LONELINESS....
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Posted:Jan 11, 2008 6:36 am
Last Updated:Jan 22, 2008 9:32 pm 78165 Views
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A description found in a webforum:
"This may sound a bit naive to some people, but I've just come to realize that we are all alone in this world. Sounds so sad, I know. Even when you are coupled up with someone who loves you, ultimately, realistically, we are still alone.
I remember being in love with my b/f and thinking to myself how I don't feel lonely anymore. But when we broke up, I was faced with overwhelming loneliness...not just because he left me, but because I was reminded that the comfort feeling I had with my now ex, was just a cover-up, a blanket of my loneliness. Does anyone else feel like this???"
My first reaction to this is; "Probably not many." This posting actually proves an unusually good analysis. Just like most things we do for 'fun and excitement', also the excitement of relationships is a very temporary blanket to cover up the painful and frustrating aspects of life. Ultimately, every relationship breaks up, at the latest when one of them dies.
Does this mean we should all be celibate and forget about finding a partner? That is not necessary at all, but we should not overrate the value of relationships into 'being happy'.
"Happiness is a state of mind, not a state of your relationship."
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Love Fickles: Here Today, Gone Tomorrrow
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Posted:Jan 6, 2008 6:29 pm
Last Updated:Jan 25, 2008 10:41 am 133615 Views
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Love Fickles: Here Today, Gone Tomorrow
I am so sad these past couple of days. I dunno how to express it, but I just witnessed
another " intense and open to public love" that fickled and made a 360 degrees U-turn.
I am still in disbelief not because things were not possible, but because things were
unexpected and so sudden. At my age right now, I still would love to have stories similar
to fairy tales with happy endings, but I guess, times, indeed, have dramatically changed.
Even soap operas have different and controversial twists, we cannot anticipate the plot
and the climax of the stories because nowadays, they're way different than the familiar
and conventional ones.
Looking back (not that I wanted to) to last year, 2007.I got "emotionally involved"
with someone who "spoiled" me with nightly calls and attention, precious time, and even met
with me in person, only after a little over a year of that very "unique closeness" and
special friendship, and after I told him that "there is no future" for the two of us, the
way things were with us,... things drastically changed. In less than a month, he easily
found someone to take my place. I have difficulty understanding how and why is it
that some people move on so easily, and waste no time "forgetting" what seemed
to be an "endless love" with their previous significant others? (not necessarily referring to my experience) Is it possible for some
people to be "deeply in love" for a long time, and then, all of a sudden, once the
opportunity (others call it a chance) to be with another person, just like bubbles,
that love will burst and fly out of the window instantly? Or is it okay to be in love
with several people at the same time? And worse, it's also okay to One and All?
I'm not saying that people should not move on/get on with their lives, but....The way
I see it, when feelings are so intense and publicly displayed, no matter who moved
on first (between the couples involved) I still find it "painful" to the witnesses (if not
to the ones concerned) that again, there is another open to public announcement
of new loves in the offing, thereby making the previous one a beautiful history to
reminisce.Is it really a small world? Too small for once a couple,>> a love triangle>> to be now
an even fair and square? Does love have to be a Merry-Go-Round thingie?
I know that I am not alone in this mixed feelings of happiness and sadness for all
the people involved, and I do hope that this kind of "uncomfortable" atmosphere is
going to be just TEMPORARY...All is well that ends well. I wish everyone the BEST!
The only thing CONSTANT in this world is CHANGE.
And Yes, Love Fickles: Here Today, Gone Tomorrow..(sigh!)
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The Odds Of Being Single For A Long Time...
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Posted:Jan 2, 2008 7:45 am
Last Updated:Jan 9, 2008 5:48 pm 97481 Views
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Yeah, I know...It's been a long time that I've been by myself, meaning, not literally living in or together with a man/partner. I've gotten so used to doing things by myself, making decisions all by myself, and being carefree. I don't have to ask permission to go somewhere, or to confer with anyone to make major purchases and the like. I don't have to cook for someone or feel obligated to render house routines like cleaning up (after everyone's little or huge mess), being at home on time, just because someone is waiting for me...And one thing more, I don't have to be all the time looking attractive and swekxy just so, my partner will not be tempted to look elsewhere and carry out all his other fantasies (Duhhhh!...thinking negative here.. )...But, wait a minute!
Isn't it that I've been waiting for someone who will sweep me off my feet? Isn't it that I've always wished for someone to be my lifetime partner in everything that I do? Isn't it that I've always wanted someone to be with me through my ups and downs, and never to say "goodbye" ? Isn't it that I've always dreamt of having somebody to be with me for all seasons and for all reasons?
So, what is there to be afraid of?...I DUNNO!...All I'm saying is: It's been a very long time that I've been single, and I've gotten so used to that status, I might have a very hard time readjusting to a new "partnered life"...But, well, let's just wait and see. I don't mind working it out if the person who's gonna come along will be very understanding, caring, loving and most of all, willing to make that most important transition with me in this life of mine...
The next question is:...WHO IS THAT SOMEONE?
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The Young Once and the Young Ones
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Posted:Jan 1, 2008 9:30 am
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2008 6:17 pm 76602 Views
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Once in a lifetime, we are young, vibrant, full of life, energy, full of dreams and hopes. It's good to look back on those times, specially if during those wonderful years, we were inspired,we were happy, and we were surrounded with people who meant so much to us. Isn't it wonderful to be young? We didn't have to care about the serious problems in this world, because we had our parents who protected us from all the hazards and struggles this world had always beset us with? Isn't it a very secured feeling to be always sheltered from every storm and hurdles?...But, life is such that every YOUNG ONES become a YOUNG ONCE, and we are here to tell the different stories in our lives, and share the lessons that we learn.
LIVE TODAY AS IF IT WERE OUR LAST...AND MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT...FOR WE WILL NEVER PASS THIS WAY AGAIN...WE ARE ONLY YOUNG BUT ONCE...
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Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008 : Looking back....
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Posted:Dec 26, 2007 4:59 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2008 6:35 pm 96914 Views
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Let me take a very deep sigh first, to clear my chest from any congestion (inhale, exhale). Gosh! you have no idea how I truly want this year 2007 to leave. And although I did have an outpour of blessings in my profession and wonderful friendships, this has been one hellava year when it comes to heartaches. I was hurt repeatedly (not by just one person, and please don't ask me anymore who are these people...both are history).
But then, again, they say, that things happen for a reason. And looking back, I can tell that it is probably true. I felt strongly (shall I call it love, then?)for/with the wrong person, at the right time (since I was certain that I was ready), and again, at the wrong place. But what the heck! it's part of my adventure to this road less travelled. Never did it occur in my mind that quite a long period of happiness can vanish and be replaced with a severe "prick" in my heart (again, maybe it was my pride? )instantly...But, now I have to remember, things do happen for a reason, and people come and go in our lives, most of the time, we are never the same again.
I know, maybe a couple of those "prospectives" were really not meant for me. While they deserve those who they have now, I deserve someone much better. I am not sourgraping here, just thinking,indeed, some good things never last. No bitterness in my heart. And yeah, I feel kinda awkward that the same people are treating me like "very close friends". I am not used to that, yet...I belong to the old school. Although they are not my enemies, I don't want to be very close to them, since I have to remember that they are the very reason why my heart bled. One of them actually sent me 24 fresh tulips from 1-800-flowers last Dec. 24. He was thanking me for the very meaningful relationship that we had. I didn't wanna think of anything else, but I appreciate the flowers...No further imagination or illusion.
I cannot contain my excitement and anticipation of a much better year this coming 2008. You have no clue just how positive I am at this point. I will be relocating in a bigger city, higher responsibility/position, new place, new people to deal with, and yeah, who knows?...I am not searching anymore...but only God knows. I can only look forward to a new beginning. Rest assured, wherever I am, whoever I am with...I will let you know. You're a part of my life now, and thank you so much for being there for me. My appreciation.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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Trying To Fit In....
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Posted:Dec 18, 2007 3:50 pm
Last Updated:Dec 25, 2007 10:43 pm 81357 Views
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...2007 is almost over..What have I done with my life?...I know, I always see to it that I do a little kindness to ANYONE, even with strangers, just because I really believe that if ever I need to do something good, I have to do it NOW, and not tomorrow, until that same day becomes another NOW...Why? Because I am not guaranteed a longer life...Each day is a new day. I cannot foresee just how far is my future. I may not even live long enough to see that day. Everyday, as I walk the paths of this temporal life, I make sure that I turn each stone. Some maybe too "rough-edged" but nevertheless, I will turn them, even though at times they make me trip and stumble. With my knees bleeding, I still will stand up, and continue my journey here on earth.
Have I made a difference in someone else's life? Have I been grateful that others touched mine?
Oh yes!...Not everyone knows just how lonely it is to live the kind of life that is "abandoned" by fierceful courage. When that 25% of personal efforts to fulfill my dreams had been exhausted, and what is left is 25% fate and destiny, 25% co-existing factors, and 25% luck.
Before I joined FFF in mid 2005, I was already a loner. I still am, and I have been trying hard to fit in to this world they called cyber, hoping that in exchange for my sincere intentions, I will find all sorts of LOVE that I am thirsting for...
....And up to this very moment...I AM STILL TRYING HARD TO FIT IN...
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The Emotional EB in Las Vegas
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Posted:Dec 16, 2007 3:32 pm
Last Updated:Jan 13, 2008 5:32 pm 139958 Views
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I am back to Bloglandia. I was away for 3 nights and 3 days, off to Las Vegas, to meet 3 wonderful people namely:
JOYCE, >> privatejoice GEMMA, >> Malambing2 and ED >> ev55
Never in my entire life did I expect that meeting wonderful people over the internet could yield into something very touching and sentimental...What started as an over-excitement during the first day of meeting, became so intense. We bonded right away, even slept together in the same hotel where I was housed. We ate breakfast, lunch, dinner, shopped, did some cooking and housekeeping together. We drove day and night via the Vegas strip,and on my final evening, we went to the Philippine Garden, where we sang (ED and JOYCE) and danced the night away. We were like real family. We felt so close, and bonding was extraordinary. Until it was time to say "farewell"...We hugged each other so tight, tears actually rolled down our faces. Goodbye was not an option, but there was this BIG QUESTION of when will we ever see each other again?
We all came from different places (except Gemma and Ed, who both live in Las Vegas), and the Filipinofriendfinder was the only medium that brought us all together in the REAL WORLD...My friends, my chosen friends are ALL REAL...What you see in the pictures, are actually the same faces you see in real life..No more, no less...And I feel so blessed...Truly blessed.
TO ALL MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS: You are like balloons, If I let you go, I can't take you back. That's why, I am going to tie you close to my heart, So I'll never ever lose you...
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The Strong Ties Of Friendship...Undefined
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Posted:Dec 2, 2007 5:24 am
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2008 3:16 am 131524 Views
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...It's extremely amazing!
...I have not met YOU, YOU haven't met ME,
...But in this place called the CYBERWORLD,
...A very strong connection builds a special kind of friendship
...That neither YOU nor I could ever explain.
...I am happy when YOU are ALL happy.
...YOU empathize with ME, and I do the same for YOU.
...I feel YOUR sadness, YOU feel MY pains,
...Even if it shines, or even if it rains.
...Kind words touch OUR hearts,
...Mutual appreciation develops from the very start.
...When I am not around, YOU always miss ME,
...When someone hurts YOU, I come to the rescue,
...And when I feel blue, YOU come in a heartbeat or two.
...WE may BOTH lose OUR loves, but WE still have each other,
...In times of bad weather, WE brave together.
...I never let YOU down, and so do YOU,
...In this cruel world, there'll always be ME and YOU.
...WE don't have to see each other in order for us to be FRIENDS,
...And yet, WE have to be FRIENDS, for US to see each other.
...The strong ties of friendship >>> is truly AMAZING!
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...To ALL those with whom this may concern:
I am happy and proud to be one of YOUR friends.
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Memories For Sale: No Return, No Exchange......
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Posted:Nov 28, 2007 6:16 pm
Last Updated:Dec 15, 2007 7:43 pm 101398 Views
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...Memories, boxes of them I kept for so many years,
...I need to dispose them, get rid of them, sell them, or throw them away.
...But wait a minute!, some of them are not too bad.
...Some of them will make you feel glad.
...They are so colorful, go pick your hues,
...So many lessons still you could use.
...They are not expensive, so don't be pensive
...They used to be priceless, but now I could care less,
...The characters of these memories have long moved on and gone,
...While here I am right now, my life has just begun.
...So hear ye! Hear ye! I've got memories for sale!
...Lots of which I thought were likened to fairytales.
...Buy One, Take One, `till all of them are gone,
...No Return, No Exchange, I need a brand new one!
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Bukas, May Isang Umaga Pa..../The Dawn Of A New Day...
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Posted:Nov 27, 2007 4:50 pm
Last Updated:Dec 4, 2007 5:36 pm 75690 Views
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(original by: eb1209/godiva0824)
...Bakas ng nakalipas, pilit na nililikas;
...Damdaming sawi, alaalang naaagnas;
...Kayraming luha, dumaloy sa aking mukha,
...Ngiti sa mga labi, naghihintay kapagdaka.
...Sinong maysabi, na pag-asa'y wala na?
...Salat man sa panahon, sugat ay maghihilom.
...Sa gitna ng gabi, umaga'y nababanaag,
...Pagsikat ng araw, may isang umaga pa.
...Hayaan mong yakapin ko ng napakahigpit;
...Isa pang pagkakataong dulot ng langit.
...Pahirin mo ang luha sa aking mga mata,
...Irog, iyong ipangako, na ikaw ay wagas na.
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It seems like only yesterday,
You and I were thinking, here we'll stay.
Never thought that one day, we'll be apart;
Leaving each other with a broken heart.
For every yesterday, there is today,
And all I need to do is get you out of my way.
I swear to God and I swear to All,
That when tomorrow comes, I'll get through it all.
Who says my heart is numbed by all that's gone?
After all the troubles, I stayed just calm.
I see the light as the morning comes,
The dawn of a new day, I'm here to welcome.
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