It is an attempt to explore, pour my soul, free my spirit and squeeze my heart, to highlight brotherhood of man, and to purify true love, the common human language for all! [/I]
Say it.. no one would get it! all gone, or may be still there, even here...nothing but music melody taking you so high! above their level, why do you care? they wont get it! dirty? of what? human desires burning your little body! so what? ashamed? after all you will be washed by God's Tears the melody is still on, filling the sky of a rhythm that they don't understand they wont understand!! feeling strange? your spirit will be showered by God's mercy! why you care? the music still there!! filling the space the language of natural feelings feeling so down? you brought it to yourself!! why you kept imagining chewing her rosy lips? why you wanted to be shaded by her eyelash? your hands sweating when you imagine touching her smoothness!! your lips are trembling by the idea of passing by her lips.. suddenly, the music getting louder, the voice of God is calling you it is filling you.. and you cry ........! why? her silky hair is flying with the air.. running towards you while her breasts jumping.. rebelling... seeking a release of their jail eager to bath in the God's warmth the lines of the sun.. what are you looking at? with an open mouth that seeking anything and every thing? that corner got fed up with your presence! that melody no more entertaining you,, but complaining from you.. the sun will soon set long way before the moon comes wet your long night wont be lit say something to make sure your lips moving.. say something to make sure those in the room understand you don't wait too long don't believe your lie they said it to you and you said it to your self then you believe it? eager... as usual but.. for what? this night is gonna be the longest the crowed will disappear slowly the melody will become the echo of your cry the tears of God will wash your body, But, what will wash your soul? This blog was written almost 2 years ago! yet a friend of mine asked me to blog it again! at that time when i wrote, i thought no one has read it, am wondering why my friend wants to see it here again, but upon the request, here it is!
This topic came up to my mind as I was in the chat room earlier the day! One of the regular chatters is complaining from the fact that all girls in FFF are looking for marriage / serious commitment! and he suggests, if it is all about sex eventually, who do People bother to be committed! I did my part of the job in debating the guy about his wishes, but still I thought to blog about it in order to get more views and opinions about the subject, since i can't pretend to be that well aware of the filipino society, and since that guy is also a filipino, though he is not living in the Philippines right now! In my thoughts, marriage is a society value and a personal principal! and i understand that women wont feel secure with a guy, outside the marriage foundation! It is the high dream of every single girl, so why do we guys allow our selves to confiscate that dream, just because we think of our sexual desires?! I just can't admit it to deal with a woman as an object to hug and kiss and even make love with, when i have the desire, and put her on the shelf, when i don't need her anymore! that is a real ugly picture and shows no respect at all to our beloved ones unless we live a big lie that we even imply it on our selves! If some of you think I am too old guy still believing in old values that don't exist anymore, it is up to you, but I will always believe that sex can't be called making love unless it is a fruit of real love, and that wont be meaningful and wont be enjoyable as long as we look at women as a disposable objects!
Who is the play girl?? some people think it might be the girl who just like to flirt with you! some others might think she is the one who has her web cam 24/7 on and inviting guys to watch her naked body for only 50 $ !! others also might think she is the one who is already married and have kids, yet pretend to be single so that she attract more guys and eventually feel she is so much wanted!!! but, I think a real play girl, is the one who pretends to be decent, faithful, sincere, God fearing, family oriented, well-cultured and educated, yet, she asks you your YM ID at the same time, she releases hers to another 5 guys at the same time! She is the one who pretend to be in love with you, and tells you, your the real found love and most awaited guy, yet, she doesn't bother to update her profile to say she is no more available not happily in love! how many of you girls, who pretend to be in love, has written a blog or even a letter to say thank you Filipino Friend Finder, through you , i could find my lost and dreamed love?! Yes!! I know there are some decent girls and true ones who done that, but I am talking about the majority who enjoys imagining jumping from a guy arms to another's one! Yet, they think that guys are too stupid to realize and that they can fool them! eventually, these girls end up with a bad reputation, claiming broken hearted, and accusing guys of being not sincere or true ones! It is good to have many friends! and that is doesn't contradict with being in love with a specific one guy that should be known to all others! But it is obviously indecent to have a b/f for the day time and another one for the night time! Wishing you girls, all the best and hope u can be more matured and serious so that u regain the respect of others!
This gypsy heart never rest! keeps sailing from the east to the west! I wont rest unless he is totally lost! That is the natural end of a heart following girls who build on each tree a different nest!!!
Sometimes ago, I made a promise! to sing for you, sweet Tris! were gathering my words... gathering my feelings... carrying my heart... and coming to confess! I tried to heal the broken heart since long ago! the wounds were too deep... the words were too cheap... So, I prayed for God's Bless! Nothing can hurt a man, as much as feeling helpless! Life can be ugly, life can be nice... but life will be always life, and never paradise! I whisper to the loving heart... be wise at times, try to be wise! one can't live all life.. just to pay the price! Sing with me for the blessing dawn! Sing with birds for summer sky happiness will come... you will no more sigh! wishes remain wishes.. the truth echo filling the space... wake up wake up ... avoid the big lie![/SIZE]
As anything in life, blogging can be tiring sometimes! it consume much of thoughts and feelings, trying to express your self, and translate feelings to words!of course i am talking about creative blogging, whereas copy/paste is totally another issue! It also has to do with one's mode! if you are not in the good mode to blog, u might not succeed to forward your idea as u mean it to be, or you just might be misunderstood by others! to avoid all that, it is better to take a rest or just a leave from blogging, like any other task in your life, and that is exactly what i were doing over the last week!But....wait for the heavy material soon!
- Before you love anybody or any thing, make sure you love your self! - If u make a step towards me, I will make two, but if you don't act at all, don't expect me to react! - Never regret things you have done thinking they were the right things, even if time proved to you they were wrong! - Doubt! the ugliest thought! Nothing kills sweet love, but doubt! - If you believe in your self, you wont get worried, no matter what other say about you! Only Fruitful Trees Are Normally Thrown By Stones! have a wonderful day, every body, where ever you are in the globe, whatever good things you are doing!
I miss you... even when i am with you! hand in hand.. lips on lips.. eye on eye... your heart beating in my body... and i breath through your lung... and still, I miss you! I miss you! melting in you... uniting with you... seeing through your eyes! tasting through your tongue... still,, waiting for you! to be nearer.. nearer than my heart and its beats! nearer than my eye and its white! nearer than my lung and its oxygen! nearer than my mind and its thoughts... nearer than my soul melting into yours! still, and will always be, missing you!
Take me home..take me to where i belong! I have been lonely and a lone for so long! let me finally sing loudly my love song! take me to where I truly belong! This gypsy heart, for years been a homeless, wondered around the world, always restless! braught my only heartaches and made my life colourless! this gypsy heart, now have a nest! and no more my feelings are fruitless! Take me home, to where I belong... no matter how far or near, your warmth at last flamed the candles.. lighting my fingers to reach the place! flaming the heart to light the space... no matter how far or near... your heart is the nest.. your eyes are the place.. your cave is the grace... without you, the place is no more a place! if not for you, the gypsy heart will forever roam the space!
How to court a filipina?!! Is it really difficult to do so? what is the simplest way to make a filipina understand that you have been watching her and thus you like her, but when she jumps to you with the question: Do you love me? What would be your answer to that, when you even don't know her real first name?! She might lead you to communicate with her by other means of communications other than chat rooms, but still, how would you react when you see her saying the same things that she has said to you, to other guys? Is it again, a cultural problem? Now if you tell her yes you love her, and you may feel so, but still your fears ban you from love confession to someone like a butterfly parking on each flower she meet in her way, would then take the risk to fly for her, when you even don't know what her hearts really telling her?! now the risk am talking about is never meant to be financial one, but more important; the moral and emotional one! how can simply can u understand what is in her tiny head but still that head no matter how tiny it is, it makes the world crazily revolve around her! Am talking of man securities now? I have been blogging and advising other mates what to do in order not to come back with a broken heart, but now adays i find myself in the middle of the game! still I really don't know how to court a filipina, and how to get the best in her, bearing in mind, that i don't want to go back home with a broken heart by a girl that belongs to the nation i love and admire most! I hope some friends can advise!
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I did my part of the job in debating the guy about his wishes, but still I thought to blog about it in order to get more views and opinions about the subject, since i can't pretend to be that well aware of the filipino society, and since that guy is also a filipino, though he is not living in the Philippines right now! In my thoughts, marriage is a society value and a personal principal!
and i understand that women wont feel secure with a guy, outside the marriage foundation!
It also has to do with one's mode! if you are not in the good mode to blog, u might not succeed to forward your idea as u mean it to be, or you just might be misunderstood by others! to avoid all that, it is better to take a rest or just a leave from blogging, like any other task in your life, and that is exactly what i were doing over the last week!But....wait for the heavy material soon!
what is the simplest way to make a filipina understand that you have been watching her and thus you like her, but when she jumps to you with the question: Do you love me? What would be your answer to that, when you even don't know her real first name?!
still I really don't know how to court a filipina, and how to get the best in her, bearing in mind, that i don't want to go back home with a broken heart by a girl that belongs to the nation i love and admire most! 
