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Blogs > eb1209 > THE MANY FACETS OF ME


eb1209
23211 posts
3/25/2010 6:09 am
Back To Being Numb Again.....

Love is such a tease, they say. It comes and goes, sometimes staying for a while, but sometimes, goodbyes are just as quick as hellos...My heart had been in a deep slumber, but for the past couple of years, somehow it managed to beat faster than it used to be, while my eyes pried in its drowsy state the love opportunities laid before me, not one time, but a couple of times.I veered to the left, and veered to the right, even took the U-turns, while I bravely assumed the roads less traveled.

My heart is always careful, too careful not to make that mistake of being a fool. It conspired with my mind and saw the dangers coming, even though it flirted with the chances that were brought about by fate. Living while loving dangerously was always ruled out, for the aftermath of any wreckless endearment will always take a backseat. Love was always subjected to a weighing scale, and any wrongful relationship stands no chance to thrive.

I've been accused of being so hard to myself and being too picky so many times, and for taking less risks that involved less fun. Maybe they are right, and I am wrong, but I could be right and they could wrong. For who can better gauge the perils that come my way better than I do? Who can tell just how good or bad the opportunities I've been presented with? With limited exposures and age-related options/competitions to deal with, how can one say that I've let the chances passed me by? Is it enough to be with someone just because I have to? or is it better be alone and be spared from a guaranteed heartbreak?

Now, I am back to being NUMB again...But I DID take chances, and took the roads less traveled.

Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/25/2010 12:55 pm
    Quoting  :
Just emoting here...You know me, very emotional and transparent..
Just call me ELZ


jane82 110F

3/25/2010 2:33 pm

 Ate Elz advanced happy easter na lang po.


within each one of us, and let it begin with me (and each one of us)..one breath at a time.


eb1209

3/25/2010 6:20 pm
    Quoting  :
Thanks Yen......Maybe, I am fortunate to be selectively "unfortunate"...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/25/2010 6:22 pm
    Quoting  :
I don't know if making any sense, really will make sense in the end..I am just happy to know that I am not singled out...Thanks, my lovely friend, ROXY!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/25/2010 6:23 pm
    Quoting  :
IT was, and it is, and it will...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/25/2010 6:25 pm
    Quoting  :
If LOVE is a song, I will sing it not from my voice, but from my heart, for the heart holds the sweetest melodies
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/25/2010 6:26 pm
    Quoting jane82:
    Ate Elz advanced happy easter na lang po.
Thanks, Janey! ...I hope my "anesthesia" will wear off temporarily during that time...Happy Easter Sunday to you too!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/25/2010 6:27 pm
    Quoting  :
Birds of the same feathers, flock together..Let's proliferate, Loof!
Just call me ELZ


frozenflower3 64F

3/25/2010 8:31 pm

 Elz,

I'm in the same boat. But, isn't better to be safe than sorry. To let ur heart bleed is too painful. Even when we're at the lowest point there is that glimmer of hope and love!!!

Ok, i was so curious na who that person was in the last blog? Coz never went to the chats area??? Just wondering why he would be acting so cocky??? Now, i know he spends most of his time in the cockpit!!! Just a little joke to brighten ur day. Have a wonderful Friday!!!! Thank God the weekend again. God loves you, Elz someday that prince is coming....


rajan2006 42M

3/25/2010 9:43 pm
Bosssssssssssssssss, very selective image for this blog..Really mean it !

" The joy is in creating...,Not maintaining "


eb1209

3/25/2010 10:43 pm
    Quoting rajan2006:
    Bosssssssssssssssss, very selective image for this blog..Really mean it !
Thanks, RAJ-jie...So far, you are very regular as a visitor in my blogs...Take care!
Just call me ELZ


smiley1957 66F

3/26/2010 12:04 am
elz dahling...i can understand ur feelings bcoz i do feel the same way too ...sometimes ...but...of course i don't wallow on that sadness/numbness and sure, u won't stay longer that way too ...we can always take chances...and i've talked to my hand lols!... and promised to myself that i will always take a risk for whatever it is worth...life is way too short not to explore what's possibly will bring u happiness in the end ...yes, we may think that happiness would not last but what matters is...we experienced it...had joy...had fun...had seasons in the sand ...and think about ... tomorrow...is another day...keep on marching...left>right>left>right !

what a wonderful world...of emoticons!!!


and hey! don't forget...

i love the image...is like my daughter


dunlop3764

3/26/2010 2:38 am
MiAMi ... Do U mean, MaNHid to love This is sad!

Be swift 2LOVE make haste 2B kind
DUnLop


eb1209

3/26/2010 3:06 am
    Quoting  :
And there has never been a perfect love either....But love is love, as one may define at the time that the FEELings are overwhelming...Thanks, Boots!

Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/26/2010 3:11 am
    Quoting frozenflower3:
    Elz,

    I'm in the same boat. But, isn't better to be safe than sorry. To let ur heart bleed is too painful. Even when we're at the lowest point there is that glimmer of hope and love!!!

    Ok, i was so curious na who that person was in the last blog? Coz never went to the chats area??? Just wondering why he would be acting so cocky??? Now, i know he spends most of his time in the cockpit!!! Just a little joke to brighten ur day. Have a wonderful Friday!!!! Thank God the weekend again. God loves you, Elz someday that prince is coming....
So, let this be a boomerang on your own experience, Tess...Wallowing in pain and numbness will never do anyone any good. It's a temporary state of mind and heart...Healing will take place sooner or later, and hopefully, the numbness will wear off, as the circulation of love will make things run smoothly again...Forget about the guy in the cockpit...We never really were on the same page,,,Wrong identity..Chill!

Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/26/2010 3:12 am
    Quoting  :
A big hole indeed, to free the worthless fish. back to the ocean.

Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/26/2010 3:14 am
    Quoting smiley1957:
    elz dahling...i can understand ur feelings bcoz i do feel the same way too ...sometimes ...but...of course i don't wallow on that sadness/numbness and sure, u won't stay longer that way too ...we can always take chances...and i've talked to my hand lols!... and promised to myself that i will always take a risk for whatever it is worth...life is way too short not to explore what's possibly will bring u happiness in the end ...yes, we may think that happiness would not last but what matters is...we experienced it...had joy...had fun...had seasons in the sand ...and think about ... tomorrow...is another day...keep on marching...left>right>left>right !

    what a wonderful world...of emoticons!!!


    and hey! don't forget...

    i love the image...is like my daughter
Smiley, sweetie, I FEEL better already, knowing that I am not alone FEELing this way, and that I am not alone being HOT either.....Have a great weekend, mah dahlen`!

Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/26/2010 9:22 am
    Quoting dunlop3764:
    MiAMi ... Do U mean, MaNHid to love This is sad!
Yes, MOD-DJ...Numb as in "MAN-hid".....Good to see you here! HELLO!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/26/2010 11:32 am
    Quoting  :
Hi there Tini! ...It's not even losing hope, it's just being numb...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/26/2010 11:34 am
    Quoting  :
Yannie, sweetie...I don't fear being hurt, for as long as the person is worth having the pain..The problem is if the person is merely just that,... PAIN...
Just call me ELZ


alvin84 39M
910 posts
3/26/2010 8:46 pm
AMS, how do you classify a fish as "worthless"


eb1209

3/27/2010 4:10 am
    Quoting  :
Can you imagine the world without us? ...DISASTER!
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/27/2010 4:13 am
    Quoting  :
Sweetie, as far as what you and I have gauged Eldz before and now...He still has a lot of issues in his love and family life...I don't wanna even get involved there...But time will come, he will find himself back on the road of romance again, when he is emotionally ready...and it doesn't have to be with me...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/27/2010 4:14 am
    Quoting  :
I am happy enough to have KILIG MOMENTS...
Just call me ELZ


eb1209

3/27/2010 4:17 am
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And in a few days from now, I will start practising videoke/karaoke again in preparation for my cruise with Bhabes bday1021
Just call me ELZ




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