His mysterious ways....  

4/27/2005 5:14 am Last Read: 3/5/2006 9:28 pm	after months of agonizing with my upper back and neck pains, which were symptoms of (and that has further distressed) my unconsciously stressed-out mental and emotional state, things are finally starting to lighten up. being on a two-week medication to calm my anxious frame of mind, the body aches have disappeared... or at least ninety percent of it... ten percent remains because of time spent on the computer... with my mind clearing up the way the skies do after a storm, realizations are trickling in like leftover droplets of rain. and with these realizations, i have been fighting for a few days now to hold back tears that desperately want to escape. finally i just gave in. to let go of everything i have been tightly holding on to. to let go of all the poison that have been eating me up inside. to let go of locked up frustrations that have hindered me to move on. i guess this is His way of reminding me. His way of bringing me back to where i should be. for there is more that lies ahead... and i would really need the strength and serenity for things to come...
flipman11435 3032 posts  4/27/2005 10:21 am	its like that saying..if you set it free and it comes back to u it was meant to be...otherwise move on..even though it maybe painful there's more life out there for your young soul to experience. we all go through phases in our lives and maybe this is one of them for you. Strees can be both mental and physical so with what's going on with you you might be adding more stress overthinking about it. Some of these blogs that people write here seem to be a catharsis for them but also a trap because they keep reminding themselves of the pain they go through. Maybe in your case, you might thinking so much about the past that its becoming your present and physically working on you. Maybe you should try a bubble bath, a day at the amusement park with friends, seeing a comedy show, a spa massage at a really trendy place....or just a good cry on someone's shoulder or a good talk to with a really good friend who can set u straight and see that you a lot to offer someone else and there's more life out there to go through whether it be crying, laughing, being silly, goofy, and whatever!.. anyways, thats some advice..hopefully some of it hits home... triple peace out "This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”
drunken_angel 430 posts  4/27/2005 3:55 pm	Thanks Flip but really I am moving on, I only had a whole day thinking all about it... over and over again and that is enough. I didn't always have to be reminded of the things that's causing me to break. And I am over it. Yes, ice cream cone been such a big help too.... I had all day spa too... and I am as free as bird... who wants to fly away and fee the freedom within... thank you Flip peace out!
drunken_angel 430 posts  8/20/2005 5:28 pm	swear.. this is the saddest part of my life...