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do you? We women all fake it at some point of our life weather we would like to admit it or not. If someone says to me that she never did it, she is either joking or lying. And the odds is great that it is the latter rather than the first, simply because it is the painful truth; we have to fake it sometimes if (God forbids) not all the time. I myself lie(d) to three people. One is my ex; the second is someone I prefer to remain anonymous (for the time being) and the third one is of course D. I deceived them for three different reasons: My ex is too good he made me feel like a whre. The second one is too small, and D. he does it like it is always his first I feel nothing at all. You see, D. is not only self-centred and egocentric but also have no idea what empathy is. He thinks if he feels ok, everybody feels ok. In short, if he is in heat he (likes to) assumes that I am also burning with desire even though he doesn’t do anything (never ever tried) to light my fire. He has this great idea of himself he thinks all he has to do to set me on flame is to look at me with those dead eyes of him and I will quiver with intense longing. (To kll him) And that’s one small part of millions of reasons why if I get my way I’m already divorced (again) by now. But the infantile wolf in sheep’s clothing refuses to sign, and I have no desire (for the moment) to make my (and his) lawyer(s) richer than they already are. But that’s beside the topic. (and the meds) At least, Mr. can’t-mention-the-name made me moan couple of times even though he is small. But he sure does know how to build a camp fire from scratch. He btw is the only man who can make me feel like a woman anytime anywhere. Not so hard for him I guess being a very fine example of tall, dark and good, old fashioned bad boy handsome. Pity I don’t fancy him that much. My ex… well, my ex is really good. So good that he can make my body agree even though my mind is in protest, the more reason to hte myself afterwards. And the more I dislike myself, the more I loath him. I despise the guy so much I never kiss him with open mouth (the other reason is he’s a chain smoker) so I pretend most of the time that I’m in another planet during the deeds. It helps not to feel anything and made the endurance a lot easier to bear. It is truly a miracle that it lasted for twenty years. But then again, sometimes I am lucky not to smell him for nine months weather home or away. We are both stubborn. Besides, if one is going to terminate a relationship based on the quality of rocks on the bed, everybody is single by now. The point is: we do fake it sometimes whatever the reasons are. It could be as mundane as being tired or not being in the mood or simply having a headache. But at one point in our life, we really do. And I am not even talking about friendship and those other complicated close intimate relationships yet ha ha.  ~ Jolielaide  |
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hmmm... another one of those ~ Jolielaide
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we have to enjoy it while we still can trish and may IT last foerever for you (trying to remember here how ecstasy feels like)  ~ Jolielaide
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ah, don't be sorry trish boredom is just settling in we approaching the infamous "seven year itch" nothing abnormal ~ Jolielaide
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you know me... ~ Jolielaide
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i think (almost sure) every normal woman does at one point of her relationship it's humane we cannot have hearthy appetite all the time sometimes, we're just not hungry ~ Jolielaide
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in my part of the world it's not only always full moon, the colour stays blue also ~ Jolielaide
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surprise, surprise ~ Jolielaide
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and like those fungi they have a very short span of existence ~ Jolielaide
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 very wise ~ Jolielaide
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12/7/2008 4:59 pm |
i need you... The most beautiful thing can not b seen & touched it must felt with heart 
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12/7/2008 8:51 pm |
  lol, that's my take on that one. it's only human we are not hungry all the time. But, our nature to give back as a lover it's a given... even with all the headache and being tired. We are there to please... [I God is pure love...
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i need you... ~ Jolielaide
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lol, that's my take on that one. it's only human we are not hungry all the time. But, our nature to give back as a lover it's a given... even with all the headache and being tired. We are there to please... sometimes (only sometimes) i wish i was born more like a woman they are a lot smarter than i am ~ Jolielaide
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i think the key element is L(s) i'm struggling with both ~ Jolielaide
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oh, i do that also from time to time (for the sake of scratching) makes it all more believable ~ Jolielaide
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good to have you both on my page i adore people who are genuinely in-love ~ Jolielaide
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Laughing, It's all fake. Smiling, Through the pain. You ask if everthings fine, My answer repeated, Once again. Crying, When alone. Hiding the pain. You ask if everthings fine, My answer repeated, Once again. How I hide the pain so well, How I fake every minute. I don't really live at all, I just fake it. ~ N ~ Jolielaide
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*fungi are more closely related to animals than plants  hmmm... that could explain a lot of things~ Jolielaide
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OMG,MY WORLD HAS COLLAPSED TOGETHER WITH OTHER PARTS OF MY ANANATOMY I SUSPECT-----------LADIES FAKE IT  I ALWAYS ASSUMED I WAS GOOD lol
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*sweetface, someone is back in the mag ~ Jolielaide
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OMG,MY WORLD HAS COLLAPSED TOGETHER WITH OTHER PARTS OF MY ANANATOMY I SUSPECT-----------LADIES FAKE IT I ALWAYS ASSUMED I WAS GOOD lol but no need to worry we don't do it all the time one lady says: just once in a blue moon ~ Jolielaide
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sometimes we fake it because we care/love in a(n ideal world) healthy normal relationship people do not need to deceive, partners make allowances for each other afterall, faking is just a woman's equivalent for men's -can't-get- it-up-today- days nobody can have a hard one all the time women can lost erection too only they are less dramatic than men ~ Jolielaide
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12/9/2008 4:15 am |
*sweetface, someone is back in the mag  but...am cool   
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12/9/2008 8:33 am |
and the answer to ur query? yes! i did!
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