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Blogs > godiva0824 > The Passionate Blogger


godiva0824 65F
2728 posts
7/7/2021 6:56 pm
My Forever Role In Life.....

Do you believe that each one of us play a specific role in this planet? I mean, other than our professions, or general roles as human beings. You see, all my life, I have been the "provider" for my family, and constant "donor" to_ those who are in dire need of financial help back home or elsewhere. Even this past year and few months, during the pandemic, people are constantly asking for help, and really, I do not mind if I have extra. But lately, it's taking a toll on me, emotionally, physically, and financially....I have been working very hard so that anything that comes out extra from the regular budget and expenses wouldn't affect my own plan to_ retire. But it looks like, I am far from getting to_ that point.

.....My unico hijo is still jobless, after he was laid off from the Emirates airlines due to the pandemic. I am supporting my mother who is 87 y.o. and has dementia/alzheimer's disease. I also have my own personal expenses here in the USA which are not inexpensive. Everytime I work extra, I get scared, because most of the time, there is always another expense more than likely, like death of people I know (and funerals need funding), or somebody got hospitalized and needing financial aid and what not. It never ends.

....I am beginning to think, maybe that is my main role here on earth....but I am just a human being....I am tired....I need a break....I need to retire already from this role.....
ELZ


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/7/2021 6:58 pm

 I am not complaining.....I am just very tired...
ELZ


laogui32 80M
67 posts
7/8/2021 1:29 am

 entirely understandable


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/8/2021 10:08 am
    Quoting laogui32:
    entirely understandable
Thank you for that. I just want to vent here. I cannot do it at FB
ELZ


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/8/2021 1:12 pm
    Quoting  :
It is such a consolation to feel that way, Jane....I actually need a vacation...that's what I need right now...a get away...
ELZ


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/9/2021 7:20 pm
    Quoting  :
I hope so Jane....On my birth month, specially...
ELZ


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/9/2021 7:28 pm
    Quoting  :
I am truly happy to see you here again, my dear....I miss our HVP Group and our daily banters...
ELZ


easycome42 83M
34 posts
7/13/2021 5:27 pm

 Bless your heart for being so nice and compassionate. This troubled world of ours needs people like you. I tip my hat to you. Your kindness will surely be rewarded by the Man up above. He sees; He never sleeps.


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/14/2021 2:38 pm
    Quoting  :
Thank you..There is a saying that goes, when you help, you should not expect for anything in return...Exactly, what I do...But if ever there is a final judgement or His second coming, I would like to be spared from any wrath due to this world's cruelty and greed....
ELZ


godiva0824 65F
3469 posts
7/14/2021 2:39 pm
    Quoting easycome42:
    Bless your heart for being so nice and compassionate. This troubled world of ours needs people like you. I tip my hat to you. Your kindness will surely be rewarded by the Man up above. He sees; He never sleeps.
Thank you...that lessens a bit of my load...Sometimes, I just need to vent, and FFF is the right place to do it...Not FB.
ELZ




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