IT'S ALL ABOUT..US. but mostly ME. it is usually about my own thoughts that i convey. my questions that need answers. who? and how? i am. my thinking on plain everyday living. my opinions. not that it matters, but i'm sharing it anyway. whether you like it or not.
i've been tagged a loner, growing up..must be because of my shyness..and i believe this is what got/gets me misunderstood most of the time..
maybe i can validate why i prefer to be alone, when needed..i need my space..it's when i can think things over, running everything every which way, in my mind, analyzing everything..i turn every stone that needs upturning, never leaving any stone unturn..taking things apart, then reassembling in every possible way..
i think a lot..i have to think twice, maybe more, to decide on things..for an example, for a guy, i window-shop/browse for a few times before i decide on whether i need to buy and if it's really necessary for me to acquire what it is i'm trying to get..patience?..or..apprehensive!..
it must be because of how i went through my teen years..to rid of the shyness, i went way too bold and daring back then, and stumbled a few times..it's probably what refrains me from rushing to things now..i'm more at ease when i do it this way now though, don't want that sorry/guilt feeling afterwards, if i make a mistake..when i take my time, even if i blunder, i don't feel much self-censure for my actions for i know i've looked at all the possibilities there are..
it may take awhile but hey, when it's over, it's really a big sigh of relief and like i said, less blaming when things fall apart but that doesn't happen all the time, just once in a while..hehehe..it's how i make peace with myself..
