Huwag Mo Na Akong Puyatin, Hindi Naman Ako Ang BF Mo Mar 9, 2007 10:41 am 1034 Views She can't resist my charm kahit pa ayaw niya sa tulad ko kasi dalawang gabi na niya akong pinupuyat kate-text since nakalabas siya ng ospital and I have to remove them at once else mai-erase ang messages nung ex kong taga Toronto. And nagkaroon siyang bigla ng imaginary lover para ako pagselosin pero sa totoo lang, never mangyayaring manibugho ako kasi di naman ganoon kalakas ang impact niya sa aking buhay. I am a writer, a romantic poet, a sweet talker that is. Whoever you are, two text messages are enough, huwag mong gawing 30 and above in one day alone. ~ SALLIE 2 Comments

Wishing Her Strength and Courage At This Time Mar 6, 2007 10:10 am Mood: gloomy, 1077 Views Tomorrow at nine, my lawyer and I will meet at a Toronto courtroom to ask for a probation so I won't go to jail if ever I'd be found guilty. But this is not my concern. I don't care anymore about my life. All I think about is the woman whose authentic friendship and zest for true love made me adore her. I hope she will recover as soon as possible. A lot of us are worried about her illness. I wish I can talk to her the soonest. ~ SALLIE 1 comment

I Won't Forget You As Long As I Live Mar 6, 2007 9:57 am Mood: sad, 831 Views As I jot this down, my tears are falling. My heart is aching and my mind is spinning. I was trying to talk to you and dialed 30 times to know what's going on. Parang ako ang mamamatay when I heard you're in the hospital apparently of heart attack. Kung puwede nga lang ako ang mag-suffer tutal I am over 40 years old already. You're still young to suffer, my friend, I hope malusutan mo lahat ng mga pagsubok. Last night, my son and I offered a get-well soon prayer for you. It was a moment of contemplation as I felt God's presence. I know He will give you back the strength and courage you need to get by. Don't worry, my friend...walang puwedeng sumira ng iyong pangalan. I'll do my best capacity to take good care of your image because you are one sweet personification that occupies a special place in my heart. Sana, do communicate with me still kahit nasa Pilipinas ka na. ~ SALLIE 0 Comments

Oo Mahal Kita But I Know Where I Stand Mar 6, 2007 9:52 am Mood: worried, 749 Views I know how faithful and how affectionate you are to your boyfriend kaya nga mas lalo akong humanga sa iyo kasi iba ka sa karamihan. You never took advantage of anyone, much more you never called me names and you accepted my friendship and the way I am. No doubt bakit masyado kang napamahal sa kanya at napatino mo siya. We started text messaging when you sent me one on 1:45 pm of January 10, "2mwag ako s hp mo, nkavoice mail." With 40 messages, the last two were sent by you on 1:19am and 2:07 am of March 5 and from there, I knew something's wrong. Several hours after that, came the news that broke my heart. You are extremely ill and here I am, so far away and can't do anything to comfort you. Alam mo kung gaano ka kaespesyal sa buhay namin ng anak ko pero ni minsn hindi mo ako nilait. Hindi mo ako siniraan sa mahal mo o kahit kanino pa man. Kaya huwag kang magtaka kung mananatili ka na sa puso ko magpakailan man. Iba ka sa lahat, natatangi ka at karapat-dapat mahalin saka igalang at tingalain. Please don't underestimate yourself because wherever you go, you leave some happiness behind. ~ SALLIE 0 Comments

Why I Don't Delete Your Text Messages Yet Mar 4, 2007 4:04 pm 825 Views If you think I never move on yet then you're erroneous. I am a journalist and being a writer, it's natural for me to always include my past escapades in my write-ups. Don't tell me I'm still in love with you because I'm not anymore. The only reason why I keep your 68 text messages via my cell phone is to show as proof in case your lawyer will deny we had a passionate relationship for more than 200 days. Your relatives will surely know that you came to my house before I went to your place to ask for a formal break-up. Kung nakipag-usap ka lang ng matino sa akin that time at di mo ako minura-mura, hindi sana nangyari ang kinatatakutan mong malaman nila about us. Dahil noong gabing iyon, I was extremely ready to let you go kasi masyado ka nang nakakabigat sa akin. Besides, naglahong parang bula lahat ng pagmamahal at paggalang ko sa iyo that fateful 21st night of November. ~ SALLIE 0 Comments

SINO AKO PARA HINDI MAGPATAWAD? Mar 4, 2007 1:24 pm Mood: content, 802 Views Like you, I am also a sinner. The only difference is I am not judgmental, that I am not fault finder because I know I'm not perfect either. I know you still monitor my blog and that you still wanna see me face-to-face. FYI, I am not interested to see nor talk to you but I got no choice when the trial date is set next month. However, if you asked for my forgiveness, matagal ko na iyong naibigay. Hindi ako Diyos para magmatigas. My lawyer advised me not to contact you anymore but I told him there's no need to remind me of that because I got no intention to do so. I won't risk my freedom and my dignity for you. To live with you is a hell and I'm glad, I got out before it's too late. Kung nagkataon at nagtagal tayo tiyak na mamumulubi kami ng anak ko. Losing you is a gift because I got my life back, my son is happy and my family was united in spirit. In short, they accepted me more for who I am. Sana ikaw din matanggap na ng iyong mga kamag-anak dahil sa nakaraan mo para lumigaya ka naman. ~ SALLIE 0 Comments

PAANO KO SIYA MAPAPASALAMATAN? Mar 4, 2007 12:45 pm 605 Views When someone helped you moved on in a pace you never imagined. When somebody's always there to brighten your day. If that special person never failed to make your life beautiful nor judged you beforehand, then how would you let them feel how grateful you are? If you're the one who's being helped get on with life, how would you thank them? ~ SALLIE 0 Comments

ALL I WANT IS YOUR HAPPINESS Feb 27, 2007 9:38 am Mood: calm, 539 Views I love you...Oo, mahal kita pero... ...kikimkimin ko na lang kasi maligaya ka naman sa kanya. Pag kailangan mo ng masasandigan, nandito lang ako, patuloy na umiibig sa iyo. ~SALLIE 3 Comments

I THOUGHT I CAN'T GET BY Feb 22, 2007 3:03 pm Mood: amused, 691 Views AKALA KO THREAD Akala ko ba ayaw mo sa kagaya ko eh bakit miss mo naman ako? Akala ko hindi na iinog ang aking mundo pag nawala ka. Akala ko iiyakan kita pag nagka-break tayo. Akala ko nga iiyakan kita ng matagal, isang oras lang pala. Akala ko ba naka-move on ka na. Bakit gumamit ka ng panakip-butas? Kawawa naman siya. ~ SALLIE 5 Comments

An Offer Of Marriage From A Complete Stranger Feb 21, 2007 8:19 am Mood: contemplative, 560 Views MySpace Mail Center From: Susan To: thepoeticjournalist Date: Apr 20, 2005 12:34 PM Subject: hi hi. i don't know how to start this letter. naglakas loob lang ako na gawin ito for some reason. i am not sure if i am doing the right thing pero nasabi ko sa sarili ko na baka sakaling may mangyari. i am looking for somebody who can help me so i can stay here in canada for good. right now, i am only here as a tourist. actually hindi ko naman talaga gustong mag-stay dito kaya lang napasubo na ako and i have nowhere else to go. wala na akong trabahong babalikan. i used to work in saipan before i came here. kailangan magtrabaho abroad si mahirap lang naman kami sa pinas. kailangan tumulong sa family. ganun naman tayong mga filipino di ba? unfortunately, nagkaroon ng problema sa work at sa personal life kaya kailangan kong umalis. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako nag-decide ng ganun. ang alam ko lang that time, pagod na pagod na ako sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, na it came to a point na i wanted to die. i know God has his own reason why He allowed me to come here to Canada kahit na hindi ko naman alam kung ano mangyayari sa akin dito. Naglakas loob lang naman ako pumunta dito kasi akala ko matutulungan ako ng dati kong officemate pero huli na pala kasi nag-asawa na siya. alam ko medyo nakakahiya itong ginagawa ko writing a letter to ask for some help from a total stranger. i am looking for somebody who can marry me (for convenience lang). i am willing to pay kahit magkano para matulungan lang ako, at his own terms. titignan ko na lang kung makakaya ko ang hihingin. ang totoo wala din naman ako malaking pera pero some friends can help. i know may mga balak ka din sa buhay mo o maaaring di mo naman kelangan nung perang ibabayad ko pero one to two years lang naman ang hihingin kong tulong hanggat makakuha lang ako ng permanent resident status. kung wala ka pa naman serious relationship right now, maybe you can help me. if you can't, baka naman may kakilala ka na puwede. i really don't know what to do with my life anymore. all i wanted right now is to be able to work and help my family. di ko lang alam kung maiintindihan ito ng ibang tao. sana wag mong masamain ang sulat na ito. i am just taking this risk. once in our life, we need to do things (kahit ayaw natin) for a reason. anuman ang maging sagot mo sa email na ito, sana maging kaibigan pa rin kita. thank you for reading this. i'll send you my picture. pasensiya ka na kung ikaw napili ko. heheh! Susan ````````````` The above post was a part of 42 messages I just retrieved from MySpace account and was sent to me by a Filipino tourist asking for help so she could stay. She got no accompanied photograph in her profile and left no e-mail address. I'm not interested to take her offer. I just wanna find out how is she doing. ~ SALLIE 9 Comments

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