I eat when i am bored. I fall easily. I am vulnerable to believing lies. I am hoping that one day i won't need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what i am going thru. I make up excuses for everything. I have best friends and critics. I have good memories and a share of dramas.
So whether you love or you hate the 'imperfect' me, It would be a pleasure ..if you'd still keep me..
Fear makes the wolf bigger than he is. Author: German proverb Most of the time I have my very own high self esteem but in the little side of me, I had sorrow beyond my splash of joy and I have greatest Fear. yup!!! I fear of failure.
But I have been through this life with so much failure, disappointment, hurt and pain. At the time I can't stand on my weakness and needed many years to try and understand what was going on and back on track again. So how about YOU?
Confusion. Pain. Unanswered questions. These are only some of what we face when a friend turns their back on us... When you are sad, and you feel you can't go on. Tears well in your eyes and the pain is so strong.
So far from your friends, and you're all on your own. No-one to run to, So very alone.
When all seems so useless, and you can't take anymore. As you put on your coat, and head for the door.
Remember.......
I was there once, lost, all alone You can cry in my ear, Just pick up the phone.
When you are lonely and feeling so blue, Someone is thinking ... ...thinking of you.
When being denied by a love one, our familiar world seems to become a different place- one without joy or happiness. Finding an inner peace takes time. And in between, There is the line So hard to cross.
Something so hard goes straight to the soul; it seems impossible to get over and my heart is left with a big hole.
I'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile; but I'm dying inside. The world seems to be fading, and I just want to run and hide.
Everywhere I go I see your face, and realize how much I miss you; and on the day you denied and left me, a piece of me died too.
If I could write a sonnet on a star, Then bottle it and toss it to the sea, Would it travel to the corners of the Earth, And echo there the love I hold for thee?
If I could write a sonnet on the moon, Then bottle it and toss it to the winds, Would it find your heart So you may briefly know, Where your love ends Is where my love begins?
If I could write a sonnet on the sun, Then bottle it and toss it throughout time, Would someone from a distant galaxy Find no greater love?
Than that was mine Yet, I can not write a sonnet on a star, Nor moon, nor even on the blazing sun, Nor bottle words to send them Where you are, Nor coerce our separate hearts To beat as one.
And so my darling You will never hear, The humble words of love I wrote for thee. They remain encrypted, tightly sealed.. And yet they travel on eternally..
Jenny was so happy about the house they had found. For once in her life 'twas on the right side of town. She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze.
How wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting, she'd have friends over soon. There'd be sleep-overs, and parties; she was so happy. It's just the way she wanted her life to be.
On the first day of school, everything went great. She made new friends and even got a date! She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be, Because I just got a date with the star of the team!"
To be known in this school you had to have a clout, And dating this guy would sure help her out. There was only one problem stopping her fate. Her parents had said she was too young to date.
"Well, I just won't tell them the entire truth. They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?" Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night. Her parents frowned but said, "All right."
Excited, she got ready for the big event But as she rushed around like she had no sense, She began to feel guilty about all the lies, But what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride?
Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, But the moonlight ride would have to wait. For Jeff was half drunk by this time. But he kissed her and said that he was just fine.
Then the room filled with smoke and Jeff took a puff. Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff. Now Jeff was ready to ride to the point But only after he'd smoked another joint.
They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride, Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive. They finally made it to the point at last, And Jeff started trying to make a pass.
A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all (and by a pass, I don't mean playing football). "Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young. Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb."
With all of her might, she pushed Jeff away: "Please take me home, I don't want to stay." Jeff cranked up the engine and floored the gas. In a matter of seconds they were going too fast.
As Jeff drove on in a fit of wild anger, Jenny knew that her life was in danger. She begged and pleaded for him to slow down, But he just got faster as they neared the town.
"Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied. I really went out for a moonlight ride." Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash. "Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!"
She doesn't remember the force of impact. Just that everything all of a sudden went black. She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, And heard, "Call an ambulance! These kids are in trouble!"
Voices she heard...a few words at best. But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck. Then wondered to herself if Jeff was all right, And if the people in the other car were alive.
She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad. "You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad." These voices echoed inside her head, As they gently told her that Jeff was dead.
They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do. But it looks as if we'll lose you, too." "But the people in the other car!?" Jenny cried. "We're sorry, Jenny, they also died."
Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done I only wanted to have just one night of fun." "Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim, And wish I could return their families to them."
"Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied, And that it's my fault so many have died. Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?" The nurse just stood there ~ she never agreed.
But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes And a few moments later Jenny died. A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best To bid that girl her one last request?"
She looked at the man with eyes oh, so sad. "Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad."
This story is sad and unpleasant but true, So young people take heed, it could have been you.
If life is a journey, from birth to death, how much of that path must be walked alone? Is happiness a journey or a destination? Dear soldier,
I see that you are tired. I tell you, drop your sword and put down your shield. Why worry about the fight? After all its not your battle. Its mine. All you have to do is to be in the battle field. There against the thousand who tried to destroy you, there I will stand and rescue you. Winning this war requires neither only me nor only you. But rather, me and you. Just do your best and I'll take care of the rest.
I don't know how to say, I don't know how to start.. I just want you to know how I feel from inside. I don't want you to leave I don't want you to cry. Its just that you're the best You are my number one friend.
I wished for a wish. I wished for you. You came into my life ...My wish came true. I met you as a stranger. I took you as a friend. Until i go to heaven... My wish will never end!
Without you I don't know where I'd be, but you're still here with me.. you deserve so much more than I can give, but without you I wouldn't live.
You've given me more than money can buy, and for you I'd give my all and I would die.. This feeling I feel gets stronger every day, hoping not to mess it up, I constantly pray. You're an angel from God up above, and I'm thankful for your understanding love.. because when you're around everything seems right and for you, until the end, I will fight.
It doesn't matter what you do or say, because you'll always be kept in my heart anyway.. I know the real you that's down deep inside and in you, I'll always confide.
So never stop being the real and wonderful you, cause God shines through in all that you do. and whenever it seems like I'm never there, remember this: I love you and I'll always care!
