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I Maybe....What's Yours?  You can say scared, worried, anxious and yes with a happy heart. Am going home for the holidays. I need to get away to_ avoid the harsh winter where I am. It's still no fun for me even after almost two years of living here. It's still home sweet home for me. But who knows, after the holidays comes that time I need to_ decide because...Oh well, we don't really know what is coming. You can predict your retirement because you decide for yourself when to stop working. You can decide to stay healthy because you choose the food you eat. But, when it comes to nurturing a love, at this point in my time, it could come, it could go. True, still my choice, that you can say. Either I win and then again I could lose, too. We make our choices ourselves, in all departments of our lives, that's what's definite. |
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It's been awhile since I last posted. Just enjoying what is there for me now. I hope you are still doing good. You make your happiness, it is said but would you know if that is forever?
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It's been awhile since I last posted. Just enjoying what is there for me now. I hope you are still doing good. You make your happiness, it is said but would you know if that is forever?  Welcome back!  and ohhhh! I love this topic... ELZ 
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I am presently in the process of deciding where to retire...I have a very dysfunctional family that I am not excited going home to, except for my demented mom  story of my life...So, I am planning, godwilling, to go home to the Philippines as soon as the crazy quarantine protocols relaxes...I need to stay there, number one, to take care of my mother, and number two, to test my endurance of discomfort with the weather, the noise, and the people. If I pass the latter, then, it's time to pack my things up and put my humble house here in the USA for sale....But I believe in God's will, and God's perfect timing...Thy will be done.... ELZ
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As for my opinion regarding your special relationship with "B", you are right in that you are enjoying whatever the relationship offers you..At our age right now, we cannot be so picky, demanding, and expectant. Those are the ingredients for failure and unhappiness. But, if you think, you are better off without him, or if it gets to the point of monotony or boredom, I think you just have to make a choice...To be with someone as a companion, or to be single, and less stressed....Only you can tell, because no matter how good things look from the outside, only you can tell the real score, and quite frankly, it is none of our business! We are only happy when you are, and frown when you are not....Bottomline.... ELZ
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Hi there, Jane! Welcome back! and ohhhh! I love this topic... The veterans are still alive!
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I am presently in the process of deciding where to retire...I have a very dysfunctional family that I am not excited going home to, except for my demented mom story of my life...So, I am planning, godwilling, to go home to the Philippines as soon as the crazy quarantine protocols relaxes...I need to stay there, number one, to take care of my mother, and number two, to test my endurance of discomfort with the weather, the noise, and the people. If I pass the latter, then, it's time to pack my things up and put my humble house here in the USA for sale....But I believe in God's will, and God's perfect timing...Thy will be done....There is such a thing as, we keep the family waiting. Maybe, it is that urgent time to be with them or that a good farewell is just around the corner, that needs to happen. But I wouldn't want you coming home to do that, of course. The bonding between Mom and daughter is still priceless, no matter the length of time and distance, that had caused you apart. As for my case, since i have not been truly alway for a long and considerable time with most of my children, I find that walk necessary and adamant, despite them already adults. No amount of good life or good enviroment or even a special someone will quell me from coming home and enjoy once more the fun and laughter with family. I also like to say I have not inured myself to the Western culture. I feel it will take another sacrifice on my part to imbibe it.
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As for my opinion regarding your special relationship with "B", you are right in that you are enjoying whatever the relationship offers you..At our age right now, we cannot be so picky, demanding, and expectant. Those are the ingredients for failure and unhappiness. But, if you think, you are better off without him, or if it gets to the point of monotony or boredom, I think you just have to make a choice...To be with someone as a companion, or to be single, and less stressed....Only you can tell, because no matter how good things look from the outside, only you can tell the real score, and quite frankly, it is none of our business! We are only happy when you are, and frown when you are not....Bottomline....  The element of love is true and present though. I can't ask for more!
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With B there is that feeling, it came at a rather late time, despite believing or saying it is never too late. Somehow, I feel a void, that is coming from nowhere and can't say why or what is causing it. True, there is that air of happiness and want, but it gets to be incomplete for me. Maybe because I want my family closer and nearer, or that am not feeling contented with their virtual presence at all. The feeling of voidness is very strong in me. Although I do not want to live through life without a man's company, sometimes I like feeling alone and doing things my way, as you have mentioned. "Tanong ano ba talaga? Nung wala hinahanap, nung meron dumating, iba naman ang nagiging pakiramdam." I can just smile away these statements. The element of love is true and present though. I can't ask for more! My sister in Wisconsin who married an American/German for scores of marriage with him is still complaining that there is still lacking...He is not the romantic type, and when she is kinda in that pick me up mood, he just ignores her.. ELZ
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Happy for you Jane..<3 and whatever void there is, that is because, we are never really 100% contented.. My sister in Wisconsin who married an American/German for scores of marriage with him is still complaining that there is still lacking...He is not the romantic type, and when she is kinda in that pick me up mood, he just ignores her..Well, I do hope the pandemic gets curbed more as the days/weeks pass, so you can have a happy reunion with Mom and that you can be where your roots are and hopefully Mark joins you. C'est la vie!
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Tajane, Oh my, how can a once colorful corner where we used to chat and relax, Communicating with friends be left neglected. My high praises to You and Elz for keeping this site alive. As for living and loving, it will come to good terms or bad, time can only Tell. Wait and see, that's what we all can do... Miss you guys. ♥️♥️♥️
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Tajane, Oh my, how can a once colorful corner where we used to chat and relax, Communicating with friends be left neglected. My high praises to You and Elz for keeping this site alive. As for living and loving, it will come to good terms or bad, time can only Tell. Wait and see, that's what we all can do... Miss you guys. ♥️♥️♥️ I love being here, it's one outlet I can share my thoughts, feelings and desires. Like Elz, I am also an open book in this site.Time does have a way of telling what can and will not be. I still look forward to what will be though at times, I can just sit and wait, let time pass by, live for the moment and just look back at what was. What the future brings, there is only this certainty, that life can just snuff out when it is time. Certainly miss you too!!!
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OMG, y'all are still around ! ! !
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OMG, y'all are still around ! ! !
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