IT'S ALL ABOUT..US. but mostly ME. it is usually about my own thoughts that i convey. my questions that need answers. who? and how? i am. my thinking on plain everyday living. my opinions. not that it matters, but i'm sharing it anyway. whether you like it or not.
ME......don't have a clue as to what my subject is about..i just need to talk..my blogging is my way of talking..reaching out to someone....
they say it's impolite to talk about someone/others..but where's the fun if we don't....talking about oneself gets boring..people sometimes gets the notion that what you do when you talk about yourself is just bragging..that you are self-centered....besides, there's no juice when you talk about yourself, not like when it's about the others....that's why people pay more attention to gossips than one's achievements....isn't this true?..c'mon, don't be saints now..
but if you say malicious things about yourself now(not that you will....), i bet everyone will be all ears..it's just how life is, i guess....look at the movies, especially filipino movies, it's always the older ladies that are church-going devouts that always have something juicy(gossips..not the fff member by the handle..juicy, peace....)to talk about, like the neighbor, the one that just moved in..aren't i right?....
it's the same thing here, much more, i'm afraid, than in the pinas..and you think that the westerners are the progressive ones....there are more gossipmongers, backstabbers, and the likes, here than in pinas..oh, and more crimes here, much more heinous, than in pinas..you don't believe me?..better believe it....
the only thing i like about living here are the opportunities, they abound..and when you work, you can afford to eat what rich people eat, most of them anyway....how i hope pinas is such a country like this, rich and advance..i like living in pinas better..it's a calmer place to be in..just my thoughts..there, i talked about myself..i am being polite....
when i was a kid, i always dreamt about me, wearing a coat and a tie, going to work..and so i thought, wow!, maybe i'll be a big shot exec. in a big shot company..wrong!!!....
since my very first job, i've always worn a uniform....if i want to, i can apply for a supervisory job at this job am in now, then i'll be wearing a tie when i go to work..but i will not do that....of all the places i've worked at, this place is the only place i know where these (supervisory)people don't get any respect....
this org. i work for promotes from within..so the people that becomes management are former trade workers like me..want to know a trade secret?..most of the people that apply for these jobs are the laziest workers you can find....but as soon as they become management, they say that they were the "super workers" when they were still doing the trade..what a bunch of bull....let me ask you, would you have respect for them if you knew how they were?....i thought so..
how about the money?, you say?..we, the trade workers actually can make more than them, if we work all the overtime we can get, coz' we get paid by the hour....money or not, i just don't want to be an asshole like how most of them are, it's just not me....
besides, i like what i do..after spending a few hours in the office preparing what i have to deliver for the day, spending some time dealing with an asshole, er, supervisor, for how many hours i'll need for delivery(this is the part of the job that you get stressed, dealing with them....), the rest of my day is spent outdoors, by myself..when i've gone out, i get to enjoy the rest of my day..i get to walk, for my exercise, i get to see and talk to people on my route sometimes, no bosses, with those prying eyes....you just have to deal with the seasons, ie., the heat of summer, the rains of winter, the dogs....i'd rather these than being cooped up in the office....
as to my dreams when i was a kid, i should have stayed in school..if i had, maybe i'm that big shot exec. now....it's all good though..i'm happy at the state am in now..plus i get a pension when i retire and i think that will be enough when i retire in the pinas....yes, i want to return to pinas when i retire....i'll wear my coat and tie then....just kidding..
..Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you You have made me what I am and I am yours My love, there's so many ways I want to say I love you Let me hold you in my arms forever more..(Kenny Rogers' Lady)
..All my life, without a doubt I give you All my life, now and forever till the Day I die, you and I will share..(America's All My Life)
..After you go I can catch up on my readin' After you go I'll have a lot more time to sleepin' And when you're gone looks like things Are gonna be a lot easier Life will be a breeze you know I really should be glad .....But I'm bluer than blue Sadder than sad You're the only light This empty room has ever had Life without you is gonna be Bluer than blue..(Michael Johnson's Bluer Than Blue)
..Everytime I think of you, I always catch my breath And I'm still standing here, and you're miles away And I'm wonderin' why you left And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight ..... I aint missing you at all Since you've been gone, away I aint missing you, no matter What I might say..(John Waite's Missing You)
..Photographs and memories All the love you gave to me Somehow it just cant be true That's all I have left of you .....But we sure had a good time When we started way back when Morning walks and bedroom talks Oh how I loved you then..(Jim Croce's Photographs and Memories)
..So you try Try to stay in the middle And then you cry Well you cry just a little Then you both realize Just how foolish you've been And you try to make amends But you're better off as friends .....That's how much I feel Feel for you, baby How much I need I need your touch How much I live I live for your loving Well that's how much, that's how much That's how much, that's how much..(Ambrosia's How Much I Feel)
..Light of the world, shine on me Love is the answer Shine on us all Set us free Love is the answer..(England Dan & John Ford Coley's Love Is The Answer)
..Love, look what you've done to me Never thought I'd fall again so easily Oh, love, you wouldn't lie to me Leading me to feel this way..[/B](Boz Scaggs' Look What You've Done To Me)
..My love,I'll never find the words my love, to tell you how I feel my love. Mere words, could not explain. .....God bless you, you make me feel brand new, for God bless me with you, you make me feel brand new, I sing this song 'cause you, make me feel brand new..(Stylistics' You Make Me Feel Brand New)
i just felt like singing....i hope you enjoyed my love story timeline, done through a series of songs..hopefully, my next timeline will be on a more cheerful note....
don't be bitter..ONLY IN FORGIVING, WILL WE FORGET..
i read this a lot..and i agree, wholeheartedly....but my nature dictates otherwise....am a scorpion and if you look up its profile, you'll know why..hehehe..
am i possessive?..i hate to admit, but i think i am....not chokingly possessive though..i let my partner do freely whatever she wishes, just feel that my partner should know the extent, the boundaries, of every actions she partakes in..
am i passionate?..i think i am..i pour myself to whatever it is i'm dealing with..i never settle for a compromise, it has to be in black and white..i accept my inadequacies, my faults..i'm not one that never gives in..it's funny/scary how i always give in..to me, everything should be structured because i'll never fully understand if it's not, and it'll be chaotic....
am i secretive?..very much so....i keep to myself things that can be hurtful to others..things that i alone should know about..wow!, what a guy....am not..i do tell, constructive things and i do speak my mind too, when necessary..but i rather hurt in secret, as it has always been..that's why i'm so good at it now....
and so on..a scorpion's profile is pretty much dead on about me..why i wonder how these people gathered all these characters and traits, must really have taken them awhile....just thought i'd give you an insight about me, a thing or two, so you'll understand why this post..
going back to forgiving, i can easily forgive..am a very forgiving person..as a matter of fact, i try not to let things bother me, a lot of things i can tolerate, but there are things that you can't ignore..with this said, when a "biggie" hits me and i can no longer ignore/endure, what do i do?..
an earlier post(my patience..is a virtue of insanity)tells it..if you have done me wrong in a way that i cannot endure, and God knows it rarely happens..turning my back on you is my way of forgiving..and not looking back, taking you out of my existence, is my way of forgetting..it's the only way i can forgive and forget when you truly hurt me..it's all i know how..this is my way of easing the pain....
i guess we will never really know why things happen..we can only be sure of just ourselves when in a relationship..
let our trust, faith, hope, nurturing, work its wonders..that it bonds both to hold each other sooo dear that just the mere thought of doing the unthinkable brings disgusts to one's being....does being disgusted with oneself stop the act?....
all we can do is to have faith..that our partner will forever be faithful, for we can only be sure of our own faith..
and in trusting..hope that we have placed our trust on the right person, for it is only our trust that we are sure about..
and in hoping..that all we pour into the relationship, is enough to sustain it, for it is only our support that we are sure of..
for we can do all it takes to nourish a relationship, and still wonder what the other person is concocting in his/her mind..for it is just ourselves that we are really sure about..
scary, isn't it?...heck, life is a gamble, and so is love....
YOUR FAULT; NO, YOURS.......haaaay life..is it really that hard to admit to your fault?.. little white lies, big lies, foolish lies, felonious lies...ang daming lies....
why not fess up?, you already got caught with your lie/act..it's always the other person's fault..most of the time....we do fess up..but sometimes, we only do when we see that there really is no way out....but if we see light, even just a tiny bit of it, we'd still really try to wriggle our way out of it....
whose fault is it really?..is it the cheater's fault?, or is it the cheated partner's fault?..excuses, excuses..we are so good at making them..
do you know what i really think?..both are at fault..i am not going to delve into the reasons/excuses as to why it happens, there are just too many of them to mention..i am just going to look into the reactions/actions of differing people when problems do arise..
some people can handle problems real well, SOME PEOPLE CAN'T..and these people that can't, when a problem arises, is where a reaction to a problem can go to the extremes; a retaliation, a "i'll show you"(really bad way of dealing with the problem....) attitude..these are the people who can't handle tough situations..these are the people that don't have a care in the world..these are the people who only care about themselves..
these people always have an easy way out..think of it, much easier, di ba?, instead of dealing with the situation at hand..they don't think ahead, never..they never think that an (bad)action will produce a succession of corresponding bad actions/problems..to them, there is always the easy solution, the easy way out..
when you fall in love with a person such as this, what do you do?..do you concede, all the time?..are you prepared to face the consequences, if you do not concede?..they say, binabaril ang mga martyrs sa luneta....so, who can you blame?..
these are facts of life..as for me, what do i do when faced with a problem?..I BLAME IT ON THE RAIN....
.. You said you didn't need her, you told her goodbye. You sacrificed a good love to satisfy your pride. Now you wish that you still had her, and you feel like such a fool. You let her walk away, now it just don't feel the same. Gotta blame it on something, gotta blame it on something.
Blame it on the rain that was fallin', fallin'. Blame it on the stars that shine at night. Whatever you do, don't put the blame on you; blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. You can blame it on the rain.
Should have told her you were sorry, could have said you were wrong. But no, you couldn't do that, you had to prove you were strong. If you hadn't been so blind then, she might still be there with you. You want her back again, but you just don't feel the same. Gotta blame it on something, gotta blame it on something.
Blame it on the rain that was fallin', fallin'. Blame it on the stars that shine at night. Whatever you do, don't put the blame on you; blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. You can blame it on the rain.
But the rain don't mind and the rain don't care. You've gotta blame it on somethin'. Blame it on the rain that was fallin', fallin'. Blame it on the stars that shine at night. Whatever you do, don't put the blame on you; blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. You can blame it on the rain,
blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. Blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. Blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. Blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. Blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah.
Whatever you do, don't put the blame on you; blame it on the rain, yeah, yeah. Gotta blame it on something, gotta blame it on something.
Milli Vanilli's, too bad they were caught lying themselves....
first of all, i want to say sorry for all the ladies that have broken hearts, i sympathize with you, i know how it feels for my heart was broken too..
now back to why women say men are natural cheats and say men are always the cause of their heartaches..i read a lot of times, how men are depicted..repeatedly, almost every female here says that it's man's nature to cheat..hey, it's not and say if it is, not all men do!!!
for the sake of argument, say i agree with this notion, that men are natural cheaters..my question is..how can a man cheat if the woman he is trying to cheat with says NO!?..a lot of you would probably say that the woman didn't know, that she was sweet talked to and she believed in all the man's lies....
for women in this site searching for their soulmates, let me ask you, when a man shows interests in you, do you say yes to him right away?..of course not!!!..you want to find out about this man..if this man is sincere, truthful and whatever it is you want to know about him before jumping into a relationship with him, right?..especially, if the man is really available and not in a relationship of any kind..
then how can women say that they were lied to?..i think women, some at least, already know what's going on, but they also have hidden agendas of their own....they may be physically attracted to the man and like his character, of how the man is..and she's feeling that why can't she have him, so they either turn a blind eye or look the other way ..or for some, they would try to get the man for themselves, to get the man to leave whoever he is in a relationship with, be it a wife or a gf, and hope that the man would take her in..see how a woman can think of stealing a man from another woman?....and when nothing happens, the woman cries foul...in the ex-wife/gf's case, they blame the man for breaking their heart for cheating..can't you see that another woman caused it to happen, not just the man?....
here's an interesting example....say that a man is a dog, his instincts tells him to sniff out other women..have you seen a male dog sniffing out a female one?..the male dog smells the behind, right?....anyway, when the female dog is not in heat, what does it do?..it snarls at the dog sniffing her from behind, like saying, get away from me or i'll bite, and walks away, right?...THAT IS SAYING NO..
do you see how it's all up to the women for cheating and/or something, to happen?..if the woman keeps her legs crossed, do you think the man can continue on with what he seeks? think about it..that women actually have the power over men when it comes to sex..
one word, 2 letters.."NO"..this goes both ways..both man and woman cheat..if you don't want it happening, all that need be said is "NO"..so please, stop saying, stop generalizing, stop classifying all men, just men, as cheaters..IF YOU WANT TO SAY WHO CHEATS, SAY THE HUMAN RACE CHEATS....
everybody asks..quite frankly, i say it's the looks, primarily..but it does not necessarily mean that i settle for the looks alone..the looks is what attracts me to someone, to get to know that someone, to see if there is substance, for a relationship to bloom, prosper..towards the end, when i can say that i have found that someone i'm looking for, she may not have the looks after all, anyway....and she may not want me..not her kind of guy..
we can't help it, it's our nature to go first by what we see before we go any deeper..we are not animals, were no dogs or whatever kind there is where they just go at it....
our senses attracts us to one another, the more they are alike, the better we understand..as to me, i'm flexible enough to have some qualities i look for missing, with other qualities i deemed essential for a healthy relationship, compensating for the missing ones....
as for the physical attributes, i'm an ass/behind kind of a guy, not the boobie type....i can't help it, i love a well-rounded behind, the curves from the waistline down to the thighs and knees, my oh my....that's my weakness....curvy to me is sexy, not skin and bones like how models look....am i drooling yet?....sorry..
there you go..looks is there to attract people to you, but it's really what's inside that makes people wanna stick by you..that's why it's so hard....i'll find her....
of course i'll be biased....it's the values i was taught and brought up in..you are probably thinking old fashioned, right?..
i was born in the now fashioned values, even though i'm this old....huh!....yes, we were all brought up in the now fashioned values..how could it be?, you ask, simple..growing up, we grow up by the signs of the times were in at that time..confusing?, kinda, but not really..
times recycle, do you agree?..look at the fashions, they come back around after so many years, about every 20 to 30 years..
when we were in our adventurous years as we were growing up, we were all venturing into the wild side..some would say, no, not I..i beg to disagree..each one of us had broken house rules, right?, just so to find out for ourselves why it is forbidden to do this or that..most may not have been as riskier as some, but everybody did venture out of their comfort zones, one way or the other..what brought this up?..these were the years that shaped our thinking, our values..
the values are our MORALS..by what morals do you believe/live in?..if you live by the morals of your church or by the standard of conduct of the times you live in now, is when values differ..the church have set centuries old moral standards and are very strict at that, compared to the now that adapts to the ever changing way of life..these are the old fashioned(the churches), and the now fashioned(present) values..per my evaluation....you can disagree as much as you want..
i may live in the now fashioned values/morality of society but i pattern my way of living mostly by what the church has taught me throughout the years..i may not go to church every sunday, but my heart is part of the church..i'm starting to sound very religious....i'm not, i'm a sinner just like everybody else....just that it's how i think, my conscience dictates how i think, how i behave..
so, there's my answer..i was brought up in the now fashioned values and live in it, but i live my life comfortably, following the old fashioned values..it's what my heart/conscience tells me to....
a child learning to walk does not care how many times s/he falls, s/he will get up over and over again to accomplish what s/he intends on learning......and us adults whine so much when we stumble and fall and sometimes takes most of us longer to get back up on our feet..
a child is curious to learn what it is, most of the time will stick his/her little hands/fingers and gets hurt, and when this happens, s/he knows not to do it again coz the child learns quickly what the consequences are.....and us adults keeps repeating the mistakes over and over again, never learning from the hurt to us and/or to others..
a child will think of ways to get what it wants, even if the cookies are placed on the top shelf, s/he will find a way to get a cookie.....and most of us adults give up to life's challenges way too easily..
a child learns/adapts to what s/he is taught quickly.....and most of us adults are too stubborn to learn from our mistakes or accept advices from others..
a child has pure love and intentions in its heart.....and most of us adults have hidden agendas..
a child knows not of sins.....and us adults bathe in sins..
a child is full of candor.....and us adults wear the mask of purity..
a child is full of innocence.....and most of us adults immerse ourselves in earthly pleasures, both wrong and right..
a child is happy of what life has to offer, like when a child smiles when s/he sees a bird and other things.....and us adults are never satisfied of what we have..
a child doesn't hate.....and us adults are full of it..
and so much more.........
no wonder we go back to being a child again, when we get old, it's the only form of purity God wants us in when we go to heaven..
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..Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you 
..) attitude..these are the people who can't handle tough situations..these are the people that don't have a care in the world..these are the people who only care about themselves..
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..they may be physically attracted to the man and like his character, of how the man is..and she's feeling that why can't she have him, so they either turn a blind eye or look the other way ..or for some, they would try to get the man for themselves, to get the man to leave whoever he is in a relationship with, be it a wife or a gf, and hope that the man would take her in..see how a woman can think of stealing a man from another woman?..
a child learning to walk does not care how many times s/he falls, s/he will get up over and over again to accomplish what s/he intends on learning......and us adults whine so much when we stumble and fall and sometimes takes most of us longer to get back up on our feet..
