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Loving Blues
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Posted:Oct 8, 2006 7:02 am
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2006 7:52 am 2539 Views
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It is all too easy to say I love you to a cool Maganda girl,lol.
My buddy Jau and others I know have had the same experience. I don't know how this happens or why,but after the euphoria of loving bliss and the afterglow of marrying someone,things go wrong and you are shot down into despair. Facing that dramatic road called seperation & divorce. In my instance it is pure pain as I am meant to be a 'romantic' guy that by nature too soft to hurt a girl. Yet I face this.
Of my advice a person may say I Love You and it seems so cool & sweet,but after several bad starts here(no not Smeaguls!)and in my own life,try to find one with enduring qualities as they are the ones for the long haul,not short. Love is only one aspect of relationships,there has to be trust,respect,compassion,attentive ear & heart also.
Love is a wonderful experience in life,but be careful as you may get shot down when you least expect it.
#I have my Ex with me,an emotional torment,but she has a new job nearby so I have to help her. Previous address too far from work. We still help each other which is cool. Helps us all pay the bills! Besides I could do with the company even though the claws come out at times!
#I was on Yahoo Asia b4 and was involved with pinoy girl NIELLE,she new my situation and used me in my vulnerability,so I went quiet here as I was hurt badly. Aray.
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Take Over!
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Posted:Oct 8, 2006 6:43 am
Last Updated:May 22, 2024 2:46 am 2559 Views
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Lol,just set up my Entertainment Unit,a DIY for my stereo and stuff,now with the girls..they have Claimed it,Aray.. Took me a lot of time to build this thing,grrrrrrrr.
So much for peace and quiet(and mwah PS-2)! Kareoke rules now!
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CHARLIES ANGELS 1&2
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Posted:Oct 7, 2006 5:41 pm
Last Updated:Oct 7, 2006 11:55 pm 2953 Views
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 Be careful what you wish for or you may get it? Lol. Well I don't want to be alone,but pweeze....
<----LOAN & CHAU
 To help my ex (I hate that term)and her friends which I am buddies with also. We moved in together. 3 Girls(Loan,Chau & Cathy)one guy,well just call me BOSSLY..heh. They are students and part time workers trying to save money together and we get along. I help with English for them and they yihee do dah cooking and we help pitch in for bills etc. I think though I need Dizzy or Henry to help..!
 I don't know why I have these frilly things in mwah bathroom,or no room with all THE SHOES,or have Chicken Feet,Intestines and other not so sarap sarap things in mwah fridge,or no room for my washing..because of the SUMMER,AUTUMN,WINTER & SPRING collection of clothes these girls all have! Oh well its fun though. EXCEPT NO HOT WATER FOR SHOWER!!!
 Chau will be deported without access to adequate job to support her pamilya home,or education so even though we have come to grief,I will not let her or pamilya suffer that way. So I help her with work,education,Immigration etc,so she is OK,and her pamilya. One guy I know that stayed with me and spilt up with his sponsor was deported,the same will happen with Chau so I protect her still. Yeah I care for her,the correct thing to do.
 Loan sponsored by her Aunty is now a slave to her in her restaurant! Two years working 9am until 1am next morning. She still has not paid off her Ate's debt a mere 40,800pesos or so. We tried to rescue her and stay with us and get out of that crap. Poor . The family have no shame treating their own like a dog!
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Choices in Life
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Posted:Sep 22, 2006 6:43 pm
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2006 10:06 pm 2772 Views
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There comes a time in our lives when we are faced with painful choices,how we come through those paths chosen,moulds us into the characters that we are.
I was confronted with a painful choice back in February when I found my ex returning from Vietnam,she was in need of help. In my heart I could not bare her to suffer and did what I can to look after her. People told me I was foolish,but it is difficult when you once loved them & were partnered.
Sadly I found my Soulmate here and loved her deeply,telling her I was helping my ex survive here would have grieved her as we are far from each other and the worry would break her heart. Trying to look after the welfare for an ex and one you loved is painful emotionally and caused conflict with my heart,I felt guilty of loving someone,but helping another girl here,lol. And being told at work repeatably I could not leave to see my heart's desire,destroyed me.
 Women deserve ALL your attention and love and don't want sentiments shared with others,it hurts them. I have watched from afar every post,blog and word on the phone and e-mail showing care and affection to me from a great woman. And I did not reciprocate in full because of the tragedies unfolding here dragging me down. I plain and simple care too much for others when they ask for help and get myself muddled emotionally or used easy. And I am heartfelt sorry to that woman for reaching out to me...my truest Soulmate and sincerest Love.
Sadly the girl I helped will secure her Citizenship here and head of with whatever boyfriend she hooks up with,I saw her chatting last night with them. I assist her with Nursing/Aged care studies,translating Viet-English for medical terminology. She is a nice girl,but we are not 'harmonious' in spirit as I am with another..
 I think I have been used,but I made the choice to Care and I made another choice to Love,I have no regrets regardless of the pain,as it makes me who I am flawed,imperfect and trying to make life easier for others in this world. I have been involved in a war for nearly 20years,so it makes me try to care more after seeing so many women and perish brutally. My hopes and dreams are they both are safe and happy,as in love the other's welfare comes before yourself!
Lol & Lol..
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Sweet Slumber
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Posted:Sep 21, 2006 8:46 am
Last Updated:May 22, 2024 2:46 am 2492 Views
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I found you on the train home.
Sad you were from an Aunty split with abusive husband. We ended up home and talked and hugged.
You used my camera for some shots for family so I edited them for you and you fell asleep here.
Wierd how it is to fall asleep on your arm again,I still never use a pillow. It was sad to hear you sobbing and I hugged you and held you close,untill I too dozed off.
Dreams come flooding in of our goods times...
The times I rode with you and wispered I love you into your ear on the motorbike and nearly made you crash..
Brushing your long hair after a shower.
Sitting cuddled on a beach chair on the shore on a moonlit stary night,so cute with the waves gently rolling on the shore.
Reading you love poems in your language on the train to work with you.
How you made your first meal for me and you were so proud that I liked it.
When you ironed my clothes carefully..or washed them,simple chore but it meant much,appreciated.
Snuggling up in the loungeroom with popcorn watching Chinese romance films and diving into each others tender embrace.
The funny time at your parents when we tried not to wake them upstairs when we were passionate below..lol,and trying to escape mosquitos biting me..let alone you!
How you spilt candle wax on my face and scarred me trying to be romantic in bed..ARAY!
When I made bubblebaths for you...sheesh a specialist now!
How I massaged you when sore and had to put that aweful cream on which burnt..Deep Heat.
Spoilt you with foot spas..and chocolates and lollies...
Your first flowers I sent which the parents loved also,and the beautiful romantic letters I once wrote.
How you made simple presents for me and passed on which I treasured..
Kareoke and outings we had so much I enjoyed..
Piggyback you down the street when you fell tired walking..
Too many things...in our wild passions and laughter and even tears when your 13yo cousin died..
No tonight not as we were madly passionate before,sleep and try to heal those wounds that we both share. The new dawn sees us seperate again and we have to live as best we can.
Chau..may the joys and love we did have be a wonderful thing to always cherish and I pray our friendship. Best wishes for a love filled life always.
I sleep empty armed tonight..and in tears for you and myself..
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Chau Oi!
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Posted:Sep 16, 2006 8:14 am
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2006 12:14 am 3154 Views
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Vo Oi...my wife lost..
I saw you Chau today on Viet Singles,and it hurt. Not just loss of being seperated after the joys and passion we had,but seeing you voice words like 'lonely',and 'without an idea to goal in life'? Even with differences in life,watching one precious at one stage fall apart and cry,it does hurt. A guy that has no sentiment for an ex lover or partner never was her friend or loved her well in the first place.
May you find peace,happiness and love that you seek Chau. I wish I was able to provide more than you wished,without the stress involved form pamilya.
We face a new Xmas ahead alone..please be safe and well. You don't come here,but herein are my sentiments for you a better life. I pray for you,for us both. Being the only ,life in Vietnam would be painful as you are classed as a failure in a relationship. Which is not fair.
Giac Mong Dep,sweet dreams "cutebear".
Emptiness fills the house,you are gone,Cez is gone...the girl you once rang when you tried to reconcile and were upset.
Silent Night...no Silent Xmas ahead instead.
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I know..
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Posted:Sep 5, 2006 2:59 am
Last Updated:May 22, 2024 2:46 am 2574 Views
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[post 26315]
You have a song I feared,one which I couldn't relay. It was too grievous at heart to dwell on.
Forgive me,for now I have to face that song and I don't know if I could get into that taxi,leaving you behind! I am scared to face that sad farewell.
Pray hold me for I don't really want to let go..
Though I arrive soon,departure is my sorrow.
Please take care. OK.
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Hindi Kita Malilimutan
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Posted:Sep 1, 2006 7:55 pm
Last Updated:Sep 5, 2006 2:39 am 2583 Views
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 Dear Ate Jean,across the thousands of miles I will finally stand before you..here is my song.
Hindi kita malilimutan
Hindi kita pababayaan
Nakaukit magpakailanman
Sa 'king palad ang 'yong pangalan
Malilimutan ba ng ina
Ang anak na galing sa kanya
Sanggol sa kanyang sinapupunan
Paano niyang matatalikdan
Ngunit kahit na malimutan
Ng ina ang anak niyang tangan
CHORUS
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Malilimutan ba ng ina
Ang anak na galing sa kanya
Sanggol sa kanyang sinapupunan
Paano niyang matatalikdan
Ngunit kahit na malimutan
Ng ina ang anak niyang tangan
CHORUS
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma'y di..
Kailanma'y di..
Pababayaan
Gary Valenciano
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Little things in Love
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Posted:Sep 1, 2006 7:02 pm
Last Updated:May 22, 2024 2:46 am 2563 Views
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 My kaibigan Tesfi(pictured right)
I speak Amharic as basic second language(Ethiopian) and I have ehet(sisters)& weundem(brothers)close to me. My bro and co-worker tesfi had a mahal in his country which gave him stress,using him for $,so I helped him out with a girl here instead. Poor guy trying to work 3 jobs to send her money O/S for crap reasons.
A girl here was his good friend,but Tesfi's mobile uses Chinese text only,freaky..so I used my phone to text to her for him,so lol strange communication heh. With me as his Elder Bro being go between for this girl. Silly Bro,should have new mobile,sheesh. Anywaysssssss it worked out..
 He mentioned he ahem...had breakfast with her..this Ethiopian kaibigan here,now Mahal. And proudly told me she made him breakfast,he was so happy at that small thing...and the fact she cried as she was shocked after so much stress& misunderstandings between them that they ended up lovers-her heart was finally at peace.
^_* If a girl does a thing for you,no mater how simple even just Cornflakes for breakfast,don't complain or think it irrelevant,be thankful of that blessing as the simple truth in love is that you are THERE with her! That is all that matters..
Magsaya Ka Tesfi & Ehet...
Hiihii Good Job Phil...^_*
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