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Broken.....  My parents were separated when I was 6 . I did not grow up with my siblings. Being the youngest, I was the only one my Mom took with her when she returned to_Manila where she was born. Since then, I only got to_ see my brothers and sisters once every 3-4 years on brief vacations. Needless to_ say, we were not close, and they have developed ill feelings with my mom for "abandoning" them as they had to_ live with our relatives, and had to_ work for them in exchange for food, shelter, and education. Life was mostly harsh for them, but they lived through it, and had succeeded in their own rights. There were 5 of us, now only 4 ( my brother just passed away last March 6 of this year ). Out of 5,two of us were not lucky in married life. The one that passed away and myself also failed in matrimonial aspect. I learned my lesson the hard way, and I have been living alone for the most part of my life. With only one , it wasn't very hard for me to_ survive. Thank God for giving the wisdom and for giving a profession that could provide me and my family a comfortable life. When I was a lot younger, I had thought of getting into another relationship, but for the second time, got hurt. Since then, it has been very difficult to_trust anyone. Until I got to_ the point where I don't feel the need to_ be with someone else ever again. I was broken, and I am mended....not wanting to_ be broken again...  ELZ  |
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You don't have to hold on to something that doesn't want to stay....Let go, set it free... ELZ
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the power of oneself can be formidable indeed. Depend on yourself. Life alone is still amazing. It is interesting to note that one of your unmarked 'to's remains undeleted - funny programming! 'Until I got to the point'
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The good thing about tripping is the ability of getting up. Bury the hatchet and move on. Why sit around feeling miserable? There are vast oceans and seas out there. Go fishing. Who knows the third time around is a charm? Or maybe, just maybe, you are asking for too much.
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the power of oneself can be formidable indeed. Depend on yourself. Life alone is still amazing. It is interesting to note that one of your unmarked 'to's remains undeleted - funny programming! 'Until I got to the point'  it never fails... ELZ
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The good thing about tripping is the ability of getting up. Bury the hatchet and move on. Why sit around feeling miserable? There are vast oceans and seas out there. Go fishing. Who knows the third time around is a charm? Or maybe, just maybe, you are asking for too much.  ELZ
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Hayz, I will re-edit this post one more time! I do not know why FFF has this "auto-error" instead of the "auto-correct" ELZ
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Done re-editing for the _nth time  ELZ
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You have already established a very stable and more than cozy enough comfort zone for yourself at this time. Disturbing that is way out of your league now unless...yes! unless there is a better or greater reason for you to do it. But I will bet at the time, it's gonna take a miracle for it to happen. At 60 or more, I find it best to just have a good friendship not necessarily someone who l need to live with. I toyed on the idea lately, but circumstances (due to pandemic) disallowed it from happening .So that could be a way of telling me, it is not advisable anymore at our (mine and his) ages. He was 78 yos but is now 79 (10 years my senior, a divorcee without any relationship with family) and still working as a community school teacher/athlete coach, although he had already retired when he turned 65. Anyway, to cut the story, he made a standing and this open invitation for me to visit him in case my feet lands in USA. Who knows what will happen next, but am not looking forward to it anymore.
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You have already established a very stable and more than cozy enough comfort zone for yourself at this time. Disturbing that is way out of your league now unless...yes! unless there is a better or greater reason for you to do it. But I will bet at the time, it's gonna take a miracle for it to happen. At 60 or more, I find it best to just have a good friendship not necessarily someone who l need to live with. I toyed on the idea lately, but circumstances (due to pandemic) disallowed it from happening .So that could be a way of telling me, it is not advisable anymore at our (mine and his) ages. He was 78 yos but is now 79 (10 years my senior, a divorcee without any relationship with family) and still working as a community school teacher/athlete coach, although he had already retired when he turned 65. Anyway, to cut the story, he made a standing and this open invitation for me to visit him in case my feet lands in USA. Who knows what will happen next, but am not looking forward to it anymore.  ELZ
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