Sinking  

5/1/2005 4:38 pm Last Read: 3/5/2006 9:28 pm

deeper and deeper and deeper. the void in me is devouring all traces of happiness. everyday is an effort to try to look and feel alright. try. effort. why do you have to tell me things like those? like you don't know it's gonna hurt. the green-eyed monster is all over me. W H Y ? ? ? ? ? i don't want to hurt anymore. no, don't ask me why i'm hurting in the first place. don't ask. don't say a word. just let me be. let me sink further deep into the dank and gloomy catacomb of my solitude. damn. take all these emotions. take them all away. i don't want to feel anything anymore. tomorrow...everything will be different. there will be nothing. nothing in me. no more. -May