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AFTER THE STORM One week after I received the 'bomb' that shook all of me, and even those who were close to me - I am moving on. I was never the pathetic type who begs for comfort, drowning myself in alcohol, intoxicated and cry. I face mine head on. I keep myself busy and on the breaking point of exhaustion as I lay me down to sleep in oblivion. Thank God, I have so much willpower to overcome my grief. And so many people offering hands. Btw, I just opened my cp after a week. I willed it to ring in OFF mode  plausible explanation, we're all entitled to some craziness sometimes.Yesterday, I went to the church in an unusual time when there's no service and avoid the familiar faces..and the sermon. I may hear sympathizing remarks and break tears. As it is, there's a requiem mass goin' on. When it's over and the of the decease went up the pulpit to thank those who commiserated with them and eulogized his father, I cried with the crowd  not for the dead of course (don't know him  ) but for the love died within me. I prayed for peace - his peace, my own, world peace  Repentance for I'd hurt some people along the way, thankful that HE gave me so much strenght and asked for the perpetual burning of hope in my heart - for that elusive love and happiness.It isn't over yet, i'm still hurting. In time, everyone will be forgiven...everything will be forgotten... 
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The short time I've known you, I know you are a strong woman who can stand on your own. One day at a time, no expectation. I'm a senior citizen . Don't expect me to remember anything
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Sis, You are very strong!!! If that was me be down on the floor crying and crying. But, life goes on even without us. What can we do. Accept the bitter pill and move on. There is no sure way to avoid grieving. It comes out on it's own... Greatest feelings in the world when two souls profess a love for each other...
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Getting there Joseph..Thank you for the sympathy. 
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The short time I've known you, I know you are a strong woman who can stand on your own. One day at a time, no expectation.  ..Less expectation, less disappointment  Thanks and hope you'll be coming back here soon - I have lots of free time now
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Sis, You are very strong!!! If that was me be down on the floor crying and crying. But, life goes on even without us. What can we do. Accept the bitter pill and move on. There is no sure way to avoid grieving. It comes out on it's own... We all have a way of coping with griefs. You're not that weak only you need to get it all out on your system by crying. Still in the end, you overcome yours. By how, not really important. It's how we stand up after. Thanks for being a friend 
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Tajane, Aha, this is the one we're talking about in epbi. Right 'te, as I've said give me time to mourn. It's almost over not that I really 'mourn' in the true sense of the word, but as things changed - more on the redirecting the misaligned perspective Lets celebrate our friendship next year, enjoy life and go fishing  Love you dear ate..hugs and kiss back 
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LEO, However we deny that we're hurting, and however we appear nonchalant in front of others - deep inside, that pain's real. Cuts like a knife really, but the important thing - I am still alive and breathing. There's still a happy life ahead..Thanks bro.
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Hi PinoyM, Righty! However hard the past storm shattered our lives and darkened hopes, can't deny the fact that there's still rainbow and silver lining and the skies will clear.. Thanks for gracing my post
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12/14/2012 10:20 am |
I admire your courage and mature way of dealing with your feelings sis Theta. You're a good role model for those who love and lost.   within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.
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Janey dear, Thanks so much for the uplift sis. I learned to deal with pains much easier now - maybe with all those bad blows happened - and there are quite a many. It's like the first time somebody broke my heart - the degree of pain and hurt is almost the same. What's been added is an expanded capacity to make the mind understand. And I LIVE...
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12/15/2012 1:39 pm |
LEO, However we deny that we're hurting, and however we appear nonchalant in front of others - deep inside, that pain's real. Cuts like a knife really, but the important thing - I am still alive and breathing. There's still a happy life ahead..Thanks bro. Thets, not much to say but just
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Gracey, I appreciate it really, the silence and the silent wishes that I may be better soon. Thanks so much for friends like you. Need no words to convey that you care, I know sis. Love yah
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