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pause went hiking today  only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide |
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8/15/2010 3:30 pm |
i seldom post real picture of myself here or anywhere and probably i will remove it when anxiety and insecurities strike (yes i have lots of those) but for now here's yours truly enjoying a break from etc etc and etc near Durbuy my 72 years old mother went with me it's her birthday today (mother's day) we got lost somewhere in between and have to backtracked about 2km it was raining and starting to get dark(especially in the woods) she started to get worried remember that this is the same mother who told me those "amazing" stories i have been blogging ever since and she keeps hinting bits and pieces of those while i was trying to figure out where i have gone wrong she said: "is there aswang here in Europe? does dracula really exist? how about werewolves? " am i really sure that the sign that we are following never been moved? by someone who wanted to lure hikers to HIS lair? what about making our own shortcut or find and follow the highway. any highway i tried to ignore her coz i still don't believe hitting your own old mother even though she's like my mother so i told her to zip it then she reminds me of the time i purposely didn't follow any sign (for fun) and we ended miles from home somewhere in the south of Brussels and had to find our way in the dark and managed to get home around 23:30 after gropping our way through fields while all the time the highway was just few hundreds meters from us but can't find a way to cross the fields and woods that seperated us from the road i have experience a lot of funny(meaning weird) things while hiking maybe i will tell you about it sometimes only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 3:57 pm |
 since i started reading your blogs a few years ago, i have always wondered what/ how you look like. now i can finally put a face to the name ehh blogger's handle. you're fab ms B. dont worry, you are not the only one. i think all women have insecurities. i blame those air brushed pics of celebs  your mom is gas  you are lucky to still have one. lost mine when i was 13. cant wait for the funny/ weird hiking experiences. Im an avid walker and love hiking too but that was before i started looking after 6 kids. 
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8/15/2010 4:58 pm |
and i thought the kids are yours a few years ago? you must had a different handle then i have video intros in my old handle i made it after someone accused me of posting pictures of my daughter pity only people with gold ball can view them celebs pics... they done them so well they don't even have pores anymore only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 5:03 pm |
almost lost her last year boy it was scary i thought i would not mind since i was separated from them from a very young age i find out i was so wrong we have only one mother and that is sorry you lost yours when you were but a kid i hike a lot the arduous the venture the better goodluck on everything you wish to do and achieve only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 5:12 pm |
by the way my (nick)name is really bebong my mother and family call me so it's not just a blogger's handle only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 6:57 pm |
*since i cannot sleep i might as well vent i rarely do it for so many obvious and not so obvious reasons but i will shut up about it for now probably (just guessing here) some people are wondering why i don't become mellow dramatic about "my current situation" the reason is simple: i don't have any. before i do something, it means i weighed it already hundreds of thousands time and if the outcome still doesn't feel right, then it's time to act mind you, all the past episodes i've been involved, i (why?) am always the one who done the action (why? again) it seems that many people have difficulties recognizing a hopeless situation when they see one. and NO there is no third party (not that i know of) at least not from my side and there are no hints/signs that there is/was believe me if there is i would see it from a mile distance it's just a question of hearing that crucial click inside my head i know the moment i hear/feel it...then there is no way back and NO i'm not in denial and i am NOT pretending either i'm just being ME only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 7:23 pm |
*and why since i left philippines casablanca is playing non-stop in my head while i never know it exists before? and not just any casablanca but specifically by bertie higgins i can't forget the way he speaks the words as if every each one of them has hidden meaning in/and smoldering heat/hot first heard it the night of my customary des party last may 2010 my driver was doing the rendition unsuccessfully and he apologized me buzy with "other things" told him absentmindedly that it really doesn't matter he must sung the piece again in the course of the evening cause i keep hearing it in the background (btw he has a great voice) but took no notice of it till I REACHED BELGIUM!!! since then i've been hearing it constantly non-stop for... almost 4 months now? only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 7:27 pm |
and to that someone who did an effort emailing me just to say that probably the reason why i've been gone for so long is because i spent a holiday in a loony bin... well, you know, you're right. satisfied? only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/15/2010 7:37 pm |
I fell in love with you watching Casablanca Back row of the drive in show in the flickering light Popcorn and cokes beneath the stars became champagne and caviar Making love on a long hot summers night I thought you fell in love with me watching Casablance Holding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's Candle lit cafe Hiding in the shadows from the spies. Moroccan moonlight in your eyes Making magic at the movies in my old chevrolet Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh Please come back to me in Casablanca I love you more and more each day as time goes by I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca You know I've never really been there. so, I don't know I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh Please come back to me in Casablanca I love you more and more each day as time goes by Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh Please come back to me in Casablanca I love you more and more each day as time goes by I love you more and more each day as time goes by Songwriters: Limbo, Sonny; Higgins, Bertie; Healy, John only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 5:40 am |
my eyes are always sad (so i been told since as long as i could remember) must be a compensation for my Muhammad ali's lips fun  is always just around the corner when one is dealing with my motherdepends what is one's idea of fun of course only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 5:44 am |
flea markets!!! i can write blogs after blogs about car booth sales/flea markets/charity shops/antique markets and so on i love love love those old well loved chipped anything i could restore and give a place in my home only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 5:48 am |
and you are right of course travel with precaution i have candles torches knives stunt gun  in my backpack  because i'm a vampire/daywalker, i usually wake up at 15:00 and set for hiking around 16:00 bad habit of course but yeah... about my mother being lucky...well i wish you tell her only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 5:59 am |
if my mother tell us stories it's almost always a first hand experiences (which i took at face value when i was young. only lately i am beginning to realized that it's impossible for just one person to experience that much weirdness in one lifetime)  and if not, she has a lot of dead  or missing far away family members to back up her stories.and the worst of it all is she sees to it that i am always included in them. like the other day i asked her about a certain place with a certain beautiful river and she said: "ah, that place with that river where you saw a very big white deer which nobody but our ancient ancestors have seen." the deer i have totally forgotten. but when she told me, i remembered she was right. i did saw the deer and chickens and white and gold carriage full of white blue eyed blond children  i wonder what sort of a family i have only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 6:01 am |
i can say the same rox i love the black dress you are wearing and you look stunning in it only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 6:08 am |
my blog disappeared last night and reappeared only today around 15:00 only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 10:06 am |
since i started reading your blogs a few years ago, i have always wondered what/ how you look like. now i can finally put a face to the name ehh blogger's handle. you're fab ms B. dont worry, you are not the only one. i think all women have insecurities. i blame those air brushed pics of celebs your mom is gas you are lucky to still have one. lost mine when i was 13. cant wait for the funny/ weird hiking experiences. Im an avid walker and love hiking too but that was before i started looking after 6 kids.
Just call me ELZ 
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8/16/2010 10:25 am |
and i thought the kids are yours a few years ago? you must had a different handle then i have video intros in my old handle i made it after someone accused me of posting pictures of my daughter pity only people with gold ball can view them celebs pics... they done them so well they don't even have pores anymore myself and ms jane talks abt you from time to time wondering when you're comin back. and now you're here!
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8/16/2010 10:29 am |
almost lost her last year boy it was scary i thought i would not mind since i was separated from them from a very young age i find out i was so wrong we have only one mother and that is sorry you lost yours when you were but a kid i hike a lot the arduous the venture the better goodluck on everything you wish to do and achieve thanks ms B. you too.
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8/16/2010 10:36 am |
  i dunno if you remember when i was still trueblue i said you guys scare me, not everybody but a few. and i have to admit 'te elz one of them is you.  you said there are no divas here and i know that now. Ms B scares me too coz of her style of blogging. Janey just laughed at me when i told her. And im surprise that she is kinda 'shy'
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8/16/2010 10:38 am |
neither of my exes can do either only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 10:50 am |
 that's because that was my first time (and the last time i hope) i made a spectacle of myself with my real face attached to the experience second reason is: i'm not use being in the center of attention (i can't adlib and edit ha ha) lucky that smiley (and jeff your friend but only on webcam) saw me in person and i have spoken quite few times with belle or otherwise... but you're right. i'm a very shy person (of course no one of my real friends would believe it) and my self confidence is almost none existent but boy when it comes to it, i'm an iron lady myself but i think sweetface have seen the similarities she knows what i'm talking about only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 11:01 am |
and my accent is of course terrible i've been living here longer than in phil lucky i could still speak english (that(s why i'm here to practice) smiley said i sound one if those german people she once and a while talk to in webcam only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 11:12 am |
no ms B. the kids arent mine. yes, use to be trueblue22. always read your blogs but i seldom comment. my last comment was on your blog nosi ba lasi or something to that effect, cant remember you were gone for a long time. myself and ms jane talks abt you from time to time wondering when you're comin back. and now you're here! jane was there from the very beginning when i don't answer comments yet and never edit my blogs she watches me through ups and down high and low and transformation after transformation i used to write more honest than this and got a lot of warnings from epep i learned to modify what i really think and edit it to suit general(?) taste make more acceptable and access able for the public only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 11:16 am |
i cant remember how i felt at that time. but when i got older, i was angry and bitter btu i got over it. thanks ms B. you too. he died so young and he was already in the coffin when i arrived. didn't have a chance to say goodbye there are so many things i would like to ask from him to help me understand and accept some things that i see crucial to the person that i had become now i can't. only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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8/16/2010 11:29 am |
hehehe 'te elz, you are lucky to have that golden ball. i dunno if you remember when i was still trueblue i said you guys scare me, not everybody but a few. and i have to admit 'te elz one of them is you. you said there are no divas here and i know that now. Ms B scares me too coz of her style of blogging. Janey just laughed at me when i told her. And im surprise that she is kinda 'shy' my ex said my fav hobby is to chop people in pieces burst their balloons and crumble their walls our coordinator said she has to prepare for days whenever she got an schedule to talk to me because whatever she would say she knows i would literally blow her away she confessed having to grip the edge of her desk the moment i walk through the door. i find it unsettling when i graduated from(social) nursing i get a note from our docent (a psychologist coz psychology is my main subject then) that she would like for me to go on studying (she said: you would not stop here, would you?) she said she will be proud to call me a colleague one day. yes i could be frightening to some sometimes not to mention my unusual preferences but i'm fair. only dead fish go with the flow ~ JolieLaide
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