update on my mistake!  

younglooking55 10/28/2009 8:43 pm

i will post a comment instead on my update on my mistake i wrote about and shared below! i made a mistake! Jun 22, 2009 12:04 pm 596 Views i made a mistake. no its not about relationship. there are no mistakes and regrets in a relationship - for me personally. there are consequences in a relationship which are either successful or not, joyful or painful, rewarding or disappointing, comforting or stressful, made in heaven or in hell, and on and on. the mistake i made is about giving up on the disciplined rigorous physical exercise when i retired from the navy in january 2001. i thought to have a complete transformation to civilian life, i must give up those things uniquely military such as rigorous physical exercise and of course the demanding nature that i want things done - with only a click of my finger, they obey and comply. since i am no longer in the military, i thought there was no need for me to be in my utmost physical shape because there is no longer a physical fitness test that i must pass - which is a career ending if i don't. now i realized that it was a mistake to give up totally on the regimented physical exercise. now i find myself 12 lbs heavier due to lack of strenuous activities. i wonder how i managed to gain 12 lbs when i don't eat that much and i am selective with what i eat, only occasionally indulging on foods that are fattening. i even seldom eat rice and i eat too enough fruits and vegetables to keep me healthy. i am heavier now partly as a result of the aging process i guessed or maybe lack of strenuous mobility. but i go to they gym in the morning for 15 minutes for upper body muscle toning and then i walk every now and then before attending the eb in vegas. i guessed its a wake up call that i realized i was out of shape when i was in vegas. since then i embarked on losing weights. i now walk regularly and almost everyday since vegas for an hour or more in the afternoon right after the giling-giling and 8'clock (wowowie). i like the girl on 8' clock, the one on the left. it used to be during my time in the navy, its easy to run 5 miles a day. but now i could not see myself or even force myself running a mile a day. so i settle for just walking. walking nevertheless is much better than being a couch potato. i am hoping that i can sustain my walking throughout. i guess we won't know or becomes aware of the mistake we made until we have some sort of personal reckoning. yes as i looked at myself now, i felt pathetic that i am out of shape. its never too late to rectify the mistake i made and get in shape again and hopefully by the next eb, i am 6 bls lighter.

younglooking55 1325 posts 10/28/2009 8:57 pm

in 4 months i made tremendous progress. i started slowly by walking and just walking a short distance too. but today surprisingly, for an hour and 30 minutes, i was able to jog and run for a distance of 8 miles. everyone can embark on something and be successful. now that i am in a better shape than 4 months ago, i will never let it go again or backslide or give up my desire to be physically fit through jogging and walking and upper body toning. the upper body toning i do at the gym at my office during the 15 minutes morning break. now perhaps after the holiday, i would embark of getting to know someone and perhaps allow myself to love again. i know i can do that because i still have a heart and like others could be emotional too. maybe i have done enough of discouraging others to like me and therefore its my turn to like her and then know her and sincerely and genuinely unravel to her the real me without the facades of blogging. its going to be a big challenge to convince her that i too just like others have qualities to be liked. liking or loving her can wait for now, but i doubt after the holiday if i can still resist not to like her.