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Blogs > godiva0824 > The Passionate Blogger


godiva0824 63F
2894 posts
7/19/2015 8:57 am
What Prolonged Singleness Had Done To Me

It's been a very long time since I blogged using this handle. You can say, it is one of those days when I just visited this site and something comes to mind. Yes, it's been ages since I had a meaningful relationship, a romantic one, I mean. I've gotten so accustomed to being alone, independent, and territorial. Too long a time, I have forgotten how to "love", or is it because my heart has been numbed, or maybe it is my mind commanding it to never fall in love again?...If you ask me now, I do not have the answer. I just go with the flow. I am definitely a loner in my own place. I just go to work, to the gym (at times) and at the mall. I have very limited social life, and oftentimes it is in the company of the people I met here in FFF. They are my family, my friends. But even with them, I still do not want to lose myself. I do not want to be told on what to do and what is best for me, unless I ask their opinion. I am afraid to lose control of myself, because I only have ME, I, and MYSELF, and I do not want to lose whatever I have. You might think I am being selfish? But of course, you have the right to think that way. But, I wasn't like this before...I became who I am right now due to being alone, free, and independent for a very long time. You have to experience what I have been through in life in order to understand me well...But you don't have to. All I need is for you to read...If you were near me, all I need is someone who will listen...That is all....


ELZ


TessRb 64F
7258 posts
7/19/2015 9:50 am

 Elz,

It's been a while for me too. Being single is the best because no one tells or doubts your whereabouts. While being married or in a relationship kills the whole thing. Since, trust is the issue. Especially, to an insecure person. For one they question the past. For the life of me can't even remember the year unless the one asking shows. Naka ka irita! All i know is i can sleep at night knowing i didn't hurt or cheated. Parang the old clique na reverse ang ginagamit.

Have a great sunday. Caught the 7:30 mass the walk did me good.
Greatest feelings in the world when two souls profess a love for each other...


eb1209

7/19/2015 10:14 am
    Quoting TessRb:
    Elz,

    It's been a while for me too. Being single is the best because no one tells or doubts your whereabouts. While being married or in a relationship kills the whole thing. Since, trust is the issue. Especially, to an insecure person. For one they question the past. For the life of me can't even remember the year unless the one asking shows. Naka ka irita! All i know is i can sleep at night knowing i didn't hurt or cheated. Parang the old clique na reverse ang ginagamit.

    Have a great sunday. Caught the 7:30 mass the walk did me good.
Tess, I just felt so melancholic today. Maybe I am getting older. I just feel I need to blog.
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

7/19/2015 12:54 pm

 Have a very peaceful eternal sleep
Just call me ELZ


oldkanaba 73M
2458 posts
7/19/2015 8:49 pm
Elz, enjoy what you are today and change only when it is for the better. I can tell you though that enjoying life with someone is more rewarding, that someone being a loved or a loving one including a friend or a group of friends.
I'm a senior citizen . Don't expect me to remember anything


eb1209

7/19/2015 9:33 pm
    Quoting  :
Thanks and welcome back Bestie. It's been a while for the old timers here in FFF.
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

7/19/2015 9:39 pm

 Ka Bert, with all sincerity, I do feel the love of the Dabarkads whenever I am with you ALL. The feeling of belongingness is indescribable
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

7/19/2015 9:40 pm
    Quoting  :
Thanks Dan! You always have your ways of making others feel better.
Just call me ELZ


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
7/20/2015 2:57 am
    Quoting dreemer1:
    Elz for a finncially independent woman like you so advantageous...u can do whtever that comes to your mind without a compromise....jjust enjoy life to the fullest lol....
Manny, are you back in SFO? Thanks for always being a friend and supporter.
ELZ


godiva0824 63F
3469 posts
7/21/2015 2:26 am
    Quoting dreemer1:
    Elz.....M still in Pinas till March 2016...last month I travelled to SG and Indonesia with my wife...hopefully once her visa gets approved she would be able to come along when I return to USA 2016....
Time goes by fast Manny. 2016 is just around the corner
ELZ


TessRb 64F
7258 posts
7/21/2015 10:35 am

 Elz,

I can't believe some of the old timer coming back... Everyone have a happy Tuesday and more blessings...
Greatest feelings in the world when two souls profess a love for each other...


eb1209

7/23/2015 10:41 am
    Quoting TessRb:
    Elz,

    I can't believe some of the old timer coming back... Everyone have a happy Tuesday and more blessings...
Tess, it happens once in a while. We cannot totally run away from this website which had brought all of us to special friendship
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

7/23/2015 10:43 am
    Quoting  :
Jane, as we grow older, we become more simple and are quicker to accept the many realities in life, which includes the mere fact that sometimes, we just have to alone for the rest of our lives.
Just call me ELZ




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