Blog : A PM for my niece....True To Life (Shared only here)

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7/25/2016 11:09 am

A PM for my niece....True To Life (Shared only here)

Today is the first day that I am alone at home after my family went back to the Philippines (eldest brother and sis-in-law), and Dubai (their , the subject of this blog, and her family) last July 23rd, and 24th respectively. I just had my lunch alone at home before I wrote this, and it was a difficult time. I couldn't stop my tears rolling down my face...To those of you who know me, and where I came from, you will have a stronger grasp of who I am, and how transparent I am, when it comes to my life, as an open book..I just want to share with you my Private Message to my niece, who just had her 2nd here in Texas, 3 weeks ago, and had gone back home to Dubai about 7 hours ago.....

..." Dear Ermz, I thank God that you reached home finally, and safely...Reality is now kicking on me that all of you are gone from here. After work yesterday, I went to the apartment to start bringing stuff back home. As I looked at every corner of the house, I can envision everyone's position at the table, at the living room and everywhere else. I was wrapped with sadness and loneliness, but I am consoled by the fact that we will still be reunited some other times. While at your vacated apartment, Nang Inday (my eldest sis who lives in Wisconsin) called me, and without her telling me directly, she appreciates it and that it makes her happy connecting with the family thru facebook nowadays. It gave me a sting of hurt, knowing how I was maltreated by Becky,(my niece from Wisconsin, of Nang Inday who was against my creating an FB account for her mom) just to open Nang Inday's FB account. But that is all in the past now. I did not get the chance to tell you how emotional my goodbyes with Manong Mato(my eldest brother who left) at the airport was. He tried to control his tears, but I saw him teary-eyed while he was looking away. I do not remember even in our younger days back then, any single moment of solid bonding as siblings, and it had to happen now that we are older. The culture and family orientation during our parents' time excluded any demonstration of affection and love.They didn't hug or kiss way back then. Somehow, it was considered a sign of weakness or lack of emotional control. Love meant punishment and spankings. I am thankful that although our parents separated while I was very young, I grew up picking up and learning from other families in the city of Manila how NOT to be afraid to show and demonstrate how I feel, specially love and affection. I may not have my very own family and may have been alone most of my life, but that doesn't mean I am heartless. I may not be rich, but I am able to share whatever it is that I have, with all my heart. First of all, I thank God for this opportunity that He gave us to have this reunion. Secondly, I thank Kenan and You for giving your parents the chance to visit the USA and stayed here in Mcallen. There is always something to learn in life, and it can happen even as we age. I am sure, Manong and Nang Nening will have endless stories to tell friends back home. In the end, it is not just all about the American experience, but maybe, once in a lifetime family bonding. Manang Inday and I talked about how we can make the other siblings experience the bonding we never had while we were together as family ,in our future Philippine visits. It is never too late.....Lastly, I can now be at peace, knowing that you are safely back home in Dubai, and are back to normal, taking care of your bigger family. Remember to NOT give up molding your into loving, caring, and wonderful persons. They may have their own little personalities, but what you teach and demonstrate to them will always stay with them and will be remembered for the rest of their lives...I will continue to include you in my prayers. God bless your family. Find time in your heart to communicate with Him for He is the Ultimate source of our blessings. You do not have to go to church, but when you do, always remember that ALL things begin and ends with Him. Best regards to Kenan,his family and Michelle.Big hugs and kisses to the . Thanks in advance for giving Mark his packages. Rest well...It is never easy to be a parent...."

****the inserts in red are not part of the PM, but to explain to the readers who I am addressing to.

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7/26/2016 4:41 am

And I am wondering why this blog is not on the main page. Is it because of the FB in its entire word?
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