there, while I do it here at FFF. The answer is plain and simple...PRIVACY...Isn't it ironical how OPEN I am with my life here more than there? But come to think about it. Here, it is more of cyber expression to all members (friends and just onlookers). Whereas at FB, I have my unico hijo, my family, friends and relatives. Plus, I need to consider that the other person involved here is also very private. He also has , family members, relatives and friends who will be "reading". All of that combined is a LOT!..It's just a short encounter, a get to know each other quality time ( I hope )..No Biggies...So, why have the whole world know at FB?..I, for one, make sure that EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT between me and this guy before I even tell my only , Mark, about it. I'm not saying that I need his approval (it would be nice if he would) for any future relationship, but it MATTERS to me that he knows the guy. My , is my "family". We both care for each other and look after each other's welfare. I don't see anything wrong with that. He knew even the male and female friends that I've gotten very close from FFF, and even met with some of them, including our very own JEFF (zzzeromaxxx)...So, with that in mind, I'd rather blog here and give you updates on this new adventure that I'm with. I sure, will include you in my journey. I just hope, everything will come out okay..If not, no harm done. It's just another chapter in my life..
My Promise
Posted:Aug 11, 2013 4:26 am
Last Updated:Aug 14, 2013 1:26 pm

People accuse me of being too picky, without even realizing that indeed, for "experienced" people who've been through the pains of having a relationship, it's just but the right thing to do. Of course, one can say that "keep on trying", one after the other. Arrggghhh! I am definitely NOT like that. I take relationships very seriously. It's not like changing shoes or clothes (others may refer to it as changing underwears), where I can just keep on changing when one doesn't suit me.. There is a process of entertaining the "probables", but not to the point of getting "related" to them while so doing. Whoever is the best guy wins...However, I can honestly say that I've changed a bit. I am not a natural "flirt", believe me, although others think I am a teaser (only because when I know of someone who likes me, I allow myself to be friends with him, but when he starts getting aggressive, I am too quick to push him away ..Needless to say, I definitely did not find him relationship material ) ..But seriously, I have had a couple of "crushes", wherein the guys were either afraid of me, or maybe they didn't like me (nothing to be ashamed of, on my part)...But this, I promise to myself...I WON'T GO AN EXTRA MILE FOR SOMEBODY WHO IS NOT EVEN WORTH THE RUN...
Making Progress....I Know, I can Do It!
Posted:Jul 24, 2013 3:13 am
Last Updated:Aug 27, 2013 6:30 am

It's about 3 more weeks to go,and the "meeting" will take place. I don't know if I have butterflies in my stomach, but I know that I am kinda excited, and anxious at the same time. I am trying my level best to NOT think about the what IFs, but rather focus on just playing it by ear or just wing it. I also try NOT to prepare too much in terms of making myself a little bit more attractive. I even don't go to my zumba classes that often. What he'd see is what he's gonna get. I also try to think the opposite about him. Imagine this, I'd like to think that he has developed the beer gut already, or that he has increased gray hair. Although, at times, I wonder if he is feeling the same way I do. He had expressed excitement over the meeting and had started making plans about the activities, places to visit, what, and what not. He actually asked for annual leave the entire time that I will be in the northeast. Hmmm? Plus Pogi Points this time.....Let's see how 2 conservative people make the most out of this meeting. We had met twice in the past 3 years, but it was more of a casual, HS Batchmate kinda group meetings, nothing UP, CLOSE, and PERSONAL...This time, it's different, and mostly exclusive. I must admit, I am nervous, but I know, I can do it!
Another Chance......
Posted:Jul 20, 2013 6:51 am
Last Updated:Jul 28, 2013 12:14 pm

Okay, fine! I'll give him another chance, and maybe somebody else What the heck! Might as well. It's the trial and error thingie. I cannot have it my way (always) anyway. My frustration tolerance is getting higher. Is that a good news or what? ...I have to... I have to pull myself out of the comfort zone that I built for myself as a fortress for so many years...Damn it! The Knight with the shining armor failed to break the wall I placed myself between us. It's about time I create a crack to a somehow sturdy and thick wall that protected me from anything I considered a threat to my emotional being.That had been my setback all these years...It was I, who actually placed myself in seclusion. Now, I've set myself FREE!...And the good thing is, I am entertaining the ones that I already know. Believe me, for a scared kitten like me, it's a relief...And the romantic saga continues...just as I slowly break my own wall.
REPORT CARD: First Grading Period :(
Posted:Jul 9, 2013 8:37 pm
Last Updated:Aug 8, 2013 9:07 am

Well, well..(sigh!) Tsk!tsk!tsk!..As you noticed, it's over a week since my last blog..Actually, things aren't looking great with the number 1 prospect. First of all, he may have some hidden agenda (not that I'm really considering myself a good catch...but we cannot discount that). One of our casual conversations happened to be about marriage and partnership, and I kinda hinted that, after all these years, I had a change of heart regarding marrying "again"...I don't want to sound suspicious, but he just started "recovering" from a major financial downfall. I don't have much to begin with, but I kinda feel that "if ever", he finds comfort thinking that I can be a good cushion in case future partnership is in the can. The last good exchange was last July 4th, where I greeted him (texting)...He was out with his 2 girls (one 15 years old, and the other 9). It took him 6 long hours to text back...Hmmm! Minus Pogi points again...You don't do that to Elz ...(nyahahahahaha! )..It kinda hit me. There you go again! I have no problem being with someone who has from a previous relationship, but my valid concern is that, would he be able to divide his time and attention amongst us? Let it be known to all men out there and here, that Elz requires a certain percentage of attention all to herself ( I'm not being selfish here, but that's just the way it is). And quite honestly, I really do not want to stand in the way of and their father. I think I prefer someone whose are grown up, enough to take care of themselves. Or shall I say: "I prefer men who are emotionally and psychologically prepared to be in a relationship again."...So, there you go! I'll keep you posted with the other report card
Thinking "Unlimited"....The More, the Merrier.
Posted:Jul 1, 2013 2:09 pm
Last Updated:Jul 23, 2013 2:50 am

Now that most of us are talking about taking chances, for a couple of days now, I was thinking hard about it. All my life, I "limited" myself to entertaining ONLY ONE from amongst the many... and when that ONLY ONE failed, I was left empty-handed ...I learned my lessons well. Too conservative, and too slow..Now I know better. I should COLLECT, then, SELECT..., but they better NOT KNOW EACH OTHER..., and please, no TASTING/FITTING allowed ..If you know what I mean
What a FLIRT!....
Posted:Jun 28, 2013 8:07 pm
Last Updated:Jul 3, 2013 9:17 pm

I don't know about you guys, but did it ever happen to you (here, in FFF, or in real life) that someone you know is always interested in anyone who is interested in you? I mean, it challenges that person to always be "ahead" of you and be the "star", and grab the attention of anybody she knows that will be your prospective special someone. The problem with the person is that she wouldn't pay attention to those who like her or are interested in her. They had to be mine. It just pisses me off, knowing that she would do it purposely as a sign of "competition" without me even thinking about it (Golly! I am happy with who I am, and am very secured)..I'm just thinking, "Okay, you can have them,... ALL of them, as a matter of fact,... because, you know what?---they deserve you!"
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