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convict She stood from her chair gathered her shackles and unlocked her chains  ~ Jolielaide  |
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1/3/2009 12:45 am |
but...still i don't want to leave him!
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almost just a small distance to negotiate from the chair to the door then another to actually open it and finally go out into the sun ~ Jolielaide
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that's more easier the hard part is the occassional ~ Jolielaide
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but...still i don't want to leave him! ~ Jolielaide
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* oh my God  he's in my blog  again real or not real ~ Jolielaide
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it's for someone who is a real magnet for dwellers (un)fortunately the person rubbed some of her magic power on me now i'm attracting them too. this one is new or a new version of the same old same old ~ Jolielaide
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Same old, same old, these days are now. The curse of sin upon my brow. Same old, same old, can you tell me how. I continue to go on, even now. The (invisible)tears do so woefully fall. The flood making me feel so very small. Same old, same old, oh what a hex. Nobody cares, nobody checks. Same old, same old, I think they should stop. Before I go over the freakin top. Insanity, oh, isnt it grand. But so consuming, like counting grains of sand. ~ Jolielaide
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I'd rather die an old hag, Than live my life a lie, I'd rather be loved for who I am, Than to have people love me by my frame, I'd rather be an ugly weed, Than be a pampered rose, Being loved and surrounded by people who only know half, I'd rather be me. ~ Jolielaide
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As long as I have myself I think I would rather be me. ~ Jolielaide
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not for the next 9 months ~ Jolielaide
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go to her blog buddy ~ Jolielaide
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1/5/2009 10:51 pm |
I am still a prisoner of my own will Chained to my own desire, Wishing that she loves me still ... Longing to feel her passions on fire For wasn't that the way it used to be? These memories just won't set me free! Be swift 2LOVE make haste 2B kind  DUnLop
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isn't that scks  sometimes ~ Jolielaide
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If we forget the conflicts If we forget the agitation If we forget the turmoil If we take the walls down... ~ Jolielaide
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The color of your skin Doesn't matter to me And language is only a barrier If you want it to be I wish that everyone could see The world through my eyes Because then you would understand Why I find sleep so hard at night! ~ Jolielaide
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I’m not straight-laced I don’t fit in a box I’m not a perfect match for any stereotype I am who I am because of where I’ve been and who I’ve known So many people have helped shape who I am and I am grateful to all regardless of whether they caused me pain of happiness I wouldn’t be me without them Shaped and molded into the chaos that is me I’m coherent but hard to understand Stable and yet off the wall I laugh I cry I smile I scream I feel pain I feel joy I am unique but not that different I have a good head on my shoulders but you may not understand my logic I ask questions for curiosity and try not to fear the answers I keep learning trying new things living life instead of just surviving I love and am loved Can you say the same? ~ Jolielaide
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sorry belle but my first name is maria ~ Jolielaide
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my rules are all great  ~ Jolielaide
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I am still a prisoner of my own will Chained to my own desire, Wishing that she loves me still ... Longing to feel her passions on fire For wasn't that the way it used to be? These memories just won't set me free! That haunt the soul and mind That corrupt the happy thoughts Which are usually so hard to find ~ Jolielaide
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She will always be close to my heart No matter how far we grow apart I loved her and still do She will always be.... Be in my chain of unforgotten memories No matter how hard I plea... Her image just won't leave me All the good times we had Everything seemed to be fine But I can't be anything but glad To have been able to call her mine Flashbacks run through my head So intense Especially when her name is said My body gets so tense It feels like she is right here Right beside me I start to shed a tear But remembered she said not to flee With this off my chest I can try to put my feelings to rest ~ Jolielaide
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Memories are the birds we never captured, The wind we never felt, The moments we never treasured, The hands we never held. Memories are the places we never visited, The trees we never saw, The frozen leaves on a broken branch, That never seemed to thaw. Memories are the papers we never kept, The phones we didn't pick up, The grass we never sat down in, The water we never touched. Memories are the rivers we never watched go by, The rocks and the pebbles we never kicked, The hawks in the sky we never noticed, The ice cream cones we never licked. Memories are the songs we never sang, The tears that we never shed, The angels we never whispered to, Before going off to bed. Memories are the paths we never tread, The music that will never be stuck in our heads, The dust that we will never see, The people that we'll never be. ~ Jolielaide
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*now, the view all page is also frozen ~ Jolielaide
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i guess i have to wait to post my most beautiful blog ever  which i'm very proud of  coz it's one of the rare blogs i wrote which i don't have a clue where it is going but just follow my feelings ~ Jolielaide
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1/7/2009 3:52 am |
wish ...that's how easy it is to escape?  and i'll be very glad to be called... convict? ex-convict? whatever  just let me... break free!   
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royalties have certain duties they cannot escape sweetface you being the QUEEN cannot escape  ~ Jolielaide
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