Imagination: Is It A Sign Of Sickness? Jan 28, 2006 4:38 am Mood: bored, 1092 Views We may set every day in a cetain corner, and start imagining instead of thinking, or let our imagination, leads our thoughts! and we start wondering! about every thing even our reality! Who am I? Is this me? is this what i want? Or are my thoughts imported from someone else? are they from my education, or from my point of view formed by my education? my circonstances ,if i were born in another country and had another parents who would i be the same person who has the same thoughts? Would i be the same, in origion regarding all aspects of my life? are we so taken by our imagination that is leaving us blind behind our reality? is it the negative spot in our lives that we spend most of it just imagining instead of being real and going to real things? do we let the world of Fantasy, overcome our lives, until we reach a certain point that we believe the unreal and run away from the real people or things in our lives? eventually; are we sick in doing so? do we need to be healed from the negative affect of our imaginations? What do experts say about that?: A man does not see the real world. The real world is hidden from him by the wall of imagination. Each center has its own form of imagination. George Gurdjieff People are asleep and dream they are awake. Imagination is always ready to work in us and deceive us. When self-remembering appears, it is immediately squashed [by imagination]. Peter Ouspensky One thing that completely satisfies the machine is imagination. However, it does not satisfy the higher centers; imagination is repugnant to them. All the actions of the intellectual part of the instinctive center are aimed at luring one away from the present into imagination. Robert Earl Burton Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. Buddha Do not wander; do not wander; remain mindful. Milarepa We are fond of our involuntary thoughts, and that is why they come. Philokalia; Evagrios the Solitary Keep practicing remembrance until the world of imagination is lifted from you. Ibn Arabi Know that the science of unveiling has no end to it. Ibn Ata Allah Stay away from the market bazaar of thought-traffic. Tear away thoughts and uncover consciousness. Unveil the beautiful bride. Rumi You have to evaluate how you spend every moment; with Presence or in Negligence. Shah Naqshband Anticipate trouble at every moment, and when it comes, encounter it as something expected. Philokalia; Theophan the Recluse I have gone out [of imagination]. I am alive! Journey Forth By Day (The Egyptian Book of The Dead) 0 Comments

A Song To The Moon Jan 26, 2006 12:22 pm Mood: infatuated, 1090 Views No wonder you are the sole... 'cause you are beyond comparison, Nothing but you, can lighten the darkness.. Nothing but you, can replace the sadness.. Nothing but you, can give different meaning to the shyness... No wonder you are the sole... 'cause you were the start blooming in my heart flowering my ground lightening my sky taking me so high above imaginations can go or fly 'cause you are beyond comparison! No wonder you are the sole... the story can't be told to all.. the secret is so small.. the consequence might be unbearable, unbelievable, horrible, but,you are the moon! you have your stages! you grow here and vanish there the nature of things! the secret is so small; My soul is melting in your soul! I can swallow your black rain, I can bear my heart pain, I can show the wind its vane, I can for you sain, and touch the face of the sky, and kiss the eyes of the spy, who would whisper, that my soul is melting in your soul! No wonder you are the sole,, you made me a poet, to sing for you, many readers, many listenrs, but, the fact is beyond the imagination of them all! 'cause you are the only fact in my life, as much as my faith in God, nothing to compare,, you are beyond comparison! Suleiman January 26th, 2006 1 comment

Priorities Jan 1, 2006 12:43 pm Mood: hopeful, 1073 Views Why do people come to FFF and become members of this site? The title of the site "Filipino Friend finder" might be very missleading. For the first moment, you get the impression that, it is a place where people who have interests in meeting filipinas! or a place where single filipinas can be approachable! after 3 years or more of being a member of this site, i came with the following conclusions for the differnet classification of FFF members: 1. Serious and true single males looking for Filipinas life partners. 2. Unhappy married single males, looking for love. 3. married and/or single males, looking for time being pleasure. Not serious in any aspect! 4. Single females looking ofr true and serious relationships. 5. Single and/or married females looking for pleasure. 6. Single and/or married femailes looking for a visa and/or work contract abroad. 7. Single/married females "young ones in particular" looking for giving online pleasure in order to get paid. 8. Corrupted girls "either needy or greedy" who would give all sort of reasons and execuses to push on you to western union them or even e-transfer them as soon as possible. Some of them are even professional in that. 9. Newly Russian girls invading the FFF marketing themselves for all purposes in rder to get paid thru professional agencies! 10. hopless people of both gender that are desprate for any miracle to creat a change in their boring lives. From the above mentioned classification, it is very hard to assume whether it is the real place to take someone serious here. and in order to avoid some innocent people to get deeply hurt or finanically fooled, I think one should; 1. not take this site members as real ones for a real relationship and committment. 2.Stop paying for any one met on this site because that even gets the outout of it worse. 3. in case one found a person whom u think is possibly promissing, take the first opportunity to meet on person, and never lose years after years of your life, sailing to no where! It is obvious that every one of this site members has his/her different priority, and it is more likely that there is no compromize in such priorites! Good luck to every body in his/her high real approach! 0 Comments

Wishes For 2006 Dec 29, 2005 4:22 am Mood: eager, 1127 Views The new year is approaching... a matter of days if not hours!! I have some wishes, or rather dreams... that I wish to be accomplished in 2006! Wish happiness for all the sad ones... prosperity for all unlucky ones.. Wish a small tiny nest, for all the homeless... four walls, to keep their privacy from eyes of the curious!! Wish some mercy of God, for the poor ones... not to be taken for the others sins... Wish some true love, for all broken hearts... not to keep bleeding for the harmful pasts... Wish some bread... for every starving kid... Wish some dignity... for every one belongs to our humanity... Wish some peace... to save the lives of every body without a face... Wish some sunshine... for every sould hidden in the darkness or jailed in yours or mine.. Wish some pride.. for all the neglected ones, or thoes put aside! Wish some equality... with appreciation for the quality... Wish a big title in life... brotherhood of man, is still alive! Suleiman december 2005 5 Comments

Wish You Were Here Dec 24, 2005 3:09 pm Mood: cheerful, 1085 Views "So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes from trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? How I wish, how I wish you were here We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. Wish you were here" P.S: "Wish you were here" is a song by The Pink Floyd, was produced in 1975, when i was still 17 years old, and still my favourite song! 2 Comments

Sexual Desires and Fighting to Survive Dec 24, 2005 2:21 pm Mood: disappointed, 1026 Views Is it true that the world is becoming one unity and human beings are becoming one family " brotherhood of man" ? Is it true that the economic growth worldwide and world prosperity is meant to be for all mankind? Is it true that some one in the north of the globe, while feeding his dog or cat, feels the pain that is squeezing an empty stomach of a starving child somewhere in the South? How often, we men, think of the circumstances that put a girl in a prostitution position, while we spot our sight on her physical beauty, feeling eager to jump over her weak body being driven by our sexual desires? man, that virginity is meant to be given as a wedding present to that guy who meant to be her other half, not for you sex starve, flying all over occasions and seas to see her suffer while bleeding for some minutes just in order to give her some of your hard currency! And as soon as you get rid of your sexual complex, you leave her bleeding, trembling, hopeless, lost, thrown on a dirty mattress that witnessed thousands and thousands of dirty people closing her had tight on that little money that you paid as a price of her humanity! You didn't thing what she needed that money for! Simply because you didn't ask.. you even don't bother to ask.. why should you?!! you paid the price, and that is it! What would you feel, if that tiny little girl told you she wanted the money buy the necessary food for her orphan brothers and sisters? What would you feel if that weak girl told you she needed the money badly to put her mother or father or both in a hospital for an urgent surgery? What would you feel if that girl told you that she is homeless and she dreams of having a tent under the sky like all other human beings or even equal to some lucky animals? Yes, exactly, that girl gave you the most precious thing, she has to fulfil a dream of being equal to your lucky dog! I often wonder, how many sad stories behind those innocent baby-faces smiling to you, in order to please you and make you feel they are worth your dirty money! And I often wonder whether the civilized world nowadays ended slavery indeed, or enlarged the market! I always do feel that our civilized world goes anti-clock wise. The dirty money is interfering in all aspects of our lives. There is a price for that beautiful full rounded breast! there is a price for that rosy beautiful lips! there is a price for that straight nice full figure! there is a price for for that silky beautiful hair! there is a price for that little foot with its toes which are waiting to be sucked by a sick wealthy man! and in all cases, we confiscate the beautiful simple dreams of that needy girl with our dirty money! That dirty money is buying everything. even the clean air we need badly to breath for a healthy life! I wish I were a painter, to show you how ugly the picture is! 0 Comments

Merry Christmas, Jennifer! Dec 20, 2005 3:37 am Mood: sad, 1092 Views Although my time is squeezed and hardly find time to visit friends, but I take the opportunity to visit "Jennifer" when ever possible! Yesterday, I visited her, spent a short time with her,,, While she was struggling to smile for me and mover her head slowly to the other side, when she wants to show shyness! Jennifer.. In the age of a blooming flower!! An innocent bird, singing forever!! Her body does not move at all.. But her face prettiar than a morning in Summer Her hands do not move, but touch the sky or upper her feet don't walk her, but take her to "HIS" arms ... or nearer!! Her senses are completely dead.. But her warm feelings enter your heart like thunder.. or even faster... That is Jennifer!!! For three months, she did not leave her bed... She is so much in love to "HIM" That not only gave "HIM" the body... but, the soul, the spirit, the heart, the brain, the power, the senses, the feelings,,, the whole!! Jennifer gave him the past, give him the future Gave him yesterday and every tomorrow to come! Because she loves "HIM" Because she has all her faith on "HIM" Because he is the one that visit her at night, When every body sleeps and forget her.. Because he kisses her forehead, when nobody there to talk to her... Because he make her feel, though she lost feelings... And he make her fly, even she doesn't even walk.. That is the relationship between the "LORD" and "Jennifer" P.S: Jennifer peres, is a 25 years old pinay, who came to work in Jordan, and her employer found out that she owns a cp, and tried to take it from her, when she refused, he thrown her from the third floor balcony, her back bones was broken and her spinal cord is broken, and can't move any of her limbs. except her head. for 3 months now she is in bed. left out with her only lover, the "LORD", that is all left for her! 3 Comments

To "Her" With My Appologies! Dec 4, 2005 2:27 am Mood: sad, 1014 Views Many times, I advise my friends that they should not commit mistakes that requires appologies at a later stage, or even seeking forgiveness! But, I came to realize that, sometimes we say or do things, driven by cetain cercumstanes, and not necessarily because we are indecent people! But, in all cases, i think we always need the courage to admit our faults and be brave to appologize! It wasn't my fault that the storm thundered heaveliy but, not rained.. It wasn't my attention to hide the rainbow behind the dark clouds.. It wasn't my aim to see you hearing only the echo of your voice.. You know how many times I spent all my nights romancing the moon waiting for you to come!! You know how serious I was in minimizing the distances between your heart and its beats.. You know how many times i lost my sense of time and location, just because you were there! You know, that my faith in God became greater, when i realized how much "he" put of his beauty, into the colours of your eyes.. You know that nothing nothing challenged my love to God, except my love to you.. You know that when i saw you, I didn't mind becoming blind, so that your image would be last in my eyes and brain.. You gave me the reward...lots of pain.. headache,, heartache,,sorrows,,sadness,, you even invented new kinds of harms! what a vain! I walked for you on the edge of your saber,,bleedingly, happily to reach you.. My blood made your red carpet to arrive safe.. I did not care whether sun rise from the east or west, as long we were hand-in-hand.. but.. You gone like fake a cloud of a hot summer day, and I remained waiting for the rain! Sulei Dece,4, 2005 0 Comments

Words On True Love! Dec 1, 2005 4:29 pm Mood: calm, 1071 Views It is not the 4 letterS L-O-V-E that meant with true love, but the feelings behind them! People often hurry to say the word "love" even prior to the true feeling of love, or at least before they are fully sure that their feelings of love is really ripe! I would only say that "I love you" if; I feel that you are all the women on earth to me. When I see that the colours of your eyes are prettier than the colours of the rainbow, no matter what are the real colours of your eyes! When I am fully sure that your velvet voice is the only one i want to hear each time i wake up and the last one i want to hear before I fall asleep. When your heart beats are the best rythem that make my day! When I can't eat if i am not sure that you haven't eaten, even if you were at the end of the world! When I feel all my body and organs hurting, if you are in pain! When I feel that all the roses on earth were planted just for you in every occaision, and every day of your life with me, is a Valentine's Day! When i care about your dignity, as much as I care for every thing related to you! When I relize that cheating you is cheating myself and cheating for all humanity! When I start understanding you, even without words, or phrases, but just by looking at you eyes and reading your face expressions! when i realize that as much as you are the reason to live for, you are the reason to die for too! when I feel you are nearer to me that my eyelash to my eyes and than my heart to its beats! only then, i can feel that i was born just for you! I am stronger than my feelings except when am with you, my feelings are always stronger than any thing else! I will be your candle in the rain.. I will be your joy when your life is sorrow and pain... when every thing around you vanish, I will always for you sustain.. and if you were left out when I pass away, I will be reborn for you again! Sulei Friday, Dece. 2nd 2005 3 Comments

Sailing Beyond The Limits Of My Mind Nov 30, 2005 12:48 pm Mood: intimate, 931 Views I found my self lately, using this title frequently. some friends ask me what i mean by that title, others, just show admiration! Since this is my first blog at FFF, i will start with this title. It is an attempt to explore the other face of reality, or the hidden image if you want to look at it that way! I think the worled never has been more conecctable as much as it is now aday. And Human beings never were able to be in direct connection as much as they are now. yet, many obsticles have arisen with this techno-revolution. mainly between people of the same nationality or between others from different nationalities. Therefore, i always wonder, did this techno-revolution served human kind or just complicated things even more. I notice that sometimes in the chat rooms. Amongest people of different races and tongues and cultures! In addtion to that, the various motivations of chatters and different goals of each. It is obvious that approaches are entirely different, though every one starts under the goal of "looking for his/her lost soulmate". I always wonder, how much truth is put in their?! how honest people are? what are the real goals of every one? Do people say and do in their private chat exactly what they say and do in the public chat? and if not, why? ....and there are always vitims!! who is the guilty one? and who is the innocent? are both parties corrupted in a way or another? do we do in our secrecy what makes us feel ashamed of in the public? ........ sex!! yes, sex, is the main topic, the main issue, the main goal, the main weapon, it is all going in the favourite of the sexual organs, in a way or another!! and the victim, is always the hearts of the innocent or naiive people! sometimes, u feel the revolution within you.. against every thing around you.. and u feel almost exploading... so, you decide to sail... so far, to the unknown,, to explore your reality, through exploring that misty strange person at the other part of the world! you may keep sailing to the unknown destination. you may find the image, but when u look at it, it looks to you like seeing yourself in a broken mirror that shows your bits and pieces.. and you may, scream and shout loud that you found it!! And, the reality is that you need to sail within your mind, soul and heart, before sailing beyond the limits of your mind! God bless you all. Sulei Nov, 30, 2005 1 comment

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