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indeed! sometimes in the midst of trying to define someone we erred on making false assumptions by just the virtue of reading what they posted or in manner their share their engaging thoughts in the chatroom.
do we have the right to make assumptions of others without having thoroughly knowing who they are? at what point do we know someone anyway? would it be enough that by conversing with someone on the chatroom - viola! we certainly know how they are or who they are and what they are.
its hard to validate assumptions specially giving in a timeframe that is to irrational and only based on gut feelings. perhaps was given at a point when somehow unknowingly you have offended someone, bruised their ego or unintentionally invaded their space or at a point wherein you are not in the best of mood. regardless there is nothing wrong with providing assumption and yet there is also nothing wrong in refuting the fallacy of assumption. would i refute assumption? i would not. the burden of truly knowing me is on them. they must on the course of their lives must know me extensively if they want me to be a part of their lives.
be as it may, some of us becomes victim of a false assumption and suddenly most become convinced because of that false assumption that you are indeed such and such without them actually knowing you in an extended period of time.
they said that i have a high regard of myself and that nakarating lang ako sa america ay kung sino na ako. everyone must have a high regard of themselves. by mostly having that, its the foundation of having a healthy life and then acquiring an excellent perspective of life. but to assume that someone only having a high regard of themselves because of where they are or have been or dahil nakarating sa america is making a mockery of one's insecurity.
none of us has the purity of values and therefore assumptions are sometimes false and never right specially given at a point that one never was closed to you or have been intimate with us.
i was not offended by the assumptions accorded on my behalf, after all eveyone has the right to make assumptions and even share it with many. but to others it could be dismaying experience to the point that to them it becomes a nightmare because they have been ill defined by virtue of that assumptions. but no one could ever define us except ourselves. and if you have a high regard of yourself, then nothing matters including false assumption.
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the real score why its hard to find love at a certain age!
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Oct 25, 2009 9:15 pm
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no! its not about me. i can always find that love if i wanted to. its just that i prefer not to love and be loved at the moment.
i am talking about women in general. yes at a certain age, the opportunity to be liked or even loved diminishes as one gets older. there is a dearth of pool of available men as women gets older. the ratio of women in their 60s with men is 10 is to 1.
generally men would prefer younger women as they get older. its not an assumption, its more than the truth and its indeed a pervasive reality - specially for men of power and money. donald trump, larry king and hollywood men mostly have young wives or relationships.
generally speaking, what if you are in your 50s? who do you think would hit on you? its just too few or far and between that a woman in her 50's will be hit by men in their 50's. and then those who are in their 60's would still prefer their women be in their 30's.
some even goes for women as young as in their 20s. so where are you then in the scheme of things as you aged? admittedly, its pathetic whether you like it or not! sometimes what you are left is just to "dream on." or just settle for anything just to say and feel that you are in a relationship.
or you totally give up on finding that relationship and rationalize whatever shape, form or method you can imagine. the rational women can find comforts in the pursuit of a noble agenda other than having a relationship. the irrational women are mostly mad at themselves and the world and of men.
but some women of power and money do surgically correct the disparity. they get their toys too and they are enjoying it with willing dismissal of the expectations of the society, their peers, associates and even loved ones.
men on the other hand as long as they take care of themselves, can father a child even at his 70s. meaning the libido is still functioning. would yours too? i doubt it for majority of women in their 50s because there is one tragic word we called menopause.
what happened when a woman is in menopause? for some men its something that they deal with in a fashion detrimental to women.
in the old days, once you find love, it stays forever menopause or not. but its no longer the old days. the dynamics of relationship have changed so much. as women gained empowerment and success in many endeavors, they pay dearly in terms of relationship. i guess only few women can have their cakes and eat it too!
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10 reasons why i want U to dislike me!
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Oct 24, 2009 7:29 am
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1. i am not capable of totally surrendering myself and love u based on your expectations! you are focus on yourself instead of ourselves.
2. i want to keep and enjoy my freedom! to be able to do a lot of things or anything without having to ask someone is exhilarating! you really have to totally capture my heart to give you totally my freedom.
3. i am not sure if you deserve my love! it will take a process for me to like you and love you. i won't be able to know you unless you open up and unravel yourself. you have this sort of self pity that you thought unraveling yourself is sort of boasting about yourself. that is a humility in contempt!
4. you are probably just going to annoy me after the splendor of love is over! there is such as thing as diminishing enthusiasm to connect daily! unless of course you are complimentary to the life i want to live!
5. you may be the controlling type that you want our relationship molded by your way and you don't believe in discretionary activities that we can do separately and distinctly from that relationship! you want me monitored 24/7.
6. you are still ambitious and that having someone like me sort of just a way to enhance your life, but not in substance but superficially. you want to show that you can have everything - career and someone supporting and loving you! in other words to show off that you are truly a fulfilled woman having everything and a ball. what a sham?
7. your intention is doubtful at best. you are always mentioning the things you want instead of showing how much you care and love me. you want to go abroad and helping your family are just two of your many buzz words!
8. you are too insecure and that you mask your insecurities by the strength of your ambitions and in constant competition with the joneses at one's financial peril and disaster. you want the finer things in life without considering if you can afford it!
9. you are easily judgmental. you are unwilling to give anyone the benefit of the doubt and that you totally believe that no one is capable to change oneself either for the worst or for the best. your fallacy of assumption that first impression is the true impression does not make you capable of living with that true virtue to understand and appreciate individuality.
10. you are unwillingly to discover the true and many virtues of a person. you quickly decides right away that one is not worthy of your time - and then you convey your thoughts of rejection in the meanest and deceptive way such as, "I AM BUSY." you are not capable of saying it the way it should be such as, " i am sorry, you are really not my type and i am still waiting for someone i thought could mesmerized my heart, and you are not that person." and you don't have the guts to say it the way it should be!
11. you smokes and you gamble! which are both very unhealthy!
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i am prostituting myself (this u can read) !
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Oct 23, 2009 9:08 pm
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gosh if only i knew i would not have a ticket to the raiders and jets game this sunday. yeah i have a ticket and its a good seat, lower section 130, row 22 and seat 8 and a lot closer to the raiderettes.
my disappointment is knowing that my cowboys are playing against the falcons televise at the same time i am watching the raiders and the falcons live. that's 1pm pacific standard time.
hmm i have to figure out something. maybe i should record the cowboys and falcons game. but then that would be only nice if only i would not know before watching it who won the game. i am sure i would know it anyway because scores will definitely be flashed over the billboard while watching the raiders game. or definitely i will hear it on the radio on my drive home.
then recording is a big deal for me. i am handicap anything mechanical or hightech in applications.
i am glad that women in general are still not hightech in applications. it always start with the simple seduction, followed by foreplay and then that ultimate gratification that most experienced women are dying for. its just easy as 1,2,3 or as they say, once you have ridden a bike, you are a rider forever!
hmm i will settle for the highlights of the game then on ESPN and then if the cowboys lost, then certainly it will dampen my enthusiasm to watch their next games. currently the cowboys is 3-2 and 2 games behind the giants in the division.
romo, the quarterback, has that tendency to choke and falter on big games anyway. since that jessica simpson fluke, romo is becoming a total disappointment for the cowboys fan like me. but if only he can eliminate that unforgiving mistakes of fumbles and turnovers, the cowboys will go along way. i believe so!
watching the raiders instead of the cowboy is like dumping someone you truly love and adore and settling for second best or for someone who just manage to just be available and liking you. its sort of in man's lingo "taking advantage and enjoying an easy quickie from a groupie."
hmmm i am prostituting myself by watching the raiders and its an expensive endeavor considering i can watch the cowboys game free compared to the 60 bucks i paid for the raiders ticket. but just like in life, sometimes we just take the road before us and unmindful of the other consequences. yes to hell with it, i am watching the raiders. yes to hell with it, i am going to love her whoever she is.
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the yearning is still feverish!
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Oct 22, 2009 8:30 pm
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yes the yearning is still feverish. no its not about finding someone or being found. its about doing another hurrah for the last time.
yeah hurrah means doing something very selfishly about oneself, uncaring of others, devoid of responsibilities that nothing matters but the enjoyment of that last hurrah.
last hurrah is a temporary and a brief stage of life when one is sort of restless and living a vagabond life. it could last from few months to a year depending how one resources could fund it.
yeah last hurray is sort of an exploration. it means too living a life of wanton abandon, carefree, rudderless and without direction. it could mean visiting the himalayas and experiencing the placidity of the place. i always wonder why folks in the himalayas are too serene and simple in living their lives.
i am almost there in my last hurrah. almost two years to be exact. my intense yearning for the last hurrah is probably the most underlying reason why its hard for me to be found or to love someone or to be in a relationship or commit to a relationship.
last hurrah means that i will avail myself of the insanity of men for the last time - it could be jumping from one woman to the next, just for fun and not to seek refuge in love or in a relationship. its sort like a run away groom looking for the next bride - but forever may not acquiesce to such words as "let no man put asunder."
i have the means to do my last hurrah! 
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disconnect from the harsh reality
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Oct 20, 2009 8:10 pm
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my lack of passion for my work is a disconnect from the harsh reality that millions are currently unemployed, homeless, victims of disasters or calamities and in abject poverty. while millions are in such situation, i am taken my job for granted and without deepest appreciation that in return i really must work hard.
i don't do much at work. i am just barely working and just enough to avoid being taken to the woodshed, so to speak. but then there is no woodshed anyway and the management are too afraid to take me to task and ask me to do more. the management has no magic formula to fire me or even to motivate me.
this is the first time that i have been in a job and in the same location for 8 years. it used to before this job, i moved around to different places and distant locations too and have different jobs and challenges every 2 to 3 years. yes my primary job then in the navy was in financial, but i do other things too such as training officer, career counselor, safety officer, watch officer, disaster preparedness officer and many other jobs that took me away from drudgery and monotony of just one job.
in between those jobs, the navy sent me to school too or training exercises. i have been privileged to attend the naval war college and graduated with distinction. i have been privilege to attend the first two years of college while the navy was paying me my salary and allowances. i have been privileged to go to school at night while the navy was paying 75 percent of my tuition and finally graduating with a bs degree in management, cum laude.
the navy was a great job. it was hard work but hard play too. it was easy for me then in allowing myself to be taken by women or loved or played by women because i know or we both know that it won't last forever and that in few months, or a year or two - i am gone for good never to be seen and heard again. its true then that never to be heard again because there was no internet then yet.
perhaps atrophy is the best word to describe my current predicament and lack of passion for my work. or i am just at a temporary point of my life that i settled for my work because it pays well and it does not matter that it does not provide me the profound satisfaction of knowing that i have done my best for the day.
but the drudgery of my job won't last that long. i see myself in exactly two years from now walking away from this well paid job and venturing into the third or fourth act of my life. money is not everything they say. but i am walking away with a substantial nest eggs put aside made possible by my job.
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