THE TURNING POINT.... Apr 6, 2007 6:43 pm Mood: beautiful, 1651 Views Once in a lifetime, we come across a situation where we do something that we've never thought we would, and this is one of those crucial times in my life...I took that extra step and risk...I'd say, I am very lucky that I found someone very understanding and whose frame of mind is not centered on something objective, but rather subjective...Now, I realized that for every risk taken, there is a corresponding gain, and maybe pain...But, I am proud of myself, whatever the outcome of this new challenge in my life may have brought me..At least, I did not deprive myself of that opportunity to find out things for myself...Indeed, I found a TRUE FRIEND...Someone who wouldn't mind hearing things other men may not be very receptive to...I found someone who is not pushy about things I am not bound to do and unready to carry on...I am thankful for the absence of peril in this unusual journey that I took...I am happy and content enough that I took this extra mile in my life....I am also thankful to all my friends who wished me well...It was all good and I'll continue to travel the roads this wonderful life has offered me. Now, I am ready, trustful, and confident that indeed, there are still a number of good men out there...My doors will remain open, and will nurture the very carefully selected friendships I've encountered, and one of these days, that final decision is sure to come...It's all good, and I am very happy... 12 Comments

The Road Less Travelled: The Road I Am Taking Apr 2, 2007 6:32 pm Mood: adventurous, 1595 Views Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveller, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference ...Robert Frost ************************************************** Life is full of risks, full of mysteries, full of challenges...I used to be very conventional, very conservative, (still am) and very mindful of the norms created and set by the majority in our society...But times had changed, and people changed,...And I am not spared. For the only thing constant in this world is CHANGE...At some point in our lives, we reach the crossroads, and we just have to choose which way to go. I try to enjoy the busy road whenever I can, but it becomes so busy and narrow, it gives me little room to breathe..,Therefore, I am taking the "Road Less Travelled" with you, where I can see the vastness of the land and panoramic view before us, its serenity will guide us through the unique journey that we are taking..even though we cannot foresee what is in store for us in the future...Together, we will live our lives each day, as we travel along..And if by chance we'll reach another crossroad, by then, a decision would have been made...Whether to continue to take the "Road Less Travelled", or to merge in the highways where people travel too fast, they forget the sweet memories they left behind... 9 Comments

YOU HAD ME AT HELLO.... Mar 28, 2007 6:21 am Mood: ecstatic, 1672 Views In this life, one wonders when do sparks fly?...The answer is, ANYTIME!...Sometimes, it takes just one "hello"...yeah, that's all we need...And we'll take it from there... September 26, 2006...the beginning of it all..I didn't know that another "special friendship" is bound to happen...Two different worlds, opposite each other...That's how I felt at that time...Since, I don't give out my number, you gave yours to me....I hesitated for a while...but later on, what the heck!...My first voice mail...then, your first voice mail...Finally, we got to talk in real time, and I'm glad, we did... Six months later, and we're still talking, only this time, it is more often...We're very comfortable with each other..No promises, nothing serious is being said, but I can sense the beauty of that "deeper attachment", that longing to be finally seeing each other face to face...is becoming so intense...I can feel it in every word you speak, the excitement and all..And you got me into it! Sleepless nights, feeling jittery, my nerves are driving me crazy...One step forward, that's what I intend to do...And pretty soon, there's gonna be ME and YOU..TOGETHER, finally! You are very different(as opposed to indifferent). You're very sensitive to my needs, very sincere, very understanding...Very plain and NEVER mean...You are SIMPLY the BEST! I just want you to know, how much I appreciate you. And most of all, I want you to know, that YOU HAD ME AT HELLO! 24 Comments

THERE YOU'LL BE.... Mar 19, 2007 9:08 pm Mood: happy, 1723 Views TO THE VERY SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE...THIS SONG IS FOR YOU..I could not wait to sing it in your presence... THERE YOU'LL BE (Pearl Harbor Original Sound Track) By: Faith Hill When I think back On these times And the dreams We left behind I’ll be glad ’cause I was blessed to get To have you in my life When I look back On these days I’ll look and see your face You were right there for me [CHORUS:] In my dreams I’ll always see you soar Above the sky In my heart There always be a place For you for all my life I’ll keep a part Of you with me And everywhere I am There you’ll be Well you showed me How it feels To feel the sky Within my reach And I always Will remember all The strength you Gave to me Your love made me Make it through Oh, I owe so much to you You were right there for me [Repeat chorus] ‘Cause I always saw in you My light, my strength And I want to thank you Now for all the ways You were right there for me You were right there for me For always [Repeat chorus] ************************************************* I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING VERY PATIENT WITH ME.....THANK YOU FOR BEING CONSISTENTLY AVAILABLE, AND FOR BEING SO UNDERSTANDING DESPITE MY SHORTCOMINGS AND CHILDISH MOODS...THANK YOU FOR TREATING ME LIKE A "BABY".....*************** 16 Comments

ALL MY LIFE... Mar 19, 2007 5:55 pm Mood: lonely, 1628 Views ALL MY LIFE Author: Raven It was not so long ago when I thought I'd never meet someone like you. Wrong was I, thinking I'm in control Believing I'd never fall. All my life I thought no one would melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, a heart hardened by the past, protected by shields so vast. Slowly I was falling without even knowing. Only to find out too late I have no choice but to accept my fate. I could dream, I suppose forever, I could hope there will never be any 'us', that's our destiny so I wake up to reality. I lied when I said I didn't love you, that my feelings for you are through. I lied not because I wanted to but because I love you and I still do. I wouldn't do a thing to hurt you but I just have to let go. I can't hold on much longer 'coz for us there's no forever. 5 Comments

AND YOU WONDER WHY? Mar 17, 2007 9:07 am Mood: bouncy, 1668 Views ...Most men want their women to be strikingly gorgeous, and they wonder why they could not keep them? ...They want someone who is so smart, so witty,...and they wonder why they always clash? ...They want someone who is very simple, no make up, no complaints, and they wonder why they are boring? ...They want somebody who can cook well, and yet they complain of their "pot bellies" ? ...They want someone whose face is that of an angel, and yet they wonder why she is so dumb? ...The worse thing is when most men want their women to be all of the above, and yet, they wonder why they cannot find them? ...This is a very sad reality, most men put their standards too high, expectations unrealistic (not directly proportional to what qualities men possess anyway) and just wouldn't accept women as they are...or at least try... NOT EVERYONE IS GUILTY THOUGH...AND THE SAME IS TRUE WITH WOMEN ANYWAY! 15 Comments

MY OTHER LOVE... Mar 11, 2007 12:45 pm Mood: eager, 1729 Views ...July 12,1991, New York City...It was there that I've experienced my first American Life...It was there where I fell in love with my profession, where I embraced the real world of diversity...where I fell in love with the love so unique, it happens only once in a lifetime...What a wonderful and colorful life... ...Then, that awful September 11, 2001, when the entire world watched that horrific and horrendous attack of the Twin Towers...There I was, in shock...watching the smoke, hearing all sorts of sirens, I was called to respond to the disaster area...My heart raced as I witnessed the Big Apple so disturbed...The call of duty was a must...I prayed hard, so hard not only for the thousands of lives at stake, but for my life...I still want to see my only child,to be old enough to take care of himself...He still needs me...I was traumatized, and even though I loved the city so much...I had to leave.... ...November 2002, McAllen, Texas...A new life, a new job, a new beginning...This time with my only child who joined me from the Philippines...What a difference in my lifestyle...What a difference in my professional practice...What a difference in everything...Not my kind of life, but I had to do what I had to do to ensure my son's welfare and provide him with all the comforts that I would have not afforded in New York City... ...Now that my child is almost done in school, I want to go back to the Big Apple...MY OTHER LOVE...Where it all happened...I cannot revive the death of my old love, nor erase the trauma of 9/11, but something pulls me to the city where it all began...My true life... 10 Comments

The CYBERWORLD:...Looking back....Looking forward... Mar 6, 2007 8:27 pm Mood: ecstatic, 1715 Views May, 2005... I was curious, anxious, and doubtful...I said to myself: "What the heck!...I'll give it a try...there's always the first time.."...Then, came the first male cyberfriend, then the female;...the first frustration from the first lie...I thought, I do not belong here...I thought, I was too good to be here...I quit for a while, but came back with new hopes, less expectations, and this time, more friends...I outlined what I wanted, what I desired, what needed change, and what needs to be done...Came the first heartbreak, my mistake...I limited myself to just a few, and out of them, one was just too good to be true...He did not fail me, I failed myself...But that was THEN...I learned my lessons quite well, and yet, there's still no guarantee that I won't make another mistake, but again, "What the heck!"...And NOW?...Here I am, making so much progress...CYBERWORLD is not really bad after all...I AM HAPPIER with my new circle of friends, and new prospects for a future ROMANCE. My days are a lot colorful with so much to LOOK FORWARD to...I am very thankful for YESTERDAY, because without it, I don't have TODAY, and without TODAY, I won't have TOMORROW...And obviously, someone SPECIAL is already into it....CAN YOU RELATE YOURSELF INTO THIS FEELING? 6 Comments

FRIENDS AND LOVERS: When to draw the line? Mar 4, 2007 9:19 pm Mood: curious, 1817 Views Wheewwww!...I dunno, but I always hear or read people saying that they wanna start being "friends" first, before they decide to up the level to being that of lovers/sweethearts...Too many have tried that, and some of them took just several days (literally), some several weeks, several months, and very few took a couple of years to finally decide, that yes!...they are going to be a couple... It's not much of a problem if the feeling is mutual, but most of the time, the other person wishes to remain friends. Most conservative women would wait for the men to take the initiative or positive signs for romance to start...On the other hand, conservative men are reluctant to make their feelings known for fear of losing the friendship that was built and nurtured for sometime...At times, both parties wait too long, and receive wrong signals from each other...and end up losing both the secret romantic sparks and eventually, the friendship. Lucky are those who never had to say a word, but their hearts understood,... who just happened to stare at each other, pulled one another closer,.. then the first kiss, and the warmest embrace...Lucky are those who never showed any fear...Happy are those who dared the world to stand still.... When do you decide to be lovers? Or do lovers really need to be friends first? Do you wanna risk your friendship in favor of your love for the other person? If love is not favorable after all, will you abandon the friendship as you move on? 23 Comments

THANK YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE.... Mar 2, 2007 3:13 am Mood: ecstatic, 2783 Views ...Lonely nights ...Lonely days ...Seven years passed by ...Now you are here ...Wiping away my tears. ...Your soothing voice ...Your warm embrace ...Your comforting words ...Your sweet caress ...Can't wait to see you, face to face. ...Not too long ago ...I almost let you go ...Now, I can't believe ...You're almost here ...I'll wait for you, soon you are near. ...Your words are simple ...Your ways are real ...The attention you give ...Just make me feel ...So SPECIAL, SO DEAR.. ...I know you're scared too ...But, let me assure you ...I'll heal your wounded heart ...Let's have a brand new start ...One day soon, you'll be my sweetheart. ...People come and go ...But you chose not to forego ...You gave warmth back into my life ...When others seemed so cold ...I'm so touched in every way You showed your heart of gold. ...Thank you, thank you so much ...For coming into my life ...For just being yourself ...For just being there for me ...For not promising anything ...But doing everything, anyway ...Just to make my day ...Baby!...I just love your way! 16 Comments

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