i will try to be a good girl from now on ... i will not tell you how ... but i will do it as much as i can ... no ... i will not try to control my naughty posts ... because it's in me ... i will try it in other ways ... i will just try my best to be good
been receiving e-mails ... regarding my new profile picture ... i would like to share some of them ... thank u guys for writing ...
fr: internally hot how the devil did you ever get hold of one of my old pics?! (heh heh - i've seen previous pics and you are quite stunning. very funny! )
take care, Roy
fr: henry513 hey... that was funny!! the last photo you have on here. wow, she's got a big smile hehe I hope you're doing well, look forward to hearing from you. take care,
henry
hahahaha ... i never thought putting pictures of someone could be fun ... now dadee can relax a little with my new picture ...
dadee and mamee watched the film "wanted" yesterday starred by angelina jolie ... aside from the laughter brought about by a "character"(she just reminded us of someone)in there ... we really enjoyed watching it ... part of enjoying was when suddenly there was a power interruption ... it happened for only three minutes ... but when the film stopped ... and the lights went out ... this in me started showing ... believe me ... when i know that there are people around ... it just excites me ... so i _______ and ________ and _________ with dadee giving me an incredulous look on his face ... and when the lights went back ... he told me with a look that tells me "see ... if i let you do something to me ... people would have seen us" ... and i told him "pakipot ka pa kasi ... lumiwanag na tuloy ... all i wanted was " ... the second time the lights went out again ... i did it again ... the third time when he couldn't take my hands off him he told me ..."you're not 15 yrs old anymore" ... and i behaved with a heavy heart ... and developed a plan to get back at him we before left the house (because i asked for one more loving loving "round" ... after only reaching "5" c's ... pay back good enough to cover only sunday through thursday) ... when we get home and before we turn in for the night ... and more importantly when after we wake up the following morning ... well i got it in the keester right after we woke up
btw ... we are on our 15th month of loving, teasing, quarreling (this the best part because i am always looking forward to making up
so to "u" all i can say is ... note: this post is with dadee's consent so no more spanking and i will not be forbidden to play with my "balls" before i go to sleep and after i wake up ... i hope that'll include the cinemas this time ...
it was a rainy day and i just got to thinking of how our lives had changed with all the years
this room was once alive with all your laughter and when i heard the silence i called you right away now please don't say a word hear what i say
love me like the first time again lets pretend its never gonna end for one last night just hold me in the way you used to do you know, love me like the first time and go
is it my imagination are you lonely well im sorry but i thought you sounding sad i'm not trying to start a fire again please listen if you're free at all tomorrow the next day who knows when for the last time can we say goodbye as friends
oh love me like the first time again lets pretend its never gonna end for one last night just hold me in the way you used to do you know, love me like the first time and go
my three doctors only told me one thing when i had my regular check-up ... "don't be stressed too much ... you have a lot of concerns" ... and i would like to reply with ... "i am having a cardiac arrest everyday thinking how to undergo the transrectal operation they've been forcing me to do" ... anyweiz, what added to my stress was ... i am hands-off to my favorite toy ... so i cannot de-stress myself ... the "habit" that can make me sleep soundly is now off-limits ...
so ... i am going to buy myself ... two stress balls that i can squeeze with all my might ... without worrying if somebody would be hurt ... or complain that i squeeze too much ... that i can hold till i got all the satisfaction that i need ... that i can caress at night and in the morning when i wake-up ... without disturbing somebody who's sleeping ... without that "thing" that is attached to it reacting violently with ... now i am thinking what would go best with my stress balls ... maybe my jumbo pillow ... nah, it's in my home ... pooh? ... he's just square ... no can do ... oh ... my body pillow will do ... now i can relax because i have finally found a solution to one of my problems
Jul 3, 2008 2:43 am Mood: contemplative, 667 Views
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back ...
lately ... i've been having bad dreams ... sometimes i would wake up in the middle of the night ... feeling it was really happening ... and sometimes i would wake up crying ... some of those dreams happened in my past ... that i tried to erase ... it's either because i've been hurt too much ... or i was in denial that it really happened ... sometimes i would be surprised to know that such an "incident" really happened ...
i don't know what it's called ... when you try to choose only what you want to remember ... only the happy ones ...
it started happening when i was in the hospital ... i thought i was going to die ... because it was so clear that i felt ... that i was an audience viewing my own life ...
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