It is an attempt to explore, pour my soul, free my spirit and squeeze my heart, to highlight brotherhood of man, and to purify true love, the common human language for all! [/I]
looking backward, forward.. to the left to the right..
trying to recognize the place trying to distinguish her face that i never seen, since that night!
when you are a stranger, that feeling keeps chasing you, no matter how others consider you, accept you, or refuse you, something within you keeps you cautious of every thing, no matter how it looks so bright!
Since ages, you are carrying your burden! for years you finish a Battle to start a fight! you win and win and win! still you feel the big lose ever since that night!
you may own the world! you can ride the wind! you dare to do what millions can't all impossibles becomes your possibles, yet, that feeling still chasing you, and your eyes can't see, except that sight!
All envy you! every one thought you were the talk of the town even when you are so badly down simply, they don't know you some times can't tell yellow from brown or black from white because all you need in your Little cave, a flame of light!
You still look at all directions! the problem isn't around, it is within you!
you are still a stranger! not because of the place or space, but because you can't recognize you!
Her face wasn't real! and that night wasn't a night! it is all you made simply, because you thought you still can make the sun rise at your left and the moon moves at your right!
Just be your real you! kill that stranger in you! fill your lungs with fresh air dare to do only what you dare and, be fair on her, be fair! she can't be that star, unless you can be her knight!
Note: this poem was written to my FreeSpirits Group members, some times ago! Upon the request and desire of my bestfriend and inspirer annonymousblogger, I am reposting it here as a blog for and a second edition! Sulei
Welcome back,, the place is still the same as you left it ages ago! Your bed never was touched since you last left it full of your warmth! no sin sneaked to it! no other perfume, other than yours spread over it! Our two coffee cups over there still unwashed! with your lipstick witnessing that time has changed a lot, but not my heart! Even my life has changed a lot, but i still listen only to the music you put last! Even this candle is still lighting,,, when the wax totally burnt, it was fed by blood sometimes, and tears, some other times! Does any one know, what it means when a man's tear drops come down his sad face?!
Welcome home... To where years of love, happiness, joy and peace lived for so long! I know your physical appearance is gone for good! But welcome back to your spirit visiting my loneliness! welcome home to your memory visiting my faithful heart!
was wondering, when dogs park if that parking is equivalent to some of our words? and if so, does it express complain, happiness, sadness and sorrow? when cats, meow! do they imitate women moaning? do they express love? to they show gratitude? was thinking of all that, until donkeys came up to my mind and their ugly voices! how can I compare and to what this time? oh yes!! some guys talk at the middle of night at the chat room! u can understand these guys words, only if u understand the ugly voice of a donkey and what it could be compared to in human words!
Stay standing right at that corner! watch people rushing, people running, people wandering, people wondering!! someone approaching you with a big smile on her/his face, as if u have known him/her for so many years! you keep watching, but that person soon disappear with his/her smile! Another person passing you so fast, almost running, almost hitting ur shoulder .. u easily see the anger covering his/her face! you wonder why??!! you also wonder what have you done?!!
two happy couple passing you, arm in arm, whispering to each other...they make u feel they almost kissing! you see red signs on their brownish skinned faces .. you see love filling their eyes! you see happiness dropping their way!
Such is a life! ....and u keep watching .. then you conclude ... may be if I will be here tomorrow or the day after, watching the same way, I might see the same people, but exchanging expressions on their faces! Such..is life!!
technology has served us! it has made the world somehow smaller, made our feelings spread all over the world, made someone who is thousands of miles is approachable, gave us a unique opportunities to find the best quality of people!
Yet, since there is a tax on every thing, we are paying the tax of our feelings, falling for someone who is in the other part of the world! and we fell under the mercy of these wires in front of us, because they are the mean of communication that link us with our beloved one! No wire, no heart beat! No wire, no opportunity to see the sweet smile drawn on ur sweetheart's face! No wire, you wouldn't even be able to feel you belong to this world!
My wish...if i may have a wish...is, to develop means of communications, that carry my feelings with no more need for these wires, wherever my sweetheart is!
Some days ago, I wrote a thread that was titled "FFF blogs are no more Fun" The main idea of that thread was to express my feelings and thoughts and even wishes, to have more creative blogs, and readers can benefit from!
I know that blogging is not that specialized art of writing, and mostly bloggers are not even professional ones, but at the same time, i believe that there must be a limit to how law a blog can be, and an open ceiling for its quality! Writers have lead nations to all sort of prosperous civilizations! and a good writer can be "positively" more effective than politicians, world leaders or even decision makers that affect our daily life with their decisions!
As I told one good friends of mine, that I even at my group, "FreeSpirits" group expected and aimed at intellectual people who can attract others by their quality not by their stories of flirtation! It is true that FFF is a dating site, but it is also true that there are members of all kind of human beings according to their cultures and different way of thinking, beside mentality differences!
Being a member of FFF for more than 6 years now, allowed me to see some successful love stories, but thousands of other sad stories that ended up with broken hearts! And I do believe that the nature of relationships created over the net, faced so many problems and obstacles as a result of misunderstanding, or misinterpreting people to each other! What is the role of bloggers in such cases? Isn't it to lead the others who only read and advise them to the best way of mutual understanding?
Instead of that, we find bloggers who either looking for a shoulder to cry on because their lovers appeared to be fake ones, bloggers who write on anything and every thing just to keep the record a bit advanced space wise, bloggers who flirt online just to gain more readers and can compete to appear of the top ten list of the main blogging page, and even some ladies who write on any thing just to have a wider space of FFF to show their legs or lips, so that they appear on the most seen list!
And I must admit here, that I don't generalize the issue! There are some very good writers in FFF. very creative ones and very intellectual people, whom you wait to read for! I was astonished for the reaction of some of my group members, who felt that they were meant by my thread! and they fired back, without being pointed at! It is true that a reader has the choice what to read and what not to read, but it is also very true that a writer must NOT insult our intelligence as readers by wasting our time on reading how much they miss each other when they are alone in bed and how cold their beds are without their partners, or how they wish to have their partners while they shower....etc! As a reader, I did not allow myself to inter your bedroom, so why would u bring your bedroom or your beloved girl bra and panties to my thoughts when am just looking for a piece of art to enjoy reading?!
I am sorry for all those who felt bad because of my thread! sorry for them not because i have written something wrong, but because they couldn't get my point when i was only emphasizing on the importance of quality! God bless you all
I haven't written any blog for so long in here. which made some of the people who used to read for me, send me some remark and inquiring why i stopped bloging! and the answer is simple!
Some of my friends, and me, have created a special group, at the FFF groups. We named it "FreeSpirits" . I know am not being inspired as much as before, but i still write from time to time. but all my blogs became new threads at the FreeSpirits group. I must say that I am very proud of of my group family members who are very decent, intellectual, creative, responsibl and fun, at the same time. I have no doubt that we will be the best example of the creative groups soon!
thanks for reading this short blog, and don't hesitate to have a look at the FreeSpirits!
I hate to write about any topic that might distinguish between human beings or creates a sensitive reactions between people! On the contrary, any one knows me well, or have read any of my blogs, would find out easily, that I am always after the equality of people and brotherhood of man, as sold principals in my life! In spite of that, some people who were chatting in the ELR, have asked me if i had read the post of McDonald titled: "The Inhuman Treatment Of All Women By Islam Men", and urged me to read it, if I haven't done so yet! Having read this topic, I would like to use my right as an FFF member to comment on it: 1. The whole issue reflects a clear ignorance at mcdonald of the real Islam. 2. Not only Ignorance, but misunderstanding of the Islam teaching to human beings. 3. mcdonald was referring to a TV program that raised the issue in the USA, and I am wondering, why he did not reply to that program, and why would he involve a site like Filipino Friend Finder, in such a pure American problem?! 4. Mcdonald allowed himself, to be the godfather of all Filipinos, to warn them from Muslim people, as if the filipinos were ignorant people and needed his explanations! 5. mcdonald lied to the fact by saying there is only 1 verse of the Koran that mentioned women. and the truth is that the Koran is consisting of 114 "sora" which each of them is a separate holly book and each of them is named separately. one of them is named "WOMEN" to emphasize on the importance of women in Islam, which even men did not have the same equality to have a separate "sora" like women! In spite of that, women mentioned in all the 114 "sora" that the Koran is consisting of! 6. mcdonald mentioned an organization raising fund to some Muslim women. That is a pure american issue! whether you raise money or you don't, who obliged you to do so?! 7. Many Muslim countries specially of the Middle East, also volunteer for needy people all over the world, and American people also are benefiting from the financial aids payed by Middle Eastern countries! "Remember the Qatar's financial aid to the victims of 9/11"! 8. Mcdonald appeared to be a man that is full of hatred towards Muslims, regardless whether they are innocents or criminals. This hatred made him generalize his judgments over the nearly 2 billion Muslims all over the world, including filipino Muslims! 9. There are 2 different things when talking about Middle Eastern Societies; A- Islam Religion and its impact over people; B- Traditions which is even older than Islam itself, and their greater impact over people! That is to the extent that if traditions contradict with Islam teaching, the majority of people still consider traditions rather than Islam teaching! therefore you might find very civilized Muslims, and you might find people acting like 200 years ago still! What I want to conclude from stating this, that Islam should not be blamed for all actions by someone who just were born by Muslim parents! 10. Mcdonald by writing his blog, reflected the face of some ignorant people, who really need to be educated before they dare write about something that they don't know and they don't understand! The problem of such people, that they are treating themselves badly without knowing what they are doing! If you just attack some innocent people who committed no crime, means you are urging such innocent people to hate you and fire back! So, such people are creating their enemies, and then they come back to shout and yield blaming the Islam for their own faults! 11. I am writing this blog, just to make things clear, and advise some members of the FFF not to be driven by such blogs of McDonald just to laugh and make fun of the other nations! 12. We as Muslims, respect all other nations, and respect all other religions, not only this but we strongly believe that human beings are free to warship whatever they think is right and correct and at the same time answers to the human brain thoughts. 12. We also don't hate the American people! On the contrary, we believe the Americans are a great nation that lead the world to so many success towards human prosperity! And at the same time, we may not agree for all the American Administration's conclusions and decisions, but we never make that as a reason to hate the American people themselves!
I was thinking of a definition for nowadays realism. I thought it was clear to me, to the extent that i thought i were so much linked to it! But I found out that sometimes you need Reaumer thermometer to measure the reality of nowadays realism! I am not a recalcitrant, but I think I understood now , how ridiculous life can be! And instead of trying to touch this vagueness as a riddle, and because i am not ready to follow this vane, I think I just need to repatriate my soul and renovate it! It is not a repentance, but just a try to redeem it if it is redeemable! Sorry if this means nothing to you, but I assure you that it means something to someone somewhere in the globe!
Ardash is not a new disease like birds flue, and it is not is not the name of the pain in the \bass\b, it is much worse! it is a chatter with that handle name, saw him in the ELR threatening a filipina girl who works in Lebanon that he will chase her name and location thru the immigration because he works there as he claimed.... just because he wanted to meet her , and the poor girl has got a b/f and is loyal to her love! how ugly the picture! how sore the taste! how cruel life can be, when u beg such a dirt not to hurt u just because u r being loyal to the person u love!
For all the girls who chat in the ELR... if u meet ARDASH, avoid him! he is not a dirt but worse! he is not without a dignity , but never heard of a dignity at all... he is not a man or related to manhood!
ARDASH is something u can't describe!
may be there are many other Ardashs in FFF, but he is just the worst example of all!
God bless all the ladies who are feeling homesick and still face such circumstances in order to provide a piece of bread of a kid they left behind, or a helpless lover somewhere!
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do they imitate women moaning? do they express love? to they show gratitude?
oh yes!! some guys talk at the middle of night at the chat room! 
