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theta2011 53F
781 posts
12/2/2012 6:48 pm
METAMORPHOSIS 2

This is the worst time I've been dreading. The time to let go, and feel the pain. Though I've practiced long enough and readied myself for the impact, still, nothing as heart breaking, gut wrenching as the actual blow. I've been sleepless and in shock for a day - maybe the tiredness of the mind and body will render me a pitiful sleep but nevertheless a break from my somnambulistic state of mind. I'll wake up and the bad dream will go away.

Yap, it is such nothing as a bad dream. In no time, everything will be forgotten but as I mentioned to a friend - give me time to mourn and I'll bounce back a new me. A time to heal must begin after I forgive myself, processing now...

I'll win this over once again as I did number of times in the past and everytime, no regrets. I am a survivor and this one is another feather in my cap. I have my family, friends and enemies to keep my life busy, and LOVE - never say die!!!

Goodbye and goodluck P.



eb1209

12/3/2012 3:17 am

Gosh! I just woke up, myself..Could it be that while I am reading this blog, I am HALF ASLEEP?

Just call me ELZ


ajaw430 54F

12/3/2012 3:33 am

Thets? Im here...cry to shoulder sis.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 4:04 am

    Quoting  :

Teng,

Some good things never last. I'll just wait for the best thing..I had fun and memories. Thanks sis.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 4:21 am

    Quoting  :

Tajane,

In no time I will forget 'te, and then forgiveness will come. It will be very soon - when the pain's gone only good memories remain. For thats what we had..

As I've told you, give me time to mourn and heal, I'll be good as new. Thanks for the support, and love..I'm back here for a start


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 4:35 am

    Quoting eb1209:
    Gosh! I just woke up, myself..Could it be that while I am reading this blog, I am HALF ASLEEP?
ELZ,

That's what I keep hoping too. But I'll have it now than any other time when I can still bear the pain. Moving on is easier..

I have friends like you for understanding and support. Thanks sis.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 4:42 am

    Quoting ajaw430:
    Thets? Im here...cry to shoulder sis.
Gracey,

I know..If only you're nearer. I didn't shed a single tear the first day, thats yesterday. Now that it sinked in, funny I cried little. Maybe, thats all there was to it.

Thanks sis..


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 6:18 pm

    Quoting  :

Leo,

I'll never forget any single person that came my way. It's either I smile or frown upon remembering - depends on how they affected my life. Most times t'was a smile like this one. Thank you kuya for the encouragement and I promise I'll keep my heart open.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 6:26 pm

    Quoting  :

ZZZ,

Only way to cope - positivity.. And right you are, recently I strengthened my tie with GOD, that I took for granted a long time..and my load's lighter - carryng carry

Thanks for the advice.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/3/2012 6:35 pm

    Quoting  :

Charlie,

Righty ho..everywhere you'll find the REZ. For everywhere, the human mind and heart's all alike. They dream, fall in love, fall out of love, recover with the help of friends and families (enemies too). Broken wing no more, fly again and be happy.

There's so much to do in the REZ, thank God..and thanks mah friend.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/4/2012 3:52 am

    Quoting  :

Hello sis,

A sound advice coming from you, surprisingly, very young. That's what I'll try to do, a tedious process but doable. Thank you for it


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/4/2012 7:04 pm

    Quoting  :

Hello Dear,

The greatest feeling is being in love and in reciprocity - being love. But that doesn't mean it will stay forever - nothing does, no one does. Even the memory lasts only until the last breath..

We all go through this, the cycle of love within the cycle of life. Thanks sis for dropping by and for the nice input.


TessRb 64F
7258 posts
12/5/2012 9:31 am

Sis,

so sorry to hear this. the pics of both of u looked so happy. there is no accidents in this world in meeting someone. lessons lang and good memories to remember. God bless ur heart sis

Greatest feelings in the world when two souls profess a love for each other...


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/5/2012 6:23 pm

    Quoting TessRb:
    Sis,

    so sorry to hear this. the pics of both of u looked so happy. there is no accidents in this world in meeting someone. lessons lang and good memories to remember. God bless ur heart sis
'te Tess,

We were..till t'was time to go. I knew it from the very start that it's only on borrowed time and had to have the best. Again, no regrets. What's left was fond memories..Thanks sis for your comforting words..


jane82 110F

12/6/2012 5:46 pm

Glad to read you sis Theta that it was a mutual parting without regrets, full of acceptance, good memories, love and understanding.



within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
12/6/2012 8:22 pm

    Quoting jane82:
    Glad to read you sis Theta that it was a mutual parting without regrets, full of acceptance, good memories, love and understanding.
Hi Janey,

From the very start, I knew there will come a time that this had to end. Maybe just a bit of delirious optimism that it will last longer than expected. As it is, false hope. We were good together but both on a golden chain..In able to survive, grasp reality and look forward. On it now, thanks sis..