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Blogs > godiva0824 > The Passionate Blogger


godiva0824 63F
2894 posts
3/7/2021 2:20 pm
There were Two, now down to One.......

A couple of years back, I had 2 special loved ones who were thought of or expected to_ leave this world. One of them is my mother, who is suffering from Alzheimer's disease, and my elder brother, who, for more than 4 years had been diagnosed with prostate cancer. Being the major financial supporter for the family, I mostly took the responsibility for the medical needs and well-being of both. Big Bro. was married before and got separated from his wife with whom he had 4 . His wife left him in 1990 and abandoned their . My brother single-handedly raised them to the best of his ability, but he wasn't perfect. He then had another serious relationship with another woman who did nothing but took advantage of him, and took his money, and again, left him when he was diagnosed with prostate cancer in 2016. What an ingrate! His , one by one left him to_ raise their own family, except for the youngest, who also got separated from her husband. My brother succumbed to_ death on March 06, 2021 after suffering from excruciating pains that the end-stage of cancer which spread to_ his bones caused him. He had been in and out of the hospital prior to_ that, and even attempted to_ take his own life at some point. Now, his suffering is over, but there is this deep sadness in my heart. How sad is it to_die feeling so "unloved"? When he was young and strong, he was a giver. He gave his all, as a matter of fact. But in the end, only one took care of him. The other one has a family in Ilo-ilo and cannot attend the funeral because of lockdowns and quarantines. The other 2 refused to even talk to him, despite proddings from those were in contact with them to_ at least, talk to_ their father before he dies..How hard can one's heart be? This is beyond my imagination!...But,it is, what it is...Now, I am still mourning over the death of my brother, and I am already worried about my Mom. Lord, just help me deal with this, one day at a time....
ELZ


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/7/2021 2:24 pm

 I just had to vent here...This is my refuge...
ELZ


laogui32 78M
67 posts
3/8/2021 2:33 am

 Being from a small family, an only child, and both parents gone, I know only the pain of their passing, and have no concept of the struggles with siblings and other close relatives. All I can do is offer my condolences.


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/8/2021 4:13 am
    Quoting laogui32:
    Being from a small family, an only child, and both parents gone, I know only the pain of their passing, and have no concept of the struggles with siblings and other close relatives. All I can do is offer my condolences.
Thank you so much...I appreciate it coming even from a stranger like you...God bless.
ELZ


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/8/2021 4:17 am
    Quoting laogui32:
    Being from a small family, an only child, and both parents gone, I know only the pain of their passing, and have no concept of the struggles with siblings and other close relatives. All I can do is offer my condolences.
Sorry again...I do not know why FFF generates " auto-error" instead of auto correct" in all my posts? Each time I return to check the blog post, words are missing, making it grammatically incorrect.
ELZ


fantasiamore2 72F
876 posts
3/8/2021 9:15 pm

 Got too busy sorting out my flight back to Manila with the excitement that am going home soon. But the flight was entirely cancelled from the time it was given a spin changing from one date to another. Am fuming mad at what happened.

It's so difficult to cope when you lost a loved one. All you have left are the good memories of what was once. But when there are no good memories but only disappointing of frustrating ones, it can get one to feel so forlorn and weak at that. The consolation you have and that of your brother too is that he is past all physical and emotional pains. He can have a good rest now and so are you relieved of unhappy and sorrowful pains.. May he have his eternal peace with our Creator.


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/9/2021 4:12 am
    Quoting  :
Thank you..It means a lot..
ELZ


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/9/2021 4:26 am
    Quoting fantasiamore2:
    Got too busy sorting out my flight back to Manila with the excitement that am going home soon. But the flight was entirely cancelled from the time it was given a spin changing from one date to another. Am fuming mad at what happened.

    It's so difficult to cope when you lost a loved one. All you have left are the good memories of what was once. But when there are no good memories but only disappointing of frustrating ones, it can get one to feel so forlorn and weak at that. The consolation you have and that of your brother too is that he is past all physical and emotional pains. He can have a good rest now and so are you relieved of unhappy and sorrowful pains.. May he have his eternal peace with our Creator.
Thank you Jane... Indeed, I feel so weak..You know the story of our life...We have a dysfunctional (almost) family, and being the youngest, and I would say, the most sensitive and caring, I carry the responsibility to connect all of us siblings together from the broken family that we had and try as much to heal and enjoy what is left of us from this world...
ELZ


BichonFrise 30M
Ask me for a photo
34 posts
3/9/2021 4:14 pm

 Sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a loved one. Hope you can overcome grief as soon as possible one day at a time.


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/9/2021 6:25 pm
    Quoting BichonFrise:
    Sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a loved one. Hope you can overcome grief as soon as possible one day at a time.
Thank you so much...Sometimes, comforting words from people we do not know mean even more....God bless you, and keep safe..
ELZ


monet 53F
48 posts
3/10/2021 4:52 am

 deepest condolences Mz. Elz, the only comfort with his passing is he is at peace now and no more pains. Stay strong. God bless.


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
3/11/2021 5:52 pm
    Quoting monet:
    deepest condolences Mz. Elz, the only comfort with his passing is he is at peace now and no more pains. Stay strong. God bless.
Thank you so much Ms Monet...I appreciate it..It is true...He is at peace now...No more excruciating pains..Before, he used to scream when he was in pain..
ELZ




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