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Blogs > eb1209 > THE MANY FACETS OF ME


eb1209
23211 posts
1/5/2012 5:07 am
A Sentimental Excerpt: "dramatization"


There it is, the unexpected happened. Life in this high tech world is such that you just have to dish out a one time $20 online fee, and you'll be able to track down anyone you've been looking for, complete with home address, telephone number and what have you. Needless to say, he found me! This is a sequel to my recent blog. I was at home, sick and resting, when the phone rang:
ME: Hello!
HIM: Elsa?
ME: Yes? Who is this, please?
HIM: Oh my God! This is Luis, (not his real name) I finally found you, I've been looking for you for more than 33 years!
ME: (shocked, but I tried to keep my composure)...Oh, hi!...sorry about the FB thing. I checked your profile and found out that you and your "family" are in CA. I hope you don't mind, but, I am playing safe..
HIM: I understand, but just to let you know, I've been searching for you even when I was in KSA for 22 years. I even sent you birthday and Christmas cards at your latest Manila address, but unfortunately, you relocated already, and there was no way to contact you. You know, all these years, I've been thinking about you. That's why, I was so glad when I saw you in one of our common friend's network at FB.
ME: Look, Luis, I do not want to be mean, but, things are different now, even though we're both in the USA, you have your family, and I don't want to cause any concerns on your end. I want to stay out of trouble, even if this is just going to be for friendship sake.
HIM: Please, you know how I feel for you, I have loved you and will always love you, even though I already have a family, and I will fly anytime just to see you one more time...Please.
ME: How dare you say that? You see, this is what I am trying to avoid, and I don't even want to go there...I do not want to hear it, and please don't make this conversation unpleasant as you are making me uncomfortable already.
HIM: I am really sorry, I am just so overwhelmed, and I can't believe that I am talking to you after a very long time. This is the best New Year's gift I've ever had. I apologize if I make you feel uncomfortable. I will not say those words again, even though you know how I feel. But please, allow me to view your pictures. I just want to see how you look like after all this time..Please? that's all I want to ask from you.
ME: (thinking very hard)...Ok, I'll accept your invite, and you can view my pictures, but PLEASE, do not do nor post anything that will stir any concerns from anybody. I truly abhor the idea of you pursuing what you felt for me from before. LET's be clear on that. I can always block you from my list and from my phone. If I deem it is getting inappropriate already, I won't hesitate to detach myself from any sort of communications with you. Once again, I do not want to be mean, but, like I said, things are different now. You need to keep your status as it is, and take care of your family.
HIM: I promise, I will...Thank you, you made me so happy. You take care, and God bless you.
And the rest of the conversation is "PRIVATE".

Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 5:20 am
ONE HELLO---by: Angela Bofill

If you're not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It's a chance you take
A chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you've got to let them in

'Cause love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all
Or lose your heart

If you're not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try to keep it simple
But try and keep it real
And if bein' real
Means you'll someday say goodbye
Remember my friends
Good-bye's not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friends
Good-bye's not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts
It starts with one hello

It starts with one hello
Mmm...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 6:00 am

 Hayz! there are really a lot of things which are not meant to be....Time and again...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 6:01 am

 But at least, he tried so hard before...unlike other people who didn't even make their feelings known...that is sad..
Just call me ELZ


oldkanaba 73M
2458 posts
1/5/2012 7:35 am
Darn.. I wonder what that private conversation was. My curiosity was just piqued with that yes you can view my pics .

RadioShack has a recorder for phone conversations just in case you need to sue for harassment .

I can't even remember who my first girlfriend was in college. I think she married a senator's son he he he lucky her.

Well I hope he is true to his words and just watch you from afar. Good luck !
I'm a senior citizen . Don't expect me to remember anything


eb1209

1/5/2012 9:38 am
    Quoting oldkanaba:

    Darn.. I wonder what that private conversation was. My curiosity was just piqued with that yes you can view my pics .

    RadioShack has a recorder for phone conversations just in case you need to sue for harassment .

    I can't even remember who my first girlfriend was in college. I think she married a senator's son he he he lucky her.

    Well I hope he is true to his words and just watch you from afar. Good luck !
Bert, moso ka talaga... the private conversation was more of reminiscing the past...He even remembered my Mom, my sis, and the courtship...The good thing about FB is I can delete his posts, or I can limit his viewing privileges, and if does not keep his promise, I know just what to do...But I hope he will just do that..Who am I to deprive him of viewing my pictures? If it makes one soul very happy, so be it!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 9:42 am
    Quoting  :
Antheia, sweetie, first of all, thanks for the visit...Yes, indeed, he was and still is very sweet. His parents were also like him..they loved me to death, and I am sad to know that both of them have passed away ...I guess, we are just not meant for each other, although he still keeps saying: "we never know"...I can feel that he hasn't lost any hope..But!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 1:18 pm
    Quoting  :
So, directly speaking, WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY NOW?
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 2:16 pm
    Quoting  :
Kim, it's mostly all about my life and my experiences, so I can never go wrong... Thanks also for visiting!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 2:16 pm
    Quoting eb1209:
    ONE HELLO---by: Angela Bofill

    If you're not afraid
    Of what love brings
    Then endings are beginnings
    Of beautiful things
    It's a chance you take
    A chance you'll win
    If someone's gonna find you
    First you've got to let them in

    'Cause love begins with one hello
    The hardest part is over
    Now it's easy letting go
    One hello is how it starts
    You might win it all
    Or lose your heart

    If you're not afraid
    Of what you feel
    Then try to keep it simple
    But try and keep it real
    And if bein' real
    Means you'll someday say goodbye
    Remember my friends
    Good-bye's not the end
    It's a circle you know
    And it starts with one hello

    Love begins with one hello
    The hardest part is over
    Now it's easy letting go
    One hello is how it starts
    Remember my friends
    Good-bye's not the end
    It's a circle you know
    And it starts
    It starts with one hello

    It starts with one hello
    Mmm...
Does anyone know this song? It's really beautiful! try to Utube it...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/5/2012 2:55 pm
    Quoting  :
Heheheheeh! Ed, you may tumble on Toni Gonzaga's version on utube which is not that bad.. Uyyy! at kanino naman dedicated yang A Long and Lasting Love na iyan, aber?
Just call me ELZ


TessRb 64F
7258 posts
1/5/2012 5:09 pm

 Elz,

I was screaming reading this!!! Parang talagang movie about un-requited love that can never be. I've gotta hand it to you. He still loves you after all these years. Amazing love. Man, if he didn't love his wife? Why did he marry her??? Happy friday...muahs n hugs
Greatest feelings in the world when two souls profess a love for each other...


oldkanaba 73M
2458 posts
1/5/2012 6:06 pm
    Quoting  :

AHA! This must be the nothing that I surmised and read between the lines.

It's never too late he he he
I'm a senior citizen . Don't expect me to remember anything


eb1209

1/6/2012 2:35 am

 And before the page turns to 2, I'd like to acknowledge the presence of my NUMBER ONE READER, Mr./Ms. woodstock2010 woodstock2010..You never fail to amaze me...Just like the movie: "The Spy Who Loved Me", I hope your job is done well.. ..Anyway, this is my blog space, and I can write whatever I want, whenever I want...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/6/2012 2:40 am
    Quoting TessRb:
    Elz,

    I was screaming reading this!!! Parang talagang movie about un-requited love that can never be. I've gotta hand it to you. He still loves you after all these years. Amazing love. Man, if he didn't love his wife? Why did he marry her??? Happy friday...muahs n hugs
I felt the same way Tess, and I know we spoke on the phone while I was in Houston, regarding a former coworker of mine having an issue with a past love trying to win her back thru FB that is causing her present marriage a turmoil...only to find out that a week later, I will have my own story to tell...Incredible coincidence!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/6/2012 2:59 am
    Quoting  :
Jane, you know me. I am very open, and if I consider something "private", that means, I am protecting something that isn't appropriate for public anymore, specially if the details will give rise to the possible identities of the people involved. I tell you honestly how i "FELT" he was, the moment he realized that indeed, it was I on the other end of the line. I felt that he had a "transient loss of sense of present reality" (I honestly felt that he had taken himself back to the time about 34+years ago, and it sent some chills to my spine) and I had to re-orient him back to reality, to which I also felt some sadness, when he acknowledged that indeed, yeah, he has a family. I had to redirect him because he was getting carried away. I "purposely" asked about his wife, and that's when he calmed down. I am sure, it helped him realized that his initial ecstatic feeling was soon to fade away...The way I look at it is that since we didn't really make it as "sweethearts" (although I must admit I had a crush on him before but I felt I was too young and that he was too old for me at that time..He is now to turn 60 next month), there was no closure on his part because at that time, I had not even decided if I were to give my YES or not. I was only 17, and almost 8 months of courtship didn't make it to my 18th birthday..the cut off age in my family tradition to go on "chaperoned dates" and possibly having a boyfriend. We had to relocate and he had gone abroad to Saudi Arabia (KSA). That's what makes this story so much like in the teleserye or movies..
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/6/2012 3:07 am
    Quoting oldkanaba:

    AHA! This must be the nothing that I surmised and read between the lines.

    It's never too late he he he
This is what I admire with REAL MEN like you, Bert.. I like it when people are straightforward as in walang patumpik-tumpik or sobrang pasakalye...I hope matuto ang ibang mga TIMANG diyan! You have no idea what I've been through with this blogger. Lahat na yata ng klaseng tinapay isinampal ko sa mukha (biblically speaking) instead of bato, trying to understand some kind of "psychological derailment"..I've been harrassed through blogs, through text messages, and yet, I've been kind enough to forgive, it's because I know he is not that normal......Hay naku, I hope you were already active here in FFF during those times, so that you'll know what I mean..
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/6/2012 3:16 am
    Quoting  :
You did the right thing! It becomes a sin when there is a conscious and deliberate intent to "connect", to schedule a "virtual rendezvous" leading to emotions mimicking that of two people having a romantic relationship, specially if one or both are married to someone else. It is considered "adulterous". You asked my opinion, and that's my honest answer. However, I'm sure, marami akong masasagasaan sa sinabi kong iyan. It doesn't mean na nakiki-alam ako sa buhay-buhay ng ibang tao. We are all Old enough to know what we are doing, and sane enough to know which is right versus what is wrong. It also helps what kind of religious belief one has (to which s/he may or may not follow anyway)...
Just call me ELZ


theta2011 53F
1917 posts
1/6/2012 4:42 am

 ELZ,

Naku naman, sayang ang true love or obssession ba itetch? After all the years...Haba ng hair mo 'te

May mga love talaga that can stand the test of times, circumstances, people..We're all hoping and searching for this kind, the irony is that, he/she's not the right 'un. Tsk tsk...


eb1209

1/6/2012 9:59 am
    Quoting  :
Actually, Jane, guys/gals can say whatever they want, to justify that what they're doing is A-okay..., who would verify anyway? Unless, both of them are abnormal...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/6/2012 10:02 am
    Quoting theta2011:
    ELZ,

    Naku naman, sayang ang true love or obssession ba itetch? After all the years...Haba ng hair mo 'te

    May mga love talaga that can stand the test of times, circumstances, people..We're all hoping and searching for this kind, the irony is that, he/she's not the right 'un. Tsk tsk...
Thet, with you saying that, All I can do is sigh... because in all honesty, that's what we are looking for...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

1/6/2012 10:03 am

 And he knows I am sick, so he just texts me once in a while to check how am I doing. I requested for him not to call me as much as possible...It's better that way.
Just call me ELZ


ajaw430 54F

1/6/2012 1:00 pm
    Quoting eb1209:
    Does anyone know this song? It's really beautiful! try to Utube it...
Yes I love that song Elz, but I thought original is Randy Crawford?
but I have to look at A. Bofill, guess must be a good version too.


ajaw430 54F

1/6/2012 1:11 pm
    Quoting eb1209:
    And he knows I am sick, so he just texts me once in a while to check how am I doing. I requested for him not to call me as much as possible...It's better that way.
pero in fairness sweet sia, sayang nga lang, not meant to be.... okey sana kung walang sabit kaya naintindihan ko yung side mo, hirap pag may masisira na pamilya...hayz!

Anyway, get well soon Elz wish you a wonderful weekend


jane82 110F

1/6/2012 1:12 pm

 Gosh after many years he hasn't forgotten.
Like you I'd more likely avoid contact just in case.


within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.


eb1209

1/6/2012 3:07 pm
    Quoting ajaw430:
    Yes I love that song Elz, but I thought original is Randy Crawford?
    but I have to look at A. Bofill, guess must be a good version too.
you are right, Randy Crawford was the original...I love the song, Grace..
Just call me ELZ




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