..IT'S ALL ABOUT..US. but mostly me. it's usually about my own thoughts that i convey, my questions that need answers. who and how i am. my opinions, my thinking on plain everyday living. not that it matters, but i'm sharing it anyway. whether you like it or not.
i really just wanted to comment on mebella's post but my comment would be way too long, i think... so i thought, i'll just blog about it...
TO ME, love doesn't really have to be romantic. the showering of love, the romantic moments..this romanticism, is just the icing on the cake....if that's how my future holds for me, a romantic type, fine by me..i just hope she doesn't hold this against me..hehe.
true love is the SILENT sweet rage that lives in our hearts..it's how i truly believe true love should play its part in our lives, in the partnership..but this is just me..you have your own take about it.
TO ME, TRUE LOVE: is not the shouting to the world that you love him/her, it's accepting him/her for all his/her faults.
it's not the flowers and the chocolates for every anniversaries, it's the trust in him/her, say; that she keeps the house in order/that he provides for the household..the trust within..but just in case something happens, it's the helping each other out, no questions asked..no pointing fingers.
it's not the insensitivity to romantic moments, it's the thinking beyond that, not just the moments..thinking of what the future holds and what you will bring..thinking ahead, that everything, everyone, will be fine for always.
it's not the lack of attention you give to your love one..it's the unfaltering attention to every detail..even the teeny bitty ones, that couples tend to overlook..making sure that everything falls into its right place, always.
it's not by words, saying i love you often, but by the actions that goes unnotice...say, giving way to her stubbornness, for one..even when it's an impossible task....you just make things work out.
it's the unwavering support, no matter what..not the ridiculing, blaming your partner of a mistake..it's being supportive, being behind him/her, backing him/her up all the way, especially during those times.
being dull in love, doesn't mean that you are not in love anymore, that the love has died. that you are just forcing yourself to live with your partner..just merely living along with him/her for the sake of?..this is somewhat true with people that have been married for years, just because by culture, it's the right thing to do.
but i agree, we tend to associate love with the show of affection..that is why love can so easily be misunderstood..communication is good, but loving is believing..when you stop believing, you stop loving..i should know..by what experience has taught me...
so, do you prefer showy or silent..again, another risk we have to take..just make sure you don't take it by it's face value..it's not always the way it seems..not all are the showy kind so, don't mistake not being showy for not loving/caring about you..
that is really a nice story to share with everyone, mebella..thank you...
i've been glued to the t.v., watching the olympics..every 4 years..a long time to wait to watch a global sporting event..
i rarely watch football, not into baseball, the sacramento kings stinks, again....so i rarely watch the nba now..
and besides, these are the kind of sports i love to watch; track and field, swimming, valedrome cycling, just became a women's beach volleyball fan....
just want to say bear with me, to those who posted on my blogs, sorry for not having replied..i'll get to them soon......
i want to talk about love and God..you can't blame me....GOD IS EVERYWHERE, IN ANYTHING and so is love, LOVE IS EVERYWHERE, IN ANYTHING..like: love clothes, love to eat, love to dance, love to be with friends, and so on and so forth..even hate..when you are hating, you love to hate..see what i mean?....
anyway, if love is such, why is it that a lot still don't know how to love?....if we are constantly loving, why so many broken hearts?..why people lose love?..
it's people's nature..people tend to be feebleminded, weak..
do you agree with me when i say that people are naturally weak?..bear with me..sometimes i question religion..i believe in God, don't get me wrong..it's just that, if there is a God, as we know, shouldn't we all be happy, always?..no miseries, no problems, none, whatsoever?..
people say, in God's time..God has a plan for us..God is good, God will show us the way..God has a special place for us..a lot of phrases being thrown out there, about God and God's mysterious ways..
you're probably thinking already..MY GOD, HE IS DOUBTING..but don't we all, every now and then, when a problem to much to bear befalls us, when we are overcome with miseries?..we doubt..
think real hard..when we have a problem without any easy solution, we dig deep..we look for ways to overcome, to find an answer..then you hear people say, God made me realize how to overcome..don't you sometimes ever thought that you actually made that happen?..you racked your brains out, to come up with ways to deal with the situation?....hmmm..
again, when something happens in your life, people say, it's God's plan..God want's you to realize and learn from mistakes, to be a better and stronger person..
say for instance, in a relationship, maybe your partner broke off with you because he/she feels unattended..but, we say, God knows better, God has someone much better for us..think!..if you have always put your partner ahead of anything in your life, would he/she feel so much appreciated that he/she keeps loving you?..and not yet mentioning all the distractions in this world, flesh, vices and all..
what do you think?..God is Love, Love is God..i think, we make everything happen in this world..problems arise because we make them happen..
ie..say for people that gamble..some even bet their rent money, food money, and when they lose, there's the problem..then he thinks for ways to cope..he asks for a pay advance, borrow money..he's able to pay rent, buy food..the next problem is repaying the debts incurred..he tightens belt/budget wisely, to squeeze out money to repay the debt..then he realizes that only if he stops gambling, he'd have an easier life to deal with..
would you say, God made this person realize that he needs to stop gambling..that God showed him the way..you say, not that kind..God does not work in petty stuff..God makes miracles, in our lives..then i'd say, i thought, God knows no boundaries....
my ending thought..i say again, i think we make, control everything that happens in our lives..it can be because of bad judgements, bad ideas, wrong thoughts, lack of actions, etc, etc...our own doings..so if we lost someone we love, it's because we, or our partners, stopped/lost the love..and if something good happens, it's because we dealt with the situation....
i better end this here..i'm just rambling at this point..hehehe..this is a never-ending argument..it'll just keep going back and forth, it never ends....
it's time....i think, to come out clean..that i be true..to everyone, and most especially, myself..
it's so easy to be who you dream to be, here ..you can make up that person just by the stroke, er, the pressing of the keyboard keys..
it's living your fantasy, in this fantasy world called, the internet..it's living the way you think how you should be, not how you really are..
how could you miss?..nobody knows you, the real you..and, would you even feel the sting?, if this enigmatic persona you have created of yourself happens to be found out..of course not..you are untouchable, unreachable, too far removed from everyone..why you had the nerve to create your almost perfect personality in the first place..
but, are you really happy?..when you portray yourself as this "prince/princess"?..can you fulfill your purpose?..is/are your want/s, satisfied?..can you acquire what it is you set your mind to attain?..to be loved?..
i and i alone made this commitment to showcase myself as this ever so glorified individual, thinking that by doing so, i'd acquire every wishes i've longed for all my life..but now, it turned itself against me..i'm feeling the pressure..i feel that if i dig myself any deeper than this shithole i'm in now, would certainly end my existence..whether, in reality, i'm not such a bad guy after all..
therefore, i have concluded that all these foolishness should end..i want to be real, the ME, that everyone should know, not the "prince" i made everyone to believe..and i believe that to be true, i must reveal ME, for who i really am..
I'M NOW POSTING MY REAL PHOTO, i just cannot keep living a lie anymore..i just hope people will accept me, for who i really am....
Elz..peace....(eb1209's blog: Not Everyone).."everybody who blogs, wants to be POPULAR...Although some maybe driven by the desire to be famous, irregardless of the kind of blogs they make..these bloggers are who post more than one each day"..
i want to see if i'll be a popular blogger with this third post....
don't blame Elz..this is a revised version of her blog..if it infuriates you, blame me....wait, on second thought, blame her....she put the idea in my head....
i agree, and at the same time i disagree...
quoting these bloggers, i disagree..hehehe: ..i blog to de-stress ... i blog to lessen my pain ... i blog to show my love ... i blog to divert my attention ... i blog to hide what i fear ... i blog to let myself believe that i am strong ... i blog to let people know that i am hurt and they should feel that they are not the only ones experiencing the hurt ... i blog when i am ... i blog for people to see my pix and my big (__!__).. .. 'twas my ex-bf who taught me how to blog. he said,,," just express your feeling don't bother about what others may say about what you post. be yourself and feel at ease in every post you made,,," and from that day blogging is my fav daily routine i can't start my day without checking my blogs,,,even now popularity is good but it sometime takes you into trouble,,,,, hello there Elz,,its really so nice to read your entry..GBU ..elz...just blog away...blogging to be popular as the goal is not that bad...i would say that blogging to tarnish a reputation, to hurt someone , or to destroy someone is the worst... ..<< already on top on the other site ....but she's here coz she want to try another place, another people how they write, how they post comments and how they behave ... ops what else ...hmm i forgot coz phone is ringing again..be back..promise .. take care and thank you for welcoming me here.. ..blogging is an expression of how you feel, how you think and how you ideate....where does popularity fill in?....when you feel you have contributed an outstanding achievement in writing and people gives that particular accomplishment, an accolade...their kind of recognition, somehow gives you the feeling that you are gathering popular votes...but do you do that intentional really? only those hungry for recognition would go saying, "aye.".. ..I blog because I do not have someone to talk with in my home, I want to maximize my internet payment and It is better than literally talking to myself here in my place...dont want to change my name to "sisa".. ..I've been already to Top No.1 before so i don't want to become again. and i don't need any popularity as you called it. I just want to rock my world... ..sistah...you will become the top blogger once you've got tremendous comment.....and kung marami nag visit sa blog mo... well, because marami kang friends now.... i remember my time noong ako ang top blogger at top poster...standard member lang ako noon...pero wala credits.. ..I didn't even realized that there is popularity game in this blogville. I enjoy reading and responding to some of the post that I'm interested in, and of course gaining friends even through the net only, I love reading your blogs Elz.. ..I blog cause...i want to I found mystery friends in bloggin in... Most of the time i blog when am feeling down,nd dont want everybody around me feel that,so i blog cause it reminds me the "real ME" ..NO INTENSION TO BE POPULAR...I AGREE WITH ,SIS TRISH...IT'S NOTHING BUT TROUBLE.. ..Hmmmm.... gusto mo bang malaman ang secret ko kung papano?.. ..i blog to vent. . Never want to become famous here. . you're very famous here. . hahahaha. . care to share how did you get to this status?.. ..I liken it to relationships with men... I can only handle ONE. I can only handle one profile too. Thankfully, I haven't had the need to change since I joined FFF. The one and only same name.
OMG..over 100 comments on this blog..but with this individual's comment, i totally agree with..hehehe..and quoting: ..i blog because i want to be popular........
what nerve this last one has ha!!..i wonder who made that post....
that's for you to find out....hope you had fun....
ME......don't have a clue as to what my subject is about..i just need to talk..my blogging is my way of talking..reaching out to someone....
they say it's impolite to talk about someone/others..but where's the fun if we don't....talking about oneself gets boring..people sometimes gets the notion that what you do when you talk about yourself is just bragging..that you are self-centered....besides, there's no juice when you talk about yourself, not like when it's about the others....that's why people pay more attention to gossips than one's achievements....isn't this true?..c'mon, don't be saints now..
but if you say malicious things about yourself now(not that you will....), i bet everyone will be all ears..it's just how life is, i guess....look at the movies, especially filipino movies, it's always the older ladies that are church-going devouts that always have something juicy(gossips..not the fff member by the handle..juicy, peace....)to talk about, like the neighbor, the one that just moved in..aren't i right?....
it's the same thing here, much more, i'm afraid, than in the pinas..and you think that the westerners are the progressive ones....there are more gossipmongers, backstabbers, and the likes, here than in pinas..oh, and more crimes here, much more heinous, than in pinas..you don't believe me?..better believe it....
the only thing i like about living here are the opportunities, they abound..and when you work, you can afford to eat what rich people eat, most of them anyway....how i hope pinas is such a country like this, rich and advance..i like living in pinas better..it's a calmer place to be in..just my thoughts..there, i talked about myself..i am being polite....
when i was a kid, i always dreamt about me, wearing a coat and a tie, going to work..and so i thought, wow!, maybe i'll be a big shot exec. in a big shot company..wrong!!!....
since my very first job, i've always worn a uniform....if i want to, i can apply for a supervisory job at this job am in now, then i'll be wearing a tie when i go to work..but i will not do that....of all the places i've worked at, this place is the only place i know where these (supervisory)people don't get any respect....
this org. i work for promotes from within..so the people that becomes management are former trade workers like me..want to know a trade secret?..most of the people that apply for these jobs are the laziest workers you can find....but as soon as they become management, they say that they were the "super workers" when they were still doing the trade..what a bunch of bull....let me ask you, would you have respect for them if you knew how they were?....i thought so..
how about the money?, you say?..we, the trade workers actually can make more than them, if we work all the overtime we can get, coz' we get paid by the hour....money or not, i just don't want to be an asshole like how most of them are, it's just not me....
besides, i like what i do..after spending a few hours in the office preparing what i have to deliver for the day, spending some time dealing with an asshole, er, supervisor, for how many hours i'll need for delivery(this is the part of the job that you get stressed, dealing with them....), the rest of my day is spent outdoors, by myself..when i've gone out, i get to enjoy the rest of my day..i get to walk, for my exercise, i get to see and talk to people on my route sometimes, no bosses, with those prying eyes....you just have to deal with the seasons, ie., the heat of summer, the rains of winter, the dogs....i'd rather these than being cooped up in the office....
as to my dreams when i was a kid, i should have stayed in school..if i had, maybe i'm that big shot exec. now....it's all good though..i'm happy at the state am in now..plus i get a pension when i retire and i think that will be enough when i retire in the pinas....yes, i want to return to pinas when i retire....i'll wear my coat and tie then....just kidding..
..Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you You have made me what I am and I am yours My love, there's so many ways I want to say I love you Let me hold you in my arms forever more..(Kenny Rogers' Lady)
..All my life, without a doubt I give you All my life, now and forever till the Day I die, you and I will share..(America's All My Life)
..After you go I can catch up on my readin' After you go I'll have a lot more time to sleepin' And when you're gone looks like things Are gonna be a lot easier Life will be a breeze you know I really should be glad .....But I'm bluer than blue Sadder than sad You're the only light This empty room has ever had Life without you is gonna be Bluer than blue..(Michael Johnson's Bluer Than Blue)
..Everytime I think of you, I always catch my breath And I'm still standing here, and you're miles away And I'm wonderin' why you left And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight ..... I aint missing you at all Since you've been gone, away I aint missing you, no matter What I might say..(John Waite's Missing You)
..Photographs and memories All the love you gave to me Somehow it just cant be true That's all I have left of you .....But we sure had a good time When we started way back when Morning walks and bedroom talks Oh how I loved you then..(Jim Croce's Photographs and Memories)
..So you try Try to stay in the middle And then you cry Well you cry just a little Then you both realize Just how foolish you've been And you try to make amends But you're better off as friends .....That's how much I feel Feel for you, baby How much I need I need your touch How much I live I live for your loving Well that's how much, that's how much That's how much, that's how much..(Ambrosia's How Much I Feel)
..Light of the world, shine on me Love is the answer Shine on us all Set us free Love is the answer..(England Dan & John Ford Coley's Love Is The Answer)
..Love, look what you've done to me Never thought I'd fall again so easily Oh, love, you wouldn't lie to me Leading me to feel this way..[/B](Boz Scaggs' Look What You've Done To Me)
..My love,I'll never find the words my love, to tell you how I feel my love. Mere words, could not explain. .....God bless you, you make me feel brand new, for God bless me with you, you make me feel brand new, I sing this song 'cause you, make me feel brand new..(Stylistics' You Make Me Feel Brand New)
i just felt like singing....i hope you enjoyed my love story timeline, done through a series of songs..hopefully, my next timeline will be on a more cheerful note....
don't be bitter..ONLY IN FORGIVING, WILL WE FORGET..
i read this a lot..and i agree, wholeheartedly....but my nature dictates otherwise....am a scorpion and if you look up its profile, you'll know why..hehehe..
am i possessive?..i hate to admit, but i think i am....not chokingly possessive though..i let my partner do freely whatever she wishes, just feel that my partner should know the extent, the boundaries, of every actions she partakes in..
am i passionate?..i think i am..i pour myself to whatever it is i'm dealing with..i never settle for a compromise, it has to be in black and white..i accept my inadequacies, my faults..i'm not one that never gives in..it's funny/scary how i always give in..to me, everything should be structured because i'll never fully understand if it's not, and it'll be chaotic....
am i secretive?..very much so....i keep to myself things that can be hurtful to others..things that i alone should know about..wow!, what a guy....am not..i do tell, constructive things and i do speak my mind too, when necessary..but i rather hurt in secret, as it has always been..that's why i'm so good at it now....
and so on..a scorpion's profile is pretty much dead on about me..why i wonder how these people gathered all these characters and traits, must really have taken them awhile....just thought i'd give you an insight about me, a thing or two, so you'll understand why this post..
going back to forgiving, i can easily forgive..am a very forgiving person..as a matter of fact, i try not to let things bother me, a lot of things i can tolerate, but there are things that you can't ignore..with this said, when a "biggie" hits me and i can no longer ignore/endure, what do i do?..
an earlier post(my patience..is a virtue of insanity)tells it..if you have done me wrong in a way that i cannot endure, and God knows it rarely happens..turning my back on you is my way of forgiving..and not looking back, taking you out of my existence, is my way of forgetting..it's the only way i can forgive and forget when you truly hurt me..it's all i know how..this is my way of easing the pain....
i guess we will never really know why things happen..we can only be sure of just ourselves when in a relationship..
let our trust, faith, hope, nurturing, work its wonders..that it bonds both to hold each other sooo dear that just the mere thought of doing the unthinkable brings disgusts to one's being....does being disgusted with oneself stop the act?....
all we can do is to have faith..that our partner will forever be faithful, for we can only be sure of our own faith..
and in trusting..hope that we have placed our trust on the right person, for it is only our trust that we are sure about..
and in hoping..that all we pour into the relationship, is enough to sustain it, for it is only our support that we are sure of..
for we can do all it takes to nourish a relationship, and still wonder what the other person is concocting in his/her mind..for it is just ourselves that we are really sure about..
scary, isn't it?...heck, life is a gamble, and so is love....
. it's usually about my own thoughts that i convey, my questions that need answers. who and how i am. my opinions, my thinking on plain everyday living
, but i'm sharing it anyway. whether you like it or not
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..Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you 
