Compilation of thoughts, feelings, emotions and.. NO MORE!
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Posted:Apr 21, 2005 5:28 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1413 Views
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As a new beginning, I started working on some plans I made out myself. Of what to do for the next 8months. I'm glad I was able to visualize my future on my own albeit the feeling of sadness still exist.
I know I wanted to go back to school and expect to graduate on October this year.
I left home with a smile and contentment today, with a nice vision of what my life will be in next few months. I am pretty excited to get my feet on the entrance of my old "all for girls" college. I know right then that I am making the right decision because this one, is one of my choices, I could choose to hope... ( I am still hoping though but not much hope ) to wait.. to give him a chance... to get him back in my life and continue what we have started but I knew then that I will be a loser if I still continue to wait for nothing. ( like I said, there's still some hopes )...
Much to my disappoinments, I couldn't go back to last year just to drop all of my subjects, so I decided to go back to another 'old school' I've been at for my other course, as expected, I will still be an "Octoberian". I was finally accepted and 'ENROLLED" .. "classes will begin June!" haayyy... ( excited )
I can imagine, from June to October, 5 months to study well and smartly but too hard, as my old rules indicates
"Play easy yet smart" , "No cheating, only guessing" ( lol ) .... 5 months is not too long to wait for, after that. I am at last a bonafide "graduate" and then that will be the time I'll begin another few plans I made out for the whole year.
I went to Weinstein Piano and Music Lesson, I am musically inclined but not fond of any musical instruments, so, why not try to befriend with musical instruments? I enrolled myself to a one whole month Piano Lesson, they have a lot to offer; Piano lesson, Guitar, Voice, Drums, etc etc... why I chose Piano? I have been amuzed by some friends who are fond of tapping piano and come out with a nice learned pieces such as : "Frankie J's Dont wanna try, oh.. hear the piano playin? it's great!... plus, Maybe Alicia Keys can be one of my inspiration to such choice."
I also enrolled myself for a great summer "must learn" Swimming. I will begin joining the gang next week... ahh... 'conquer your fear, Face the music, learn and grow' a must quote for someone who almost loses the confident and pride to herself. I indeed enjoyed the new quote. But...
The pain never goes easily as least expected, the thoughts is still here, the feelings is still the same
( I'm afraid it may still grow ) , The heart is still beating fast as I have felt even before, and I know it, I know I still loves so much that I can still forgive and choose to fight. Nah... not this time, not for now. I have no way to do so, I wasn't given a hint of what to do. Meaning, I am walking still in a complete awe, darkness, and no exact pathways to follow.. I am just making my own road to walk unto.
and tonight... as I browse the MP3 playing on from my most beloved MP3 Player, these lines from certains songs is making it way down my spine through my veins, passing my head, making my nerve wreck, exxagerating my thoughts, soring my throat, and next to it... TEARS... Nonstop tears...
These lines/lyrics are all dedicated to T.W.
1. Before I let you go - Freestyle
I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you loved me
Made me feel oh so right
But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears, I'm trying with all my might
Because you've gone and left me standing All alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow On my own....
But baby....
Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'Coz it'strue,baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah
So before I let you go
I want to say it.....
I love you
---> Darn, I know it. This will be a perfect song for me and the way I feel now.. the situation.. and the word itself defines me..
it goes again ..
Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free And I know
Someday Somehow
I'll find a way To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be But baby.........
So before I let you go I want to say....... I love you .
2. Cant cry hard enough -
"And now that you’re gone
I can’t cry hard enough
No, I can’t cry hard enough
For you to hear me now"
---> But hey... I ain't gonna cry harder, it's wallowing myself in the deep ocean like I can't breath anymore.
3. Everyday- Agot Isidro (local vocal- OPM)
"Everyday I'll always love you
Everyday I'm always thinking of you
Everyday's another lonely day without you
Everyday you'll here beside me
Everyday I'm always dreaming of you
Everyday I will be right here waiting for you
Everyday hoo hoo hoo hoo"
---> True enough.. that's what I feel for you...
4. I love you Goodbye - Celine Dion
"Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you"
----> did you get that?? good...
5. If love is Blind - Tiffany
Maybe I am just a fool for you
Maybe you’re no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When I’m alone with you
If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you
Cause I can’t see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I’ll find my way with you
6. Nobody - Keith Sweat
I want to tease you
I want to please you
I want to show you baby
That I need you
I want your body
'Till the very last drop
I want you to holler
When you want me to stop
7. Tattoed on my mind - Dsound
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind
and your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams
8. Crave - Marc Dorsey
I crave your touch
I crave your lips
I miss so much
The excitement of your kiss
And since your gone my heart wont behave
It's your love that I still crave
9. Still - Brian McKnight
If you love me
look into my eyes and say you do
I've been waiting all my life
for someone just like you
baby all that we've been through
Boy, im still in love with you
and I want you to know I do, I do
Maynila
-to be continued-
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Perfection... such a silly notion
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Posted:Apr 17, 2005 4:26 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1358 Views
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Perfection...such a silly notion!
Sean said I still have a lot of hang-ups. I don't see anything wrong with that. I'm still young; I'm still in a stage in my life where I'm supposed to experience a lot of things, including hang-ups. Sure I'm supposed to get rid of these hang-ups, but I'll do it in my own time. I'm not letting these hang-ups ruin my life. I just don't think anyone has the right to tell me to get over whatever hang-ups I have, simply because they don't know what I've been through, what I'm going through, and what I will go through. No matter how much a friend can claim to be my friend, he or she is not entitled to steer my life, or any part of my life for that matter. In the same way that I am not entitled to steer anybody else's life.
I'm not trying to be defensive. Well, maybe I am in way. It's just that I've always stuck to the Golden Rule ever since, and I expect no less from anyone, especially from my own friends. Well, expect maybe too strong a word. Let's try hope and wish.
I am not perfect and I don't strive for perfection. Nobody's perfect. What I do strive for is becoming a better person, for each day that passes by. The very idea of perfection is silly. In the first place, perfection is sooo Uber-relative. Like nothing isn't relative anyway. Rather than have just one goal in life (that is, to be perfect), I am more attuned to achieving several goals in my life: each goal better than the last. Perfection is an end state. Becoming better each time has boundless possibilities.
Even if I were inclined to the idea of reaching perfection, golly! I would have to be dead if I were to be perfect.
I have hang-ups, true. But these hang-ups have not kept me in my comfort zone. I challenge myself everyday to overcome each one whenever I can. I don't intend to do it overnight because I know that's just a stupid idea. Hang-ups are part of the learning process, as all other experiences are. I will not strain myself to become perfect in the eyes of anyone, or to be perfect for anyone. I will always be someone who finds a better reason to live for each day of my life.
Oh, and one more thing. The only time when we've gotten over all our hang-ups is when we're dead.
-May
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Determinism, Karma and the Choices we make
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Posted:Apr 17, 2005 4:22 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1346 Views
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In my opinion :
Determinism, karma, and the choices we make
Determinism is a philosophical doctrine that holds that all events are inevitable consequences of antecedent sufficient causes. It is often understood as denying the possibility of free will, though this part I beg to disagree.
Free will still exists. It comes in the form of the choices that we make. What happens to us later on results from the choices that we've previously made. I never believed in no-choice situations. There are always choices, if we only make ourselves be aware of these choices.
Karma is the Hindu and Buddhist concept that holds that a person's destiny [in the next incarnation] is determined by the effects of his actions. Whatever we do today, whatever the choices that we make today, affect what happens to us in the future or in the next life [if you happen to believe in life after death].
Determinism and karma complement each other. The latter merely says that the past affect the future. The former affirms the inevitability of the future because of the past. And within both ideas lies the entity that drives the past to affect the future: our choices.
Everyday we are presented with a lot of choices. We make small choices, big choices. Oftentimes, we're not aware that we are making choices. That's why at those times, we fail to comprehend why things are happening to us...because we lack awareness of the things we do.
Awareness of our choices empowers us to make the right decisions. We are always responsible for our actions; actions that stem from the decisions we make; decisions that are products of our choices; and, choices that eventually determine the direction that our destiny will take.
Life, they say, is full of mysteries. But they are mysteries only because we don't know what our choices will result into. What is definite is that these choices will either haunt or bless our future. In the end, it is we who really define our own destinies. Or to be precise, it's our actions, our choices.
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Love Moves... in mysterious ways...
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Posted:Apr 17, 2005 4:46 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1426 Views
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love moves...in mysterious ways...
indeed. love can be found in the strangest of places. and there's no stranger place than cyberspace. I know of some friends who have found their life partners online. most of them are still happily together until now.
you see i have not lost my faith in love despite a radical change in my attitude when i ended my last relationship. people who are really close to me have noticed how much i have changed in my perception of life and love. but the one thing that never changed is the faith i have in finding the one.
i know it takes time, like everything else. there is a time for everything.
i have met someone, and thru the strangest means, mind you. now i just want to know where this will lead to. my best friend Zheila tells me i'm like a race whose eyes are set on the tracks. truly. when someone captures my attention [and eventually, my heart], i don't see anybody else but that person. yup, i'm proud to say that i am a very monogamous person, even if friends tell me there's no reason to be so since i'm still not in a relationship with the person yet.
then again, do i really need to be in one to become a monogamist? i think not. even my ex, despite the bitter end, knows where my loyalty resides when i'm in a relationship.
i keep telling myself that i should not pin all my hopes on this one. friends keep reminding me not to fall too soon. somehow though, much as i try hard to keep myself from getting involved too soon, i do love the feeling that it brings me. if this will lead to love, then love truly does move in mysterious ways.
Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it
I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways
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Seven Lessons...
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Posted:Apr 17, 2005 4:17 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1398 Views
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lesson #1:
Don't be sorry because you want to be forgiven. be sorry because you are.
lesson #2:
Don't expect the one you love to love you back. just love. same applies to affection, intimacy, kindness.
lesson #3:
No matter how much you do for someone, that will never be a guarantee that your efforts will be reciprocated. so do something because you want to, not because you want something in return.
lesson #4:
Don't stop loving until you can't love anymore.
lesson #5:
In case you get burned, don't bring the scars to the new relationship you'll have.
lesson #6:
Don't get tired of trying. you'll never know when the effort will be enough until it has become enough.
lesson #7:
Don't turn a blind eye to life's simplest lessons. hear them out, write them down. i just did.-May
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An email from a stranger...
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Posted:Apr 17, 2005 4:07 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1367 Views
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I was checking my emails earlier this morning when I receieved this one from "who?" (I dunno)
- totally an unknown person to me.. It was very touching....
Dear Maynila,
How does one go about this? How does a mere mortal man approach a goddess muse, one who makes everything beautiful possible? I am so uncertain...
Your photograph reminded me of a poem by Lord Byron. The verse is:
She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!
Who am I?
One who is smitten by your beauty. A creature of light wandering a world of shadow. A man. Nothing more. Nothing less.
I have suffered my trials and tribulations, tasting both the sweet nectar of victory and the bitter fruit of defeat. I am wise and strong en tough to carry my own cross. Still, I seek the wisdom and strength of others.
Possessing a prediliction towards the eclectic and the intense, I am drawn as a moth to the flame, driven as a salmon against the current, towards the extraordinary. Possessing a disdain for the half-hearted and the mundane, I am repelled, as identical magnetic poles, from the ordinary.
I am the painter whose pallet contains an infinite number of hues, constantly swirling in the kaleidescope of color which is my soul. I am the jeweler carefully cutting the countless facets, searching for the optimum balance between brilliance and clarity, in the precious stone which is my spirit. I am the gardener, cultivating the soil, planting the seeds, watering the sprouts, weeding the rows, and savoring each resultant sweet, sweet bloom that is my world.
My own foibles can make me laugh. The pain of, or the separation from, those I love can make me cry. The unexpected remembrance of some long forgotten intimacy can make me smile, slowly, inwardly to myself. While my hopes and dreams may sometimes be temporarily postponed, they are never surrendered.
What about you, bedazzling one?
What makes you laugh? What makes you cry? What makes you smile slowly, secretly, inwardly, to yourself? What hopes have you given up on along the way? What dreams will you never surrender?
---
Rick
email: Filipino FriendFinder
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Indeed this one was very touching and deep. I couldn't really think of an appropriate and interesting answer to this one, the guy is really really interesting and .... Intelligent I should say.
I've come across through a lot of emails for me but this one caught my fancy. With a nice poem, with a high standard "word" usage and indeed he's an appreciative kind.
I should say, I should keep letter/emails like this, Though it was coming from a stranger.... it's worth getting in touch with the poetic type of guy....
hayyy....
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Life is a...
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Posted:Apr 15, 2005 5:33 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1375 Views
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life is a rollercoaster.
do you wanna stay on the ground and watch everyone else have all the fun?
or will you get on feel your heart in your throat as the car climbs up the tracks and you see the horizon disappear? will you scream your head off as it plummets to the ground? will you get off with shaky knees pulse racing and head whirling?
will you tell all your friends how good it was?
will you run back to the entrance and get on again?
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Graveyarder....
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Posted:Apr 15, 2005 5:29 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1284 Views
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6:45am- 04-14-05
I haven't slept yet. My entirely feels numb, my eyes were totally itchy, my lips were dry. And, my heart is still feeling more pain this time. I would like to think that as day passes by, my heart is becoming more painful.. ouch!! I tried closing my eyes. I slept at 9pm last night. like the usual time I feel sleepy, but I found myself looking at the horizon and of nowhere while my brain is in complete blank.. and feels numb. I thought I would never cry after the whole day of teary jerky moment, but as the night is getting deeper, the silent was more on the void, I found myself silently crying and once again... I couldn't stop it.
11pm - 04-13-05
was still up... beyond the silence.. I looked at the phone and what a coindence, it is ringing, I thought It wasn't true. But it never stops ringing. It was Andrei on the other end of the line. Aahhh... it was just a simple... "Hello, How are you?"..I just said yes, but it was just a simple lie. I don't wanna keep him longer, I know he still need to go to work at the station. But I was touches that at least this guy never failed to let me know he cares and he's stil a friend whom I can always rely on.... sweet.
12mn-1am - 04-14-05
My mood never changed throughout the hour, and I almost thought it was unbearable.. Perhaps it is.. but I'd like to give myself the benefit of being a brave girl. ... I am hearing the phone once again. I was thinking if I'm going to answer it this time. nah, why not. I guess that's a savior this time, one who will save me from the boredom of the silent night .. the pain is creeping within my inner sense making its way down my entire emotion that is causing me from crying out loud..
It was MisterSlyde, oh.. I remember, he would call before, during 1am and we would be talking for almost 6 hours (were both insomiac).. And I miss him so. Slyde and I have almost the same kind of life we live for, .. and were getting along well in almost everything... we keep each other as a good/closest friends, he once tried being more than a friend but we both decided the we do not want to loose each other and we remained as friends.
One thing I would always remember about Slyde, he never finish a book without reading it with me. And we would meet every weekend for a coffee and Mocha Frap while we are finishing the book he bought. When he met Alfie, Sylde changed a bit, he created a small barriers between me and him and focus himself to Alfie whom he thought who loves him but Alfie gone in the wind like a whirlwind just passing by to at least make you feel the comfortable feeling it will bring you. We did not go back from what we are before... but we hang out and talk a lot.. and I would always be his partner on his graveyard shift.
This time, He's not being sentimental, he did not mention about his ex-girlfriend. But instead, he asked me about my lovelife. He knows it well anyway, but he's kinda figuring out wether I am allright or still silently crying my butt off. "May, swipe the tears and let me challenge you for another question and we will go on air in a couple of minutes, you still have time to warm up that brain and let it work for this morning topic" that's how we started a sensible conversation all the way until 4am... He is on until 3am but he decided to chat with me and stay in the booth until 4am. " Free your mind" that's has something to do with his topic... How do you free your mind from the bondage of a certain things you are bonded to...but is trying to escape.... kinda hard to figure it out but we had an excellent point of views towards the topic.
4am
We hang up the phone... At once... I was feel relieved from the pain, but as I remained silent again while looking outside my window... I started thinking again and Before I knew it.... It was already day light, no more darkness, but within me is the darkness I have been hating now ....
Oh dang... I wasn't able to sleep.... the whole night... and this morning... is another story... another reality of my so called "LIFE".
will I get the chance to sleep today? or least the daytime? no... Ill go out.... cheer myself up.. find my self lost in the middle of nowhere.. and again... I realized once more.. part of me is with someone... far away... he brought it with him.. and it's no way I can have it back not until he's here with me... Beside me... and holding me tight... maybe then that will be the time I will be back to the old normal ME....
oh... but at least... find the other 2/4 of me lost somewhere, maybe in an ice cream parlor.. or in the salon... or in another tube of lipstick... or maybe a new clothes perhaps? or if not... maybe in a all day spa....
Whatever it is.. I will find it... I am beginning to pity myself.. for hurting so bad.. and I knew it ain't a good thing....
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Agony...
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Posted:Apr 15, 2005 5:23 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1374 Views
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Last night I called up DaKidd. There was no one else I knew that I could run to ( other than Mama Ivee ). I was feeling so low. I had to reassure DaKidd that I was still alright despite him noticing that I really didn't sound okay. I wasn't. There was no hiding it. He and Slyde know me well enough and I was never the one who could hide things from them.
I told DaKidd how frustrated I was about not knowing how Tyler really feels about me.
I was half-crying while I told DaKidd how awful I was feeling. I sensed that he was so upset that I was feeling defeated and disheartened. I was. I still am. What DaKidd told me really melted my heart and wished that he and Slyde were beside me right then. These had held me up countless times and had been my protectors. He said he knew me better than to be feeling discomfitted with what was happening. He warned me before that I shouldn't try to rush things and not to fall too soon but it was love at first sight which has no time to choose wether when to give in. He kept telling me that I have done my part. If Tyler doesn't realize the agony that I was feeling, then it's not my fault. Tyler should be sensitive enough to feel that.
I told DaKidd that he shouldn't blame Tyler for what was happening to me. It's all my fault anyway. I was the one who was been eager to keep him with me inspite the fact the he really wanted to let go. Then DaKidd said I should stop trying to cover for or defend Tyler, he was short of scolding me. I fell quiet and DaKidd went on to remind me not to lose myself in the maelstrom. or find my way out.
Slyde on the other hand said, there's somebody out there for me. I told him how much I wanted that somebody to be Tyler.
He said that if Tyler. was indeed that somebody, then I wouldn't be wallowing in agony right then.
I couldn't say anything after that. Slyde was right. He was always right. I told him I was gonna sleep on it. maybe the next day, my mind would be clearer.
this morning, when I woke UP, Tyler wasn't online or just hiding, maybe.
I could've waited for a few more weeks. But I had to find out. Like what I told DaKidd, I couldn't stand not knowing. I had to know.
I wanted to know if Tyler will insist on ignoring me without telling me what was going on. and For how long will he have to ignore me. so I asked.
But there was none... no answer ... it remained silent...
I remained silent as well and figured out things :
Now I know I didn't want to hear it (Good thing he wasn't there ). I needed to hear it (But I guess not for now) . Now I know I wish I didn't need to know ( I guess it is going to hurt me more) .
I had to go back to thinking again...
It's true. I'll never stop thinking of Tyler. I'll never stop loving someone special as Tyler.
Now I don't know if I really wanted to be set free from not-knowing in the first place. ignorance is indeed bliss. DaKidd asked me earlier how was it that I could go on with something that seems to be pulling me down, yet I still try to hold on to. I don't know. maybe indeed I have masochistic tendencies as what he and Slyde told me before.
What happens now?
I'll always be here for Tyler
I'll be able to get over this. I just don't know how long. Not now most definitely. but I'm gonna continue loving Tyler. Only God knows until when. maybe Forever.
I just need to be alone for now.
not lonely.
just alone.
-Sigh-
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The Risk of Loving
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Posted:Apr 13, 2005 4:16 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 1288 Views
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I was reading a story written by one member of a Yahoo!Group I'm subscribed to. It's a true story, and well written I might add, despite some typographical and grammatical errors. His and his first bf's story is so sweet. Lots of kilig moments. What made their love story even sweeter was it's being a young love. Two high school students who parted ways only in college. Even if both of them have their own significant others now, they never lost touch. And the possibility of still ending up together is still there. Sigh...
Such a story do inspire people not to give up on love and just continue to love unconditionally. I remember my high school teacher telling me,
"Love doesn't have a happy ending. It simply does not end."
When we experience heartaches and heartbreaks, love does not abandon us. It just takes a short nap, telling us that the right person will come along soon, to rouse our love from slumber.
When love do come, we shouldn't be afraid to experience it. Some people fear falling in love lest they be hurt in the end. This world is certainly full of uncertainties. There will always be risks. It's not a question of how big or how many the risks are (although you can put that under consideration), but how we handle the risks when they come. The risk of getting hurt in love is always there. But this shouldn't prevent us from experiencing the good things about love. And there are a lot.
There's this song from Fra Lippo Lippi
(Light and Shade):
Sail on the wings of the clouds where to well nobody knows
Be proud to wear the colours that you call your own
Be loud! Speak out when you want the world to know
Be strong! Hold the flame for everyone to see
Be weak if you want to love
When we fall in love we become vulnerable. We have to open ourselves up so we can receive love. Don't be afraid to get hurt. I know that's easier said than done. But each time we get hurt, we become stronger. And our love becomes stronger the next time around.
A friend earlier sent me a poem. I haven't heard of the author. Pardon the typo or grammatical errors:
Love's Risk
by: Brandii Alexander
There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile,
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening your self up to hurt.
Some people tread slowly through life
Avoiding the closeness risks brings,
Side-stepping what they can't understand
Turning away from those who care too much,
Those who care stay too long
Those who hold to tightly.
There is never an easy way to love
You can not approach it cautiously,
It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic,
It is un prejudiced and un merciless.
It strikes the strongest of minds,
and brings them to their knees in one blow.
Even in the best of times love hurts
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be apart of someone else
Without either of your consent,
But, from the moment it over takes you
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes:
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time,
But, it's in the total surrender of all defense
that we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive
No matter what, we truly experience love.
Despite many things that love is not
Out weighing it all are the things that love is:
Love is surrender with out loss,
It is a gift with out cost
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take
It is the fire that fuels you,
to do more than just pass through life-
It urges you instead to live.
No matter what the out come, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart and soul
and leave you only memories of forever,
Or, it may cause every day of your life
to feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, Love is worth it. It is worth the risk...
For in all of life,
Love is the only risk worth taking.
The world doesn't stop revolving when we get hurt. So just keep on loving until the world stops turning...-Maynila Molina
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