It's been more than a week since i last jot down here in my blogs.It was pleasant to see comments and thought of them as very open and honestly quite inspiring and spurred me to to try to keep up inspite of my busy work.great to be back guys...hope to jot some of my notes while i was offline for the week by morning.
It is as always seem to happens when some of my guard is down, when i feel i am defenseless by this virus attacking my physical body and made me confine to a bed where if not but to stare in the four walls and ceiling of my room and be thinking of random thoughts sometimes beyong imaginable Anyway,i have been thinking again justifying myself why i am and have remained to the same job i have been doing for over 14 years now or so.I'm not belittling my job i actually enjoy the challenge and i am happy being so.I have worked as a Domestic Helper(MAID)and i actually consider learning so much about the reality of life, have become independent and self sufficient and been a great help to my family in terms of finances. I once thought of going back to the University get some decent certificate,a diploma or have a masteral then maybe i can land myself to a high paying corporate level Job,but what would be the point?Unless i would really like or will enjoy as much as i am enjoying an easy and stress free life as of the moment because as of now i think i am not going to swap it to anything more.I enjoy working at home,i have a boss who treats me well as they would treat their own family,i have flexible hours,i work on my own pace and need not be told everything as i could decide to do things on my own and that one the of the best challenge i have always enjoyed.i have learned to organize my time so well,see i even make time for myself to sit infront of the pc and do this posting while i should have been scrubbing toilet bowls hehehe So what i am trying to point out is i am just trying to show that We ARE who We AREThere is nothing impossible to achieve that is of beyond what a man can do for himself if you are certainly working to achieve and set goal for it. Secondly,It is not a matter of who you are.Be it wether i am but Maid I know i can still achieve great things in Life and succeed in my own way,I know that i am just doing an important Job the same way as anybody else. So what else could i ask...maybe a little rise in salary would be a very good idea hahaha
It feels like yesterday once more The promise of you and me together forever and never to part To love and cherish every moment of our lives And to keep our trust and faithfullness In the name of LOVE
Tears have meant so many meanings Tears of sadness and pain Tears of Joy and happiness And tears of a crying heart longing for Love All these have came to pass In the name of love We braved many trials,problems and consequences That through faith, we will get over it all That all the walls that devide us have crumbled and fell In the name of love We became victorious and free
And now i am wondering and feeling alone In this place thats new and you're not here with me I was just trying to bring back your memory And to feel once again if the promise is still there to keep You spoken to me of love i could count on That you'll never leave and would care for me no matter what circumstances i am in now Inspite and despite of everything i have done you wrong You've promise, you'llbe by my side until the end In the name of Love.
I don't know what's wrong with me Why can't i see what you have in your hands for me Have i become unfeeling and selfish To not feel that your promise is for real To not see how you're hurting while i'm making a fool of myself Why have i ignored the feeling of safety when i am in your embrace Why have i not cherished the sweetness of your kisses that promised us happiness for eternity???
Because...I was a fool and have not recognize love from the very start... In the name of LOVE...I'm CONVICTED... Please Forgive ME
Old memories don't fade Love and hate Don't tell me you have forgotten them, It may have been over many years back Because i know that would be a lie And you are lying to yourself even more.
It's nice bringing back old feelings As they have been much a part Of what you become now No one can rub me off of how i remember you It may have been a long time ago But can't be completely forgotten Because Old memories Don't Fade.
Old memories don't fade Love and hate Don't tell me you have forgotten them, It may have been over many years back Because i know that would be a lie And you are lying to yourself even more.
It's nice bringing back old feelings As they have been much a part Of what you become now No one can rub me off of how i remember you It may have been a long time ago But can't be completely forgotten Because Old memories Don't Fade.
There was a feeling of joy inside that used to glow in me the kind of feeling that have inspired me and made the person in me alive. What used to be are gone the happy little moments we used to share those little fun together that we used to have and those little care which were not so obvious but we both know it is there. We used to share good times We used to laugh together with some of our little funny mischiefs I miss the friendship I miss the kind of feeling that radiates from you I miss you...
But soon i guess, I have to get used to all this new feeling The feeling of the new love i will find The feeling that i can't have both worlds in my hand The feeling that i will not bear to see you hurting while i am inlove with somebody else and not you The feeling that i could not ask from you for your brotherly love and frienship when you wanted to offer more I don't want to choose among you both It could be too selfish to want you too But i won't do that Because i know it is not going to be fair for you
I wanted to share my joy as we used to be I want you to know that i am happy Without feeling guilty you are not I wish you were not somebody i used to love Maybe if so...We are still friends until now.
There's so many things I'd like to say to you Words i may not have had the courage to say They were left unspoken,as they were just so hard to come out my mouth and say. I have kept them bottled in me And waited until this time when it is just as hard to no longer hide and keep inside So i am writing them down now as it was easier Without having the chance to have said them out loud to you.
I thought i'd be content to watch you from a distance, The once person who so meant so much to me,from the very start. And i am afraid,you are slowly disappearing from my view. You have now become a star,glowing in my darkest nights, YET, too far away from my grasp to reach and touch.
You have made so good of yourself You have become somebody adored,endeared and loved Jealousy is slowly killing me inside,you know? And shame myself for feeling so When it was All my fault why you are now so distant from me. I could be wrong to think,you still care for me But to put myself as if i am still a part of the picture is hard to bear, It's coming clear to me now, I'm not much a part of you anymore.
So,i painted up this happy face To fill the emptiness of the space you left behind. Just don't look in my eyes Because i am afraid you will see the pain,i am trying to hide away. Still though there are maybe many things a smile can hide,or words that would deny. But never again would i complete this puzzle because i have lost sometime ago a piece to make it complete ...YOU
There's so much talk about \bsexo?\b that it's easy to focus on how to do it,rather than how you might feel afterwards.I have read this article in one of a leading foreign magazine,stuff that you hardly ever hear about having \bsexo?\b for the first time Someone said that it is totally nerve-racking.Of course even though let us say that you have been together with your bf/gf for sometime there is still a good chance that you'll feel nervous about losing your virginity-it's one of the most intimate things you'll ever do and being nervous is natural,when you are doing something for the first time specially when it will involve your privacy. secondly,It won't make your relationship last forever.Deciding when to have a physical relationship as the intimacy of making love,it is a big step as understandable that you think it will take your relationship to the next level.If this is the kind of thought that you have in mind i think that yoy will only feel regret if in the end it didn't work with you both and will make you feel like your virginity is being wasted losing it to the wrong guy. Having \bsexo?\b might make other people who become aware of think that you are more mature or it could lead them to think you are easy,so i think for your own self-respect,choose the right guy(opppsss how would one tell if he is the right guy huhby his honesty?i don't think so.It is hard to judge someone unless you have known him for sometime but sometimes the point is even the lenght of tome you have known will not justify that he is the right guy. In conclusion,it is not always true to think that having \bsexo?\b and losing your virginity to the man will make your relationship last forever,for some it might make you closer when it is at the right time,in some instances it may strenghten the relationship betweenyou and your partner,but you should not do it hoping this will be the case.It is advice that you should be prepared for whatever consequences there after and if your partner will be willing to wait until you are both totally and mutually ready,not when you are pressured to doing it.
On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and I'll give you back the other ten." So God agreed.
On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said, "Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's what I'll do too, okay?" And God agreed.
On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer. I will give you a life span of sixty years." The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty." And God agreed again.
On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. I'll give you twenty years." Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back, that makes eighty, okay?"
Okay," said God, "You've got a deal."
So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.
