Coffee
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Posted:May 27, 2005 4:09 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2502 Views
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i wish
this coffee
were a potion
to cure all the ills
in my head
i wish
its bitter caffeine
can infuse the
TRUTH
i sorely need
but reality tells me
that with each sip
a magic spell
is cast
only to bare the
LIES
making me
suffer
even more…
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It's a Date...
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Posted:May 26, 2005 2:35 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2558 Views
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It's a date.
I finally gave in to Peter's invitation : A date over coffee or dinner perhaps?
Why not? beside, I think the guy has the most elusive eyes and has a strong character that is making me weak on my knees...plus sweeping me off my feet.
He is a nice guy to fall for with, but wait, no assurance to myself though but ain't nothing is wrong with being open and true to one self right?
33 yr old? what's is wrong with that? I will surely love to have older guy.
For some reasons, older guys makes me feel more secure and I trust them most than those of I dated which whom at the same age as I am. But as much as I enjoy younger men, I feel more comfortable with olders, it makes me feel sharing everything about me that I believe they'll surely understand for a fact that theyr'e mature enough to listen and relate to what I am saying. It's a plus factor.
It is so easy to fall inlove with older man, somehow, it is creeping within my inner sought that if your'e older then you'll most likely know how to read me... which I think I have proven already.
On the other hand, I am so aware of how older men plays the role of being a real man, they sure know how to take each woman into thier palms/hands and play with you until you gave in and sure they know how to stop you from spinning through thier hand and "shoot" your'e on a dead end and they know how to escape from you... why? because being as old as they are by this time, they have gone far enough and they know how mostly women are..
You see, they know all the lines of goodbye's, test em' up and sure they can give you as much as 80 percent out of 100. But believe that older men are the one's who will surely think of settling down, of course. Who the heck who would go for them when they'll be incapable of wrestling with you just to end up having 5 to 7 more rounds? that's why most of the older men I know are taking time for themselves to get fit, work out .. work out... get in shape and worst take potent vitamins... or Viagra. ( Don't give me that damn look, you dirty mind ).. I know.. of course... I know. They share their fears too, and some of them are afraid they might not be able to have more babies when theyr'e not as capable of bursting out more sperms just to have the strongest one that will come up with a new JR or a princess perhaps?
It is funny. Indeed, just to think of it. But it never encourage me to go for older. Maybe 10 to 15 years older than I am... I maybe 20 and who cares if I marry a 35 nor 40 to 45 year old? I wonder how spoiled I am then. The tendency when you marry a 35 to 45 yr old, they'll surely keep an eye on you. And of course they'll be as proud as hell, they're bursting down but the woman is still uproaring the scene. Who doesn't want woman on top? ( Laughing my ass on the floor almost peeing ) argh.. nasty, I know. But it's the fact of life..and of course will they still look up for another woman? no .. maybe yes, that is if they can take the title " Dirty Old Man "
Haayyy.... forget it...
Oh, I missed Ryan's call yesterday, but hopefully he'll call again today..
Talk to you later Ry...
and oh by the way, the date is on Sunday, yaiks. maid's day off... lol... see ya around people...
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Letting Go II
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Posted:May 25, 2005 4:09 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2520 Views
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One of the hardest things to do is to let go of something dear to you. Today, I realized that by not letting go, you hold yourself back. Letting go was, and probably is still one of my lesser points. though if I don't let go of the past, how do I move forward to the future? I let go of someone very dear to me. Let's just say, he was someone extremely close to my heart. But due to various circumstances, or maybe selfish deeds, forbade me from really letting him in to who I am. Now, he wants nothing to do with me...
I guess you can say these are the consequences of my actions. But I can't let that hold me down. I always believed the world runs much like a roller coaster. At this point, I guess I'm on the ride down. but once you get down, the only direction to go is up. It's just a matter finding out when the coaster rides back up again. I've wasted so much of myself, on myself! not letting people who love me in my life is something I aim to stop. And it stops now...
I don't know how much of my life I have missed by not lettting people in. Now, they're welcome to know who I really am. and who am I?
I'M MAY... THIS IS ME... THIS IS WHAT YOU SEE... TIRED OF WHO I WAS... NOW I STRIVE ON WHO I OUGHT TO BE... JUST ME... ACCEPT IT...
I KNOW NOW WHO I AM... WELCOME TO MY LIFE...
MY SILENT LUCIDITY...
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Thoughts of Lost
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Posted:May 25, 2005 3:55 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2317 Views
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I lay myself once again in the hands of the angel once said fallen.
How I say might I be scarred through the blade of hatred? Have I fallen?
As I walk the earth, the realm of reality decieves me.
What man devours the life within another man? Is he forsaken?
The question which lingers are never answered .
We live our lives dictated by the higher power.
His iron clad claims the rule. Those who oppose be damned!
Ask yourselves. Are we damned? Or will we be saved?
Time stands saying nothing. Feeling nothing.
Take thy hand of the damned and be forsaken for all eternity.
Take the hand that shows the light and be saved.
I'm torn...
Torn from the life we call ours.
Torn from that life they call good...
I forsake...
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If you but knew
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Posted:May 25, 2005 3:44 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2370 Views
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How all my days seemed filled with
dreams of you,
How sometimes in the silent night
You eyes thrill through me with thier
tender light
How often I hear your voice when others speak,
How amid other forms it's you I seek.
Oh, Love more real than though such dreams
were true.
If you but knew.
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Your
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Posted:May 25, 2005 3:35 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2262 Views
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sometimes we tend to hold on to things and people when it's time to let go. but there are times too when we just let go of things and people when we should be holding on to them. bakit nga ba?
slyde said it all when he answered, malay mo naman. true, malay mo nga naman ba di ba? as tiffany would sing, what could have been is better than what could never been at all. at least you could tell yourself that you tried.
ah..but then, when will you know if enough is enough? if you've tried hard enough? there's no definite answer. all i know is you'll know. eventually. we do tend to get lost in the emotions but if we try to keep our hearts and minds unclouded, then we'll know.
it's funny. that's coming from someone who had a hard time getting over someone who doesn't like me the way i like the person. well, if loving is a mistake, then we're all mistaken. 
song of the moment, rivermaya's balisong.
Your face lights up the sky on the highway.
Someday, you'll share your world with me someday.
You mesmerize me with diamond eyes...
I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright.
But I am losing all control -
My mind, my heart, my body and my soul
Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before...
You're everything I wanted and more.
To speak or not to... where to begin.
The way dilemmas I'm finding myself in.
For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool... this fairy tale's got to end.
Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before...
You're everything I wanted (more).
Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted (more).
You're everything I wanted
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The Woman I am
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Posted:May 24, 2005 9:18 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2371 Views
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The Woman I am
The woman I am
hides deep in me
Beneath the woman
I seem to be
She hides away
from the stranger's eyes
She is not known
to the passers-by
She goes her way,
The woman I seem to be
But the woman I am
withdraws to dream!
The women I see
goes carelessly
When love goes by
she does not seem to see.
But the woman I am
knows sudden fear
And hides more deeply
when love draws near.
For love might look closely!
perhaps, and see
her beneath the woman
I seem to be.
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Me Taiwanese?
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Posted:May 23, 2005 7:25 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 3555 Views
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I went out of town for two and a half days.
All through out the days, I had people whom I had a nice conversaton with.
And mostly are ....
Two sisters on a bus ride heading to Baguio :
" Ate, marunong ka magtagalog?" ( Do you know how to speak Tagalaog? )they asked.
" Huh? oo naman bakit? " ( of course, why )
"kasi akala namin di ka pilipino, kasi mukhang kang taiwanese, ang puti mo kasi at saka singkit ka" ( Because we thought you are not a filipino, you look like a taiwanese and your'e so white and you have a chinese eyes )...
I was laughing real hard and said " ao chi ni ka noi te" ( no meaning at all )
they said : "niloloko mo kami eh Taiwanese ka eh"
( you are fooling us, your'e a taiwanese )
I nodded and said " di I am pinoy laging fresh" ( I am a filipino, always fresh )
and stood up to transfer to another seat...
oh ....
better off as ....
and so I wish I am still a ....
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Harking Back
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Posted:May 21, 2005 3:45 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2555 Views
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harking back
Nowadays, Call Center has become the hippie trail. With my personal familiarity, 1 in every 7 people I know works in a call center. If this translates to the whole that would mean 14.3% of young professionals are employed in a call center, and that’s a figure.
Why? ....and why not?
I remember when I was in college, every time I learned that someone from my University is working in a call center, my reaction would be “Why? Sayang!.” Any Ateneo student would share the same reaction. We are not after all trained to become telephone operators (we are trained to become managers, my boss informed me  But call center is more than just picking the phone and talking in English. It’s way more than Hello’s and Thank-you-for-calling’s.
Yes, inadvertently, I had my cousin and his first job is in a call center. I never had expected it myself because he is a magna cumlaude. While many simply choose to work because of its very high compensation, benefits, and perks, Hw chose it because of the promised US Training. He was lucky but luck didn’t hold for long since he got denied of a VISA (Oh consul no 8, it wasn’t his fault he was young, duh!!! ). He was left in the Philippines and got his training from a Filipino trainer (who obviously developed a very strong detestation to him then and there throwing of puzzling and tricking questions during the training) and American mentors. He didn’t intend to stay for long but pecuniary benefits can be very appealing to a newly graduate like him.
Following is some of the bluffs and blunders committed on the floor. These are only base from his recollection and so accuracy may not be absolute… but I do hope it will tickle your funny bones…
CSR: My name is ROSS. That’s R, double O, S. ROOS.
(ROSS, you should know how to spell your name. In fairness pinanindigan nya ang ROOS throughout the call, hahaha)
CSR: That’s Jun! Like a month JUNE without an E
(I think it’s simpler to just say J-U-N)
CALLER: (sobbing) My father died two days ago…
CUSTOMER: (in a consoling voice) I am very sorry to hear that. I will be very HAPPY to transfer your call to our claims department.
CSR: Sometimes I appear, sometimes you disappear. (referring to the very bad connection)
(Power of apparition eh? …
CUSTOMER: My death benefit is bigger than the policy’s cash value. Would I rather die to get the bigger amount?
CSR: mmmm…I guess so?!
(Go, advise your callers to die!!)
CSR: Just mail your payment to ____________, Louisville, KY.
CUSTOMER: Will you spell Louisville for me please?
CSR: Sure! That’s L as in Little brother, O as in Older brother, U as in Unique brother,…. L as in Lousy brother, E as in Excited brother… that’s 10 brothers in all.
Hahahaha
CSR: That’s T as in iced Tea!
Aren’t you laughing yet? Try the next one, this made my friends rolling on the floor laughing….
After a long pause
CUSTOMER: Are you still there?
CSR: Yes ma’am! I am still THERE!
….because it was committed by …….yours truly (just the last one). Go, laugh harder, hahaha…
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Waking hour II
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Posted:May 21, 2005 3:40 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:28 pm 2392 Views
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The night is cold and quiet. With a soft music in the background. Perfect to spend my time reminscing. The night fills me with the chill of solitude. Yes, here I am again. Alone in this big empty space. And it's been a while that I've come to talk to you again. It's quiet. The world is sleeping. I can do anything I wanna do. But i don't wanna break the silence and disturb their sleep. Yet maybe I'll break the stillness instead. But by talking without speaking... Hey I can hear my thoughts. Echoed in the sould of silence.
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