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All Bottled Up... I'd like to think that I'm Okay, but thanks....Not really...I'm going through a lot these past few months, as a matter of fact, since late last year. But I'm trying to be brave and holding up positively as much as I could... To those who know me very well, they are aware of most of my personal issues, and my life here at FFF is an open book. I dare bare my soul. What the heck! It's my outlet, and it does make me feel better knowing that I can vent. A few days more, I'll give up a couple of the most wonderful things that I ever had in my life. Number one on the list is my . He is getting ready to leave home on April 15th, to be independent and live a life of his own. He's my only , and my only "family" here in McAllen, TX. It's an overwhelming mixed emotions for me. I do want to see him learn the ropes and be able to stand on his own two feet without my shield, but at the same time, I still worry. And most of all, I will miss him dearly. Our reunion here in the USA since Dec. 2002 hasn't been that great since he did not grow up with me, but I did my very best to provide him with all the love, comfort, support and guidance that I could give. He has a lot of resentment about the WHY's in our lives. But, I'm sure, in due time, he will understand, and hopefully, will be more appreciative. I've been out from work since early February due to left shoulder injury that led to surgery. It isn't easy to be home most of the time, feeling bored and feeling low. I've been given constant company by my friends in FFF with their little pictures on this screen. Some of them don't even have a face, but they make me feel better in any way. I am thankful that I'm back to my job on the 13th. It sure is going to help me cope more. I still have to release a lot of emotions that are all "bottled up" and trapped deep inside me. It's just a matter of days. By then, I truly really hope that I should be okay... Life on the edge is never easy. Right now, I'm holding on, and holding up fairly....  Just call me ELZ  |
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4/10/2008 5:00 am |
Ate Elz I know you are a tough woman though you do stumble at times but you always stand up again and face the world with a smile and I truly and sincerely wish you the best!!! You know I also did not grow up with my parents and I also had a lot of resentment but in time when you have to face your own difficulties it´s easier to understand the many reasons...Hold on because many friends surrounds youIt will take more than common sense So stop your wondering take a stand Theres more to life than just to live Cus an empty room can be so loud Its too many tears to drown them out So hold on,hold on,hold on,hold on One single smile a helping hand Its not that hard to be a friend So don’t give up stand til the end Theres more to life than just to live Cus an empty room can be so loud Its too many tears to drown them out So hold on,hold on,hold on,hold on When you love someone And they break your heart Don’t give up on love Keep faith beside Just hold on,hold on,hold on,hold on When it falls apart And your feeling lost All your hope is gone Don’t forget to hold on,hold on Gud girls R bad girls who don't get caught... 
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just hang on there Elz. i know you will be Ok  ~ Jolielaide 
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4/10/2008 7:42 am |
like i always tell you, you are one tough cookie.. good to know you have good friends during times like this... they help us get by...Take care Elsa and God bless...  MARIE
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4/10/2008 7:55 am |
You'll be fine... i remember you told me the same line back then... true enough, i woke up one day feeling ok... i thanked you then, im thanking you again now for the encouraging words you've given me... we don't know each other that much, but i am sure, no matter what happens, you'll do well... take care and GBU! ♥♥♥ eNjOy LiFe t0day, yEsterDay iS g0nE & t0morr0w mAy nEveR cOmE ♥♥♥
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4/10/2008 8:35 am |
 Accept fate, and move on.Have a nice day ! 
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my dear Elsa, we cant make life go anti-clock-wise! and we cant pretend to possess what we should not possess! u r ok, I know u r ok! As I said to you somewhere else, happiness should come or start from within us, only then we can enjoy our sorrounding! here, I am not advising, but reminding, the best moments are not those we seek or wait for, but the ones that come when we least expect them! I don't dare to say u r tough, "like other ladies here said"  but u r strong, and explored life so well!  just remember, u r not alone, and u will never be! 
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4/10/2008 12:34 pm |
you have outlasted them all....that's more than power and strength to boost and have these days...you have that knack of getting up whenever, that is confidence too, so go girl! as i love you i love life 
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4/10/2008 1:00 pm |
Ate Elz I know you are a tough woman though you do stumble at times but you always stand up again and face the world with a smile and I truly and sincerely wish you the best!!! You know I also did not grow up with my parents and I also had a lot of resentment but in time when you have to face your own difficulties it´s easier to understand the many reasons...Hold on because many friends surrounds youIt will take more than common sense So stop your wondering take a stand Theres more to life than just to live Cus an empty room can be so loud Its too many tears to drown them out So hold on,hold on,hold on,hold on One single smile a helping hand Its not that hard to be a friend So don’t give up stand til the end Theres more to life than just to live Cus an empty room can be so loud Its too many tears to drown them out So hold on,hold on,hold on,hold on When you love someone And they break your heart Don’t give up on love Keep faith beside Just hold on,hold on,hold on,hold on When it falls apart And your feeling lost All your hope is gone Don’t forget to hold on,hold on  Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:02 pm |
I've seen your blogs my dear, and if you'll only give us a chance to know each other, we can be good friends, and I thank you kindly for your well-wishes...God bless you too! Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:04 pm |
just hang on there Elz. i know you will be Ok Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:07 pm |
like i always tell you, you are one tough cookie.. good to know you have good friends during times like this... they help us get by...Take care Elsa and God bless... Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:09 pm |
You'll be fine... i remember you told me the same line back then... true enough, i woke up one day feeling ok... i thanked you then, im thanking you again now for the encouraging words you've given me... we don't know each other that much, but i am sure, no matter what happens, you'll do well... take care and GBU! Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:10 pm |
Accept fate, and move on.Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:14 pm |
my dear Elsa, we cant make life go anti-clock-wise! and we cant pretend to possess what we should not possess! u r ok, I know u r ok! As I said to you somewhere else, happiness should come or start from within us, only then we can enjoy our sorrounding! here, I am not advising, but reminding, the best moments are not those we seek or wait for, but the ones that come when we least expect them! I don't dare to say u r tough, "like other ladies here said" but u r strong, and explored life so well! just remember, u r not alone, and u will never be! Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:16 pm |
You know, Trish, it's overwhelming to receive moral and emotional support from people I see only on this screen in front of me,. But I tell you, it gives a huge impact in my life...Thank you, and stay happy, my dear..My best regards to Sam Just call me ELZ
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4/10/2008 1:20 pm |
you have outlasted them all....that's more than power and strength to boost and have these days...you have that knack of getting up whenever, that is confidence too, so go girl! Just call me ELZ
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it is part of being human to feel down at times...you have been through a lot and survived as a better person...the rest can only bring out the best in you...keep blogging, sometimes it's the best outlet to vent out...
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4/10/2008 5:58 pm |
it is part of being human to feel down at times...you have been through a lot and survived as a better person...the rest can only bring out the best in you...keep blogging, sometimes it's the best outlet to vent out... Just call me ELZ
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4/11/2008 10:41 am |
And as always, you are there for me, Marie. You're one person who understands me despite of all my imperfections and shortcomings. With you, I am comfortable just being MYSELF. I can show all the MANY FACETS OF ME and still can bank on our friendship..I love you, my friend.. my day was quite hectic..after driving for my dad to pampanga to go to DFA, a close friend of mine treated me and some other friends to a much delayed welcome back dinner for me...i just got home. i miss being there...as i can just easily call you via landline, and we can share uplifting words for each other. remember when i told you, that since i will be going back to here, i want for both of us to feel like we are just a phone call away? ..but even if we are far away from each other, please be assured i am thinking of you always, and wishing you peace of mind and contenment of heart, as you deserve no less than that. we both can be at our worst - worst looks, worst moods, worst anything, but we will still try to love each other... good friends dont dissapear to seek shelter when rain starts to pour...they share a loving hug to make each other feel warm.. and keep each other company till the sun shines again.. i love you too my friend... MARIE
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4/12/2008 1:59 am |
hi there elsa... my day was quite hectic..after driving for my dad to pampanga to go to DFA, a close friend of mine treated me and some other friends to a much delayed welcome back dinner for me...i just got home. i miss being there...as i can just easily call you via landline, and we can share uplifting words for each other. remember when i told you, that since i will be going back to here, i want for both of us to feel like we are just a phone call away? ..but even if we are far away from each other, please be assured i am thinking of you always, and wishing you peace of mind and contenment of heart, as you deserve no less than that. we both can be at our worst - worst looks, worst moods, worst anything, but we will still try to love each other... good friends dont dissapear to seek shelter when rain starts to pour...they share a loving hug to make each other feel warm.. and keep each other company till the sun shines again.. i love you too my friend...  Just call me ELZ
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