De Ja Vu...
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Posted:Aug 1, 2012 5:48 am
Last Updated:Aug 13, 2012 11:17 am 29752 Views
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What happen yesterday triggered a feeling of long ago. Where i had been heart broken and lost a job. This time it was the same thing. Correlating to one another. I'm still in a state of shock! Still hasn't set in. Delayed emotion of crying my eyes out. After 12yrs in that job. Finally let go. I felt like giving my money away, imagine out of work and donating simply amazing and going to church to pray for guidance. Time to start over. This is like a sequel to my Karma blog. Really feel like i'm the one that got hit??? Anyways, life goes on. God bless everyone...
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Karma...
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Posted:Jul 27, 2012 9:18 pm
Last Updated:Aug 11, 2012 11:18 pm 30114 Views
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Don't you ever wished that sometimes bad things would happen to people that hurt you so bad in life??? That's what i really feel tonight. But, instead i had him prayed in the Mother of Perpetual Help before his birthday. I was so fast in forgiving him and still love him. Love is a mystery. Time and again chose the love of his life. Why did i love him so much??? Really beats me, i think he put a love spell over me. I just don't know. Went head over heels to help. Didn't want anything in return but love. Which he could never give me. For finding out the lies and cheating. And the nerve to turn it all around that it was my fault. I have to give him an applause for that. Because really made me feel so stupid. I really want to hate this person, but i can't. In a short while he made me laugh. So, in the end if Karma doesn't chase him...only God will be the last judgement.
Happy weekend everyone!!! 
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Fear...
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Posted:Jul 25, 2012 2:05 am
Last Updated:Aug 1, 2012 7:14 am 29590 Views
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One day in your life you remember all the good and bad things in your journey. What to keep and throw away. The fear that top all fears was the same de ja vu for me again. Literally, sleeping with the enemy. Like never really learning from the first time it happen and now repeat again. Believing someone to be good and the evil came out. Opening a can of worms or Pandora's box. First time around it was to stay no matter what to the vows made in church. This time there was no commitments at all, can walk out any time. Only problem is emotions were at stake. For ladies you give your all heart, body, and soul. Unfortunately, it's never quite returned and goes to someone else. Which brings up the idea of birds of a feather flock together. Loving someone that is a loser, and realizing woah you are one too??? Love is a big mystery. Why do we fall in love with whomever our hearts falls for. Love is whimsical. One moment you're so happy the next sad as hell. Lastly, love is the most important factor in this entire universe. Without love one just dies. Love is like water...giving you that electricity to live. Admiration goes to all the couples that stayed together til the end of time. Because the journey was well worth it. Will fear ever stop you from loving again. Answer is no. In love there is no fear...
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heart choosing to love..
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Posted:Jul 17, 2012 2:21 am
Last Updated:Jul 27, 2012 6:56 am 29630 Views
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It would be so easy to choose all the time to whom we fall in love with. Destiny or Fate gets in the way, or even Cupid. Hits that arrow to someone you never would dream of loving. In the real world there are so many kind of relationships. Each time you wonder after it's over "what in the world was i thinking of"??? You remember the nice things that put that smile in your face. We can't help who we fall in love with. If there was such a miracle pill. That would make you better after a break up. That would sell millions. The fact or truth of the matter is when you suffer from the break up. Takes years to heal. Some become zombies not to feel ever again. Not wanting to ever trust another soul again ever. Everyone wishes for that one true love or soul mate. What if there are no such thing. Would you just brush it aside and never think of it again? After all this time you prayed to God for that special someone. Who never comes? Would you just die and role over. Love is still the most profound emotion bestowed upon any humans. It can move mountains. Miracle in progress. Why so many will do anything in the name of love...
Happy Tuesday everyone
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Trials...
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Posted:Jul 7, 2012 12:20 pm
Last Updated:Jul 15, 2012 7:47 pm 29365 Views
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It's been 14yrs now since the divorce. Along the way met some trials of love. And always, the ending left a bitter and regrets in my heart. No never wanting revenge, just praying for them. That thankful they all thought me a lesson. This last one really scared the hell out of me and today was the anniversary he posted on FB, w/ a gun in his pocket. Now, he deleted it and his bday is today. Deep inside i wanna wish him a happy bday. Part of me wants to stay far away as possible. Am i crazy in love or just possessed??? I don't know anymore of love and it's mysteries. Why i would even care if of his well being, after the threats. It made me realize that something is definitely wrong with me. Still wanting to love someone that could do harm to me? It reminded me of my marriage. And the fact that they are born on the year of the Rat. Fear has definitely paralized me in trusting another male. And to live a life alone...
Happy weekend everyone
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Happy 4th of July!!!
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Posted:Jul 4, 2012 5:42 am
Last Updated:Jul 6, 2012 9:29 pm 29815 Views
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Happy 4th of July everyone!!! What is the meaning of being free. And the men/women who served our country to make it so. Fighting the wars. We should be ever so thankful for each and everyone of the unsung heroes who gave up their life for us to have this freedom. The United States is truly the land of opportunity. Unlike, any other country in the world. Here if one works hard and dedicated to persevere even with so many obstacle and belief in God will make their dream come true. Be safe and enjoy God bless everyone!!!  
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Stages...
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Posted:Jun 23, 2012 9:51 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2012 4:14 am 30219 Views
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In life one goes through being happy or sad. Free and jailed. Anger and forgiveness. It's been 3 weeks trying to stay away from things i love doing commenting/posting here and the other site. Because fear has captivated my heart not to connect. Wanting to run away from it all. Losing the love that i for one thought was real. Unfortunately, it was false-fake. Time and again used and betrayed. The urge of wanting to help. Got my life endangered by the one person i thought i loved. All a lie. Love does not exist for me anymore. Luckily, from this experience i truly found out the real friends that would stand by me and pray. Thanks for all of them, God truly sent angels in my hour of darkness.
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Losers at love...
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Posted:Jun 10, 2012 5:12 am
Last Updated:Jul 1, 2012 11:28 pm 29799 Views
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In life when one falls in love and heartbroken. One is shattered for life. Nothing can ever glue the broken pieces together again. One should never welcome love ever. Alone forever is the best remedy. In my journey the greatest lesson for me to learn was to not keep holding on and fight for the love. Always a one way street. I fall madly in love and they leave. Attracting the wrong man is a waste of time and energy. Truly waste of time. Learned that it's a sin to keep them, because of their freedom. Never find ur happiness in anyone but inside of you. God is truly the epitome of that one true love, to give up his life for everyone.
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U take my breath away...
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Posted:Jun 6, 2012 12:46 am
Last Updated:Jun 24, 2012 8:50 am 29895 Views
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After work came home and went straight to the movies to see Piolo Pascual and Angelica Panagiban. She's truly amazing comedian. And Piolo woah the muscles and smile gets me every time. The movie was all about signs. Does everyone follow the signs in life. I only know it when something is over. Like the sign my phone got stolen in church coz i deleted that one text from this person. In life you do come to a point to give up trying and just let it go already. The movie made me laugh and cry. Because Majoy believe in all the sign she got. Roses, rain, and bells ringing and angels singing. And to fight for that love. Which Ji Sun played by Ryan. Love is what everyone wants to feel in this world. To be accepted for their entire being. To give love and recieve is the most important part of living. The downside is losing the love that one thing that came from God. Because God is love...
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Never meant to be...
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Posted:Jun 3, 2012 11:26 am
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2012 12:25 pm 30648 Views
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In life, we go along so smoothly and never see it coming. All of a sudden we are hit by a ton of brick. I mean this guy is not pretty, most likely super ugly to the bones!!! Because his heart was ugly to begin with. He went along in life getting what he can from every girl. He had a sappy love life, because the one he truly loved betrayed him. I saw the goodness within. The outer facial scary features didn't deter me from coming closer. I had cut the ties and yet got too close for comfort. Why it hurt so much was the sign i had gotten in church. Yet, had given another chance til i finally found the truth. Yes, it's painful. Just move on and go. The thing is he never has a conscience to begin with. He doesn't think his hurting everyone and thinking his very good at what he does??? Another lesson in life.
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