It is an attempt to explore, pour my soul, free my spirit and squeeze my heart, to highlight brotherhood of man, and to purify true love, the common human language for all! [/I]
She walk the difficult roads to take. she doesn't look backward! she does not look into eyes watching her! is it self-confidence, or hidden fear of her weak personality?! when you want to talk to her, she just leave you and walk! when is all alone, she start to talk! when she is among the crowd she laugh. yet appears careless, and behave tough! when she is within her loneliness she cry! can't stop her tears, no matter how often she try! She knows how much her beauty is desired. and she knows her desires long ago were fired! they were killed with no mercy! they were buried in the old forgotten cave, where memories were buried but never dead! She sits on the sand and draw with deaf words, she tries to bite the stones, she cries deep in her bones, she scream... try to redeem... bury her head in the sand, lift up her hand, her sky is just a black cloud, and her land is no more a land! how much a woman can suffer, live all her life just to offer, yet, no one seems to understand, No one may even try to understand!
The Egyptians are again struggling for a piece of bread! some are poor, some have money, but the government couldn't provide people with bread, even when used the army bakeries to produce more bread to Egyptian people! The sad story and worst example of it, when a man went to bring some bread for his kids, and after standing for hours waiting for his turn, he got nothing! Eventually the guy went to the nearest shop and bought some spaghetti and walked back home. he told his wife that spaghetti all what he could get for the kids! When his wife cooked the spaghetti and almost finished, he went secretly to the kitchen, and added some poison stuff to the meal! few minutes later, the mother and all kids were dead and the father was taken to the hospital with the rest of the family but was still alive! He was screaming at the doctors because they saved his life after all his family is gone to heaven!
Yes, I am one of those who kept wondering where you were, and how you are, Pamela! Now that you said you are ok, I am pleased to know that! One of the benefits of FFF, that we make good friends, far from any personal interest! to love people who are kind, nice, sincere and faithful! Friendship is base of every thing in human relationships! therefore, we do value and thank God for the friends we gain in our lives! and yes, you are one of the unforgettable friends Pamela! I am very happy to know you are doing fine, and pray to God to be with you all the way through!
Sometimes we feel our hearts dancing for a sweet word! Sometimes we feel our hearts melting for a kind word! Sometimes we feel our hearts bleeding for a hurting tough word! Sometimes we feel we own the world knowing that someone thinks of us! Sometimes we feel in heaven, knowing that someone cares for us! Sometimes we feel so down, fearing that someone has neglected us! Sometimes, just a smile, can cure our deep wounds! And ALL the times, we need to feel we are not all alone! Isn't that the human nature?! It cost us nothing to remember our good friends and greet them from time to time! we just don't know the power of our words, and how can they change not only the mode of someone, but, may be his/her entire life!
Love her, as she never were loved before.. Kiss her, as her lips never were touched before.. Hug her, as she never felt a lover warmth before... Reassure her, she wont be alone any more.. Tell her you think of her, and she is the one you adore.. Surprise her, even with little things... Only then she feels occupying your heart core! Women have their little things, that we men never try to explore! Women don't need the sun in one hand and the moon in the other one... but an endlessly loving heart, and a little bit more! Women likes flowery words, but they also need to be secure!
March...this month was somehow a calm for me! not much of blogs! but i was reading my friends posts and comments! I mean I was not totally taken from the atmosphere! March, the month when spring starts here in this part of the world, all my flowers are blooming!! March..the sky has been and still so clear! If i were still lonely, I could count all the stars the kept chasing my privacy even when I had no private life!! March...the month that my friends left me over 130 comment with their replies to show how happy they are for me, that I found a loving heart at last! March...the month that really has created a stability in my life that i never experienced before, and a purity of my soul that i waited for with big hope, and it is blooming now!! No wonder, because the first of March, witnessed the moment the my eyes saw the light fifty years ago! Therefore, allow me to call it my MONTH!
This is my blog number 100! And with this blog, I would like to tell all my friends, that I was so bleesed and lucky to find my soulmate and love of my life, after a five years of search on FFF. I am proudly announcing and making my confession of love for my sweetheart.............PetitCheri! Praying to God to enable me to keep her happy, and fill her heart with joy and love, endlessly! from now on, her happiness is my main target, and being in love with her, is my utmost priority!
Yes! It is my birthday! the first of March! and this is not any birthday! it is my fiftieth birthday! my Golden birthday!Half a century has already past, on this Bedouin boy who left his sheep in the middle of the desert, where he couldn't even find some water to drink not to fancy a bath! how can one enjoy a bath or even dream of a shower in a small tent full of holes and covering 14 kids from the burning sun?! !!! yes, that was the start when I opened my eyes to this realm for the first time in my life! it is like a dream no one would believe it but i still and will always remember! that childhood never was a velvet one as some might imagine! but the incredible kid rejected that regular life style, and lead a revolutionary life style, where he went to school on his own responsibility, when he was considered lost from the big family! not only a regular public school but he decided later on to admit himself to the best christian private English school in Jordan where he amazed his British teachers who loved him and supported him a lot! still life never was easy! had to start work at the age of fifteen beside school, and soon said to him self, where is this England where my exams come from and my teachers belong to? soon on his first summer holiday, he was invading the civilization of the west! not only to England but to Switzerland where he decided to learn some French besides his English and Arabic! on my golden birthday, I do remember some major people who made a big change in my life! my mother who kept crying and supporting me since i was a kid of 6 years old when I lost my father! my elementary teacher Mr. Muhammad Abdel Haey of Amman, My English great teacher Mr. Rust! My friend in Natalie in South end / England! My adopting mother Mrs. Schweitzer in Meilen / Zurich in Switzerland, My doctor Prof. Scheier who operated on my when I was almost dying and changed my life completely! my friend Frau Kreyenbuhl of Zurich who said, Suleiman I will make a great man of you one day! late King Faisal of Saudi Arabia for supporting my higher education in Jordan! Late King Hussein of Jordan who supported my studies in Geneva! my best friend Khalid Al-Enazy of Saudi Arabia! I can go on with the list.... I only hope my good friends and those noble people who really made a big change in my life in so many ways, would forgive me for not listing all their names! my Rusty Brain still got a lot of them in spite of the fifty years! Without you my friends, I wouldn't be what I am now! thanks God who gave me the fifty years and still! thanks God who loved me so much and was with me step by step during this hard journey! a lot of thanks to my mother who taught my how to love and be loved! lots of thanks to all my friends, and most especially FFF friends, who are always with me, and always care for me, accept me they naughty way, i am, the crazy way, i am, the romantic way I am, the flirty way I am, the boring decent way, I am! and accepted all colors of my mode! half a century, and yet i am full of love! love to all kids on earth, love to all the lonely ones, love to all the less fortunate ones! love for all the left out ones! love for all the charming ones, love for all the lovely ones! and I do apologize for those whom I might have hurt without me knowing or not intentionally! I hate no one and never known this ugly feeling of hate!! simply because I am still Just a mass of love!
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Now that you said you are ok, I am pleased to know that! One of the benefits of FFF, that we make good friends, far from any personal interest! to love people who are kind, nice, sincere and faithful! Friendship is base of every thing in human relationships!
my Golden birthday!
how can one enjoy a bath or even dream of a shower in a small tent full of holes and covering 14 kids from the burning sun?!
not only a regular public school but he decided later on to admit himself to the best christian private English school in Jordan where he amazed his British teachers who loved him and supported him a lot! still life never was easy! had to start work at the age of fifteen beside school, and soon said to him self, where is this England where my exams come from and my teachers belong to? soon on his first summer holiday, he was invading the civilization of the west! 
not only to England but to Switzerland where he decided to learn some French besides his English and Arabic! on my golden birthday, I do remember some major people who made a big change in my life!
my elementary teacher Mr. Muhammad Abdel Haey of Amman, My English great teacher Mr. Rust! My friend in Natalie in South end / England! My adopting mother Mrs. Schweitzer in Meilen / Zurich in Switzerland, My doctor Prof. Scheier who operated on my when I was almost dying and changed my life completely! my friend Frau Kreyenbuhl of Zurich who said, Suleiman I will make a great man of you one day! late King Faisal of Saudi Arabia for supporting my higher education in Jordan! Late King Hussein of Jordan who supported my studies in Geneva! my best friend Khalid Al-Enazy of Saudi Arabia! I can go on with the list.... I only hope my good friends and those noble people who really made a big change in my life in so many ways, would forgive me for not listing all their names! my Rusty Brain still got a lot of them in spite of the fifty years! Without you my friends, I wouldn't be what I am now!
