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10/20/2010 4:30 pm

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INSPIRATION

Yes. that is the word i was looking for to diagnose my situation!
my situation in simple words, I no more can write!
no more can blog
no more can comment!
and when i try to do so, it is like squeezing my brain, and forcing my heart to beat differently!
Not only that, but..
I feel I can't concentrate!
always dreamy! i mean day dreamy!
As soon as I start my car to head somewhere, I forget where i intended to go! lol
when people call me, I tell them that I will come back to them and call back, but I rarely do.
Recently, i bought lots of clothes, but still wearing the old ones!
made 2 different trips during weekends, but they weren't a real change!
If i am awake, I never feel sleepy!
And when I sleep, I never want to wake up.
I hardly drink, but sometimes i wish i were drunk!
I have so many friends!
specially women.
women of different ages! from 18 to more than 60.
most of them are so special to me!
some of them are so closed to me!
but even with them, among them, while talking to them, and throughout the time i spend caming with them, teasing them, laughing with them, winking at them, reaching out for them,,,
still there is something missing!
I don't feel I am inspired!
I don't feel the real love that can shake the entire me!
I long for the love that can inspire me!
I miss the love feeling that used to make me feel as if i were possessing the sun, stars and the moon!
I miss the love wings that used to make me fly so high! higher than the any sky and enable me to touch the north Pole with one hand and the southern Pole with the other at the same time!
I miss gazing into a woman eyes so that I see all the beauty on earth there deep in her eyes!
I miss touching the lips of the woman which can make melt, and more a bit!
I miss the moment when i used to travel into discovering a woman's body features, with all its hills, valleys, flat ground, mountains, silky roads, little rivers that run eternally and endlessly!
I admit, it is not easy.
and i am not that easy!
and may be nothing should be easy!!
but at the very end, some candle light must be lit to show me the way! I am not blind, but I really can't see!
for a moment i thought it was you!
or her..
or even her shadow that visited me after the middle of the night while i was cursing my loneliness!
it is not just a matter of body!
and it is not the mechanical process that most guys spend so much time thinking of!!
it is the woman who got her brain combined together with her heart, in order to explode the volcano under my feet!!
that is the woman who will inspire me, and put every thing in order again!